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New Songs Week Ending 9/28

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1.Intro

Playboi Carti - 9 AM in Calabasas (Erick Rxse Edit) (prod. Adrian)

Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back).mp3

PORNSTAR ~ nessa barrett (sped up)

Love changes everything,
It mends the broken, makes hearts sing.
Turns the dark into the bright,
Love brings the dead of night to life.
Oh, love changes everything.
Love changes everything.

Love changes everything,
It mends the broken, makes hearts sing.
Turns the dark into the bright,
Love brings the dead of night to life.
Oh, love changes everything.
Love changes everything.

Love changes everything,
Your love changes me.

(Inspired by a chorale by Johann Sebastian Bach, BWV 659.)

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, Apple's GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, Apple's GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Sound Studio, VirtualDJ, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of ChatGPT and Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Adobe Photoshop, DALL-E, FLUXpro, Apple's Keynote

Love Changes Everything


🔻 Song Insight

“Eat These Words” from Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE is a reimagined chapter pulled from past pain and sharpened into something cinematic. It doesn’t live in old wounds — instead, it reframes betrayal and survival into a raw, unplugged grunge confession. The track strips away polish to reveal the jagged edges of manipulation, anger, and emptiness, turning scars into a soundscape that feels both intimate and colossal. With its Alice-in-Chains-Unplugged-vibe, “Eat These Words” captures the moment where words themselves become weapons — swallowed, spit back, and finally reclaimed.

[Verse 1]  
You say I'm fixed  
it's not that way  
the shit you say  
only lies behind eyes now gone gray

[Verse 2]  
Black thunder rolls  
this storm inside my head  
anger builds — it's red  
what I should've said 


[Bridge]  
emotions behind these walls  
Trapped, buried — down I fall  
lost grip, a place to stall  
Pain and chaos — all I recall  

[Chorus]  
Fuck me, cut me, leave me   
Be my cause, my cure, my drug  
Let this life pour out —   
Hold me, drink me, eat these words  


[Verse 4]
You pull me close — then wrap me cold  
Skin you sold, a body gone old  
Viral lies — told with gold  
a soul you'll never hold

 [Bridge]  
Gripping tight —
let this body fight  
reflections, a face I hate  
too long I stayed  
a place never made  

[Chorus]  
Fuck me, cut me, leave me   
Be my cause, my cure, my drug  
Let this life pour out —   
Hold me, drink me, eat these words   


[Outro]  
You say I'm fixed — and know I bleed  
You think I'm okay —it's the end I seek  
every day it's you — taking parts of me  
Watch me die — walking away  
Tears never fall — emptiness, thats all you are  

Fuck me, cut me, leave me   
Be my cause, my cure, my drug  
Let this life pour out —   
drink me, eat these words

its me no voice left
no way to speak   
its my soul I keep
you are alone with-
emptiness  
emptiness  
emptiness


🔻 Personal Reflection

This song came from a place of anger, but not from where I stand today. “Eat These Words” is a fragment of an older reality — a time when betrayal blurred with survival and every conversation felt like a trap. Revisiting it now, I’m not reliving those emotions but reclaiming them. Through Fractures: Reimagined, I want listeners to know these songs are echoes, not fresh wounds. They’re a way of showing how pain can be reframed into something creative, cinematic, and ultimately freeing.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

4ME2BEFREE has always been about turning lived experience into sonic storytelling. By weaving heavy emotion with cinematic grunge textures, each track becomes more than music — it becomes memory re-imagined. Fractures: Reimagined is an intentional project: it doesn’t look backward with longing, but with clarity, transforming past scars into soundscapes that anyone carrying their own battles can resonate with.

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Eat These Words - Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE

🔻 Song Insight

A Junkyard of Memories is a raw excavation of broken trust and twisted recollections — a scrapyard of lies, fractured thoughts, and ghosts of belief. It explores what happens when memories become weaponized, snarling back like feral dogs, refusing to be buried. The song captures the chaos of manipulation and the clarity that follows escape. It’s jagged, experimental, and cinematic — weaving whispers, echoes, and reverb into a fractured alt-grunge narrative.

🔻 Lyrics

[Verse 1]
It’s a fracture in time
A slipup to dive
Back into the pisse-show
You called your life
A talk show promo
An expo of your lies
Delirium by the milligram
You serve it cold
Gray matter scattered
Logic’s got holes

[Chorus – Whispered, Echo]
A junkyard of memories
Snarling like dogs
Biting for access
To whatever’s left of your thoughts

[Verse 2]
I flipped back
To the days I believed you
Now I see
How it’s all been deceived through
Laser-scope focus
Content flagged
Ritual hieroglyphics
In the speeches you drag
You sell shit
You yell it
But say nothing exact

[Bridge – Spoken, Fading in Reverb]
Transparent reflections... bound descendants...
prophecies… rails… nails…

[Verse 3]
Back pew thoughts
Knowing it’s done
You’re empty
You're gone
Hope used to gleam
Now it’s dim in the fog
Theft in the night
Now you chase what bites
You called it the light
But it’s your final flight

[Chorus – Broken Beat, Delayed Vox]
Dodging bullets
No longer casualty
It’s all on you
You own this tragedy

[Verse 4 – Calm, Decisive Tone]
I bowed out
Held to my gums
At peace with the silence
With the damage I’ve done
I’m taking my leave
No epilogue sung

[Outro – Fading, Low Reverb]
A lost soul
No home
Always running
From being alone
Afraid to stand
Face what’s near
That’s why your tears
Will drown you for years

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song came from looking back at the wreckage of promises that were never real, only staged illusions. It’s about finally seeing through the performance — the talk shows, the speeches, the endless noise — and realizing none of it had substance. A Junkyard of Memories is me standing outside that wreckage, no longer a casualty of it, but still scarred by the debris. Writing it was like spitting glass and clearing the fog at the same time.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

This track pushes 4Me2BeFree further into experimental territory — not just grunge, but fractured soundscapes that echo memory itself. The use of whispered choruses, spoken bridges, and fading outros builds a cinematic tension that mirrors the chaos of lies unraveling. It’s part confession, part exorcism — showing how 4Me2BeFree’s music blends raw emotion with immersive storytelling to create something both personal and universal.

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A Junkyard of Memories - Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE

🔻 Song Insight

If I Could Be is a slow-burn confession wrapped in smoke, shadows, and grit. It’s not quite country, not quite alternative, but something in between — a restless walk down a dark alley in Pennsylvania. The track pulls influence from blues, country, and 90s alt-rock but refuses to settle into any one lane, echoing the mood of The Sopranos’ theme. With raspy vocals, haunting guitar lines, and cinematic swells, the song wrestles with regret, missed chances, and the longing to rewrite the past. It’s both intimate and vast, like an empty street echoing with what might have been.

🔻 Lyrics

🌙 [Verse 1] (Soft electric guitar picking, distant vinyl crackle, melancholic tone)
Music in the air, killers on the screen
Where was I but being used, lost, and unseen?
Started life lost, from what was meant to be
No guide in sight, I wandered aimlessly

💔 [Verse 2] (Subtle drum pulse, deeper bass, haunting background synths)
You were having a worse time, that's for sure
But it didn’t make up for the hell you ensured
I couldn’t defend you, didn’t know your name
Didn’t know who you were, had no way to claim

🔥 [Chorus] (Full-band swell, soaring vocals, cinematic strings layering the emotion)
I would have done anything, come to fight for you
Stand on my own, take them down too
We could have stood together, screamed your name
Made everyone know, it’s not a game

🌊 [Verse 3] (Fading echoes, heartbeat-like drumbeat, soft backing harmonies)
It’s shitty things happened, you faced your nightmare
No one to stand for you, it wasn’t fair
Fighting alone, in a world unknown
Resigning to a love, never shown

🌌 [Verse 4] (Stripped-back piano, aching vocal delivery, slow-build tension)
If I had a time machine, I’d fix what’s wrong
Change it all, make them pay, make you strong
I’d save you, make you whole
So you’d be okay, free in soul

🔥 [Chorus – Repeat] (Bigger, raw harmonies, guitar swelling under the words)
I would have done anything, come to fight for you
Stand on my own, take them down too
We could have stood together, screamed your name
Made everyone know, it’s not a game

⚡ [Bridge] (Stripped percussion, intense whispered vocals)
If I could turn back time, I'd save us both
Know your worth, your heart, your oath
It’s not an excuse for the things you did
But I’d still save us, for a happier bid

🌙 [Verse 5] (Softer, reflective)
What made us, we were broken, so different
Yet still responsible, owning our intent
Walking this world alone, but now we see
We’re stronger together, just you and me

🔥 [Final Chorus] (Last burst of raw energy)
I would have done anything, come to fight for you
Stand on my own, take them down too
We could have stood together, screamed your name
Made everyone know, it’s not a game

🌌 [Outro] (Soft piano notes, echoes fading, heartbeat rhythm slowing)
If I had a time machine, I’d change our fate
Make things right, before it’s too late
We’d live a life, full of happiness
Free from the pain, in togetherness

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song came from imagining the life I could have given someone if I’d been there sooner — the way everything might have shifted if I could’ve stepped in, fought, or protected them. It’s about the weight of hindsight and the ache of knowing you’d change everything if you could. The song doesn’t sit in one genre because grief and regret don’t either — they wander through alleys, past neon signs, through smoky bars, and into memories that don’t fade.


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If I Could Be - Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE

🔻 Song Insight

Reaction is a scorched-earth reflection on deception, disillusionment, and the moment you realize the game was never love at all. It’s lean and unsparing — a dark alt-grunge track with flashes of blues grit and punk sneer. The lyrics rip through self-mythologizing and expose the delusion underneath, showing the narrator’s shift from naïveté to steel. Less confession and more reckoning, it’s the sound of a match striking in a room full of lies.

🔻 Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Fantasy world you live in,
Delusions dressed as truth—
You rewrote history
To make yourself the proof.

I wish I lived in make-believe
Where everything you say is real.
So naive you must be
To think I’d never feel.

[Chorus]
All is fair in love and war...
But this was never that.
It was a mirror cracked by lies—
A truth you never had.

I could’ve read the leaves,
But let’s be honest:
I was never the reason
You left so thoughtless.

[Verse 2]
You’re not the genius I believed.
I gave you too much grace—
For who I thought you were
And who you couldn’t face.

[Bridge]
Dumpster fire ignorance,
Rail-grade flames—
Hearts gone numb,
Desires untamed.

You’ll either wake up
Or sink in the wreck,
Drowning in your logic
Of what comes next.

[Verse 3]
Never forgiven, never forgotten—
I keep score,
You keep rotting.
Too blind to walk,
Too proud to crawl—
It was never love.
Not at all.

[Outro]
No heart, no weight.
Not worth the crime.
Not worth the date
Or the borrowed time.

🔻 Personal Reflection

Reaction was written after the fog lifted — when the excuses stopped working and the truth could finally be spoken out loud. It’s about seeing someone’s self-constructed myth crumble, and realizing you were a prop in their performance. This song is my way of burning down the stage and walking out with my head high.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

With Reaction, 4Me2BeFree leans into a stripped, biting alt-grunge style that fuses bluesy grit with punk immediacy. It shows the project’s range beyond mournful ballads — moving into searing, no-nonsense confrontation while still cinematic and emotionally layered. This is the soundtrack of a door closing for good.

🔻 Copyright Notice

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Reaction - Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE

Song Insight

“I’m Missing You” is a tender, whimsical diary set to guitar. It’s not about grand gestures—it’s about the small, messy moments that make love unforgettable: coffee cups steaming, toast popping, eggs cracking, and the quiet ache of wishing someone was there. Awkward, shy, and imperfect by design, the song feels like a private voice memo left for someone special. It’s playful yet heartfelt, capturing the sweetness of young love and the loneliness of missing it.

Lyrics

Intro:
Spoken Word:
"This song is dedicated to my boyfriend Brooks, I love you and I'm missing you"


Verse 1:
I can’t sleep staring at my phone
Wishing it was you looking up at me
Why does it have to be so complicated
Can’t we just skip to that place
Where you are next to me

Chorus:
Coffee cup, dreaming of you
Cheesy things we do, I’m stuck like glue
What do I do with thoughts of you?
Falling hard, I know it’s true
Jelly toast, I’ll make for you

Verse 2:
Making my coffee, dreaming of you
Stirring in the parts that make me laugh
Eggs in the pan cracked, I smile again
Cheesy things we do, it has me like glue
Toast pops up and I’m being jelly
Your friends get to be with you
And I stare into another day feeling blue

Chorus:
Coffee cup, dreaming of you
Cheesy things we do, I’m stuck like glue
What do I do with thoughts of you?
Falling hard, I know it’s true
Jelly toast, I’ll make for you

Verse 3:
The TV’s on but I’m not feeling at home
It’s when you’re gone that I’m all alone
Nothing can take your place
No matter what I do

The juice sweet reminds me kissing your neck
Your lips, your skin and I’m falling further in
I don’t mind this time, take me under just a spell
I’d rather be dreaming, seeing you
Than in this empty hell

Bridge:
Cold chill locked us in under covers
My body warm pressed next to you
Every part of me knew what to do
In darkness we captured our spark
The hotel room was lit up like fire
The crisp air turned to steam
Worries melted into air
Down we arrived there
Tired and gone
Sleep fell
And we were gone

Verse 4:
Like that I was awake back alone
Wishing you were home
But fishes be damned, I ain’t got a thing
It’s just me left in my own mess
The parts that’s left when I’m blue
From not having you

Chorus – Outro:
Coffee cup, dreaming of you
Cheesy things we do, I’m stuck like glue
What do I do with thoughts of you?
Falling hard, I know it’s true
Jelly toast, I’ll make for you




Personal Reflection

“This song is for Brooks. It’s the closest I could get to bottling how love feels when it’s silly, shy, and real—and how empty mornings feel when he’s not there. The coffee, the toast, even the eggs—every small detail carries his presence. Recording it, I didn’t want polish; I wanted truth. Just me, a guitar, and the sound of missing someone who matters.”

4Me2BeFree

For 4ME2BEFREE, “I’m Missing You” shows the softer side of storytelling. Not every track has to scream; sometimes the quietest, quirkiest love songs say the most. This is intimacy captured raw: imperfect strums, shy laughter, and lyrics that let the listener sit at the breakfast table of someone in love. It’s another layer of cinematic honesty—where imperfection is the beauty.

Copyright Notice

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I'm Missing You

🔻 Song Insight – “Inside” by 4Me2BeFree
“Inside” is a haunting descent into the spaces we rarely let others see — a cinematic confession layered with heat, hesitation, and hard-won vulnerability. Set against the backdrop of dark analog synths and Stranger Things-style ambiance, the track balances erotic energy with emotional weight. It’s not just about desire — it’s about what happens when connection breaks past skin and touches memory, shame, and need.

Built on a mid-tempo rhythm that simmers rather than explodes, “Inside” pulls you through a series of internal awakenings. Each verse peels away another layer of armor. Each chorus dares to ask: Can I survive being truly seen?

With its deep male vocals, breathy echoes, and moments of sonic distortion, this track delivers not just sound — but sensation.

[Opening]
I feel it rising—my mind is set
Tension builds where we find no rest
You come close, and I lose control
Heat in my blood, deep in your soul

[Verse 1]
My clothes don’t fit when you’re near
Lose my sight to the things I’d hear
You trace my curve with every touch
Softest tongue—I feel too much
I try to pull back, but I’m too far gone
Hardest hour, still holding on

[Pre-Chorus]
Your eyes look up—silent, understood
You don’t ask, but you know you should
My love comes running, I’m ready to go
*Dripping desire—can’t stop the flow*

[Chorus]
Keep me alive—don’t let it die
Be brave, hold it tight
You’re not shy, not tonight
Don’t let go—it’s part of your show

[Climactic Chorus]
You want my liquid love to thrive
A precious seed, a need you feed inside
I don’t care about the words, just the ride
That place, that escape…

[Verse 2]
Mouth caught on my nerve, you devour
I’m undone in the midnight hour
I taste myself with every kiss
Trapped in your ache, can’t resist
Alone, I hear you in my mind
You freed a part I couldn’t hide

[Bridge]
You bit your lip, smacked my ass
You made me gasp with every thrash
Forget the past, just let it slide
No shame here—just the ride inside

[Chorus]
Keep me alive—don’t let it die
Be brave, hold it tight
You’re not shy, not tonight
Don’t let go—it’s part of your show

[Climactic Chorus]
You want my liquid love to thrive
A precious seed, a need you feed inside
I don’t care about the words, just the ride
That place, that escape…

[Outro]
That place, that escape
That ride inside
No words, no shame
Just me alive

🔻 Personal Reflection
This song came from a place I wasn’t sure I’d ever let music touch. It’s about sex, yes — but more than that, it’s about intimacy colliding with memory, and how desire can either heal or haunt. I’ve been with people who saw my body but didn’t see me, and I’ve also known the kind of connection that’s terrifying because it does.

“Inside” was born out of that collision — physical, emotional, and spiritual. It speaks to the aftermath of trauma, the ache of needing to be accepted, and the risk of letting someone in fully when parts of you still feel unsafe or unloved.

Recording this was strange at first — I had to step into that vulnerability vocally, not just lyrically. I wanted the track to breathe, to burn, and to blur — like a fever dream you remember through someone else’s scent.

This isn’t just eroticism — it’s reclamation.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track is a perfect example of what 4Me2BeFree is becoming: a sound that fuses personal liberation with cinematic emotion. Whether it’s heartbreak, sensuality, or quiet rage — every song is a mirror, curved by feeling, wrapped in texture, and grounded in lived truth.

We don’t do music as performance. We do music as memory — scored with synths, scars, and survival.

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Inside - Halloween 25 Club Version

RITA ORA feat. Krept & Konan — Poison [SLOWED]

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.