🔻 Song Insight
“Dark Surprise – The Loop-Hole” is a haunting exploration of psychological fragmentation and the quiet devastation of being lost within your own mind. At its core, the song captures the surreal, shifting experience of navigating emotional trauma, memory loss, and disassociation—where time becomes a spiral and identity fractures with each echo of the past. The lyrics unravel like pages of a journal from a reality that’s coming apart. It's a plea to escape a life that no longer feels lived, only remembered through broken reflections and stuttering timelines.

As the story unfolds, listeners are pulled into a dreamlike dimension where the narrator’s sense of self warps and collapses under the weight of emotional distortion. This isn’t just about grief or heartbreak—it’s about the terrifying feeling of no longer recognizing yourself in the mirror and the unbearable question: what if I never come back?

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro – Spoken]
I fell asleep and I said goodnight...
but I never said goodbye.

[Verse 1]
I'm feeling wrong and upside-down
What once felt right—now drags me down
I was rising, but I couldn’t see
A gaslight burned where truth should be

[Verse 2]
I felt the shift deep in my chest
Displaced from time, denied my rest
Scribbled moments across my spine
Scratched-out ink, no longer mine

[Chorus]
It’s a loop-hole stuck… it’s me
Can’t speak to what I cannot see
Blinders on, keep steering wrong
Switching lanes, pretending strong

[Spoken]
His skin is the same as my reflection...
but his heart is empty.

[Verse 3]
People stare, but no one speaks
I see a face that isn’t me
Lips move with a stranger's plea
Dreams of places I’ll never be

[Verse 4]
Tethered tight by broken bones
This isn’t me—I stand alone
Flashbacks pause, but never play
Screaming for my yesterdays

[Chorus]
It’s a loop-hole stuck… it’s me
Can’t speak to what I cannot see
Blinders on, keep steering wrong
Switching lanes, pretending strong

[Spoken]
Why do people do these things to one another...
and call it love?

[Bridge]
Making moves without a thought
Dragging shadows I never caught
Begging fate to cut the chain
I try—I try—but still remain
Now inside, it builds to rage

[Verse 5]
You chose the mask—I wore the pain
Ignored the soul you couldn't name
I’m crying from the place within
But without you… I never begin

[Chorus – Final]
It’s a loop-hole stuck… it’s me
Can’t speak to what I cannot see
Blinders on, keep steering wrong
Side-swiped dreams I don’t belong

[Spoken]
I had no clue what pain was…
until I felt what it was to be myself.

[Outro]
Stuck in a vertical dive
Falling through a fractured sky
A dreamer’s dream—just never to be
Always here… or what's left of me?

[Spoken – Final]
If this is not hell… then where am I?




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Dark Surprise - The Loop-Hole

Caught in the Riptide by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I remember skipping class
Fifteen and feeling free
Ben McKinney, Logan Glass
Do those guys remember me?
Roll a blunt dipped in honey
Tell a joke, shit you’re funny

[Pre-Chorus]
I feel on top of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Verse 2]
By nineteen, flashing lights
Little pills of ecstasy
Danced all night, lost my sight
Cash was gone so easily
Lines and bumps in bathroom stalls
Chasing highs that break the fall

[Pre-Chorus]
Still feel on top of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Chorus]
Like I’m walking on white sand
And the water looks so kind
So I dive in, head and hands
But it chills me to the spine

[Main Hook]
Losing sight of the shoreline
Treading water to survive
I’m about to lose my life
‘Cause I’m caught in the riptide

[Verse 3]
Then came nights with no more light
Plumes of white in darkened rooms
Needles in the quiet fight
Sealing shadows to my doom
Light it up, bodies shaking
Shoot it up, future breaking

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m on the edge of the world

[Hook]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Bridge]
By the water, walls came down
First time I could speak my heart
Little boy lost his ground
When his family fell apart
Big brother gone, abuse and lies
Divorce that burned through all my skies

[Final Hook]
I was sinking, I was fading
Nothing left to hold on to
Then I reached for something steady
And it pulled me back to you

[Transition]
Now I’m standing in the sun
With a love that pulled me through
All that pain became the waves
That carried me to you

[Final Chorus]
Now I’m walking on white sand
And the water feels so nice
So I dive in, head and hands
And it warms me deep inside

[Outro]
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy
ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

Treading water to survive

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

I was caught in the riptide

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

But with you, I’m alive 

ooo-ehh, ooo-ehh, riptide-ayy

[Instrumental Outro]

Caught in the Riptide

Crushed – Song Insight by 4Me2BeFree
🔻 Song Insight

“Crushed” unfolds in the shadows of an indifferent world, where hope and pain tangle in the ruins of what we thought life, love, and humanity could be. The song drifts through dense clouds of internal struggle, channeling the feeling of suffocating beneath the weight of unseen burdens and silent wars. It’s not about one person or one villain—it’s about wrestling with existence itself, how the world presses down until you find the one flicker of color that’s yours alone.

From the opening static and muffled breath to the relentless repetition of “Take on me,” the lyrics echo the cyclical ache of trying to make sense of a broken dreamscape. The spoken bridge rips open the quiet—crumbling history, fractured illusions, and the residue of memories too heavy to shake off. Yet through the darkness, a scarlet thread runs: resilience, the refusal to let the world define you, the courage to keep speaking—even when the world seems made of stone and ash.

“Crushed” is for anyone who’s faced down the void and chosen to survive, forging identity and meaning from the very ashes of disappointment.

🔻 Lyrics

[Intro]
[static] [crackle] [muffled breathing]

[Verse 1]
Crushed lungs
I forfeit this life
No desires required
Can't explain this mess
The voices inside these walls
Or is it just inside my head?
Fuck it, it's all the same
Another day, we play again

[Chorus]
Take on me
Is this free
Inside my heart
I can't breathe
Turn on me
I still bleed
I hold that day
Another away
I try and say
Take on me

[Verse 2]
Influence dreams
They fade in
A part of this
Take my hand
Feel this voice
Hear what it says
Or believe

[Chorus]
Take on me
Is this free
Inside my heart
I can't breathe
Turn on me
I still bleed
I hold that day
Another away
I try and say
Take on me

[Rap / Spoken Bridge]
History buried in ash and wire
Nails on the floor, spit sparks from the pyre
Another mask in the hallway mirror
Ghost in the concrete—voice gets nearer

Shell forged in a furnace of noise
Dreams chewed up like broken toys
Night leaks in, peeling back the safe space
Drip in the silence, hope leaves no trace

No vengeance, just a hunger that breaks
Promises coil, splinter and shake
Trophies rust in a static parade
Truth is a shadow that never decays

Blue lights flicker—illusion walks free
Copies of copies, nothing left to see
Black tar memory stains in the seams
Stuck in the marrow, starving for clean

Spark tries to flicker in dead air’s hold
Pulse of a past that’s too burnt, too cold
Cracks in the wall keep humming that song
This is hell with the lights left on

[Outro]
Take on me
Is this free
Inside my heart
I can't breathe
Turn on me
I still bleed
I hold that day
Another away
I try and say
Take on me



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Crushed

NORTHERN LIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I saw the Northern Lights last night
Slicing the sky like birds in flight
The sun goes down, the shine departs
Half a year of endless dark
If you were here, I wouldn’t complain,
But I walk alone on this frozen lane.

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty town don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.
(Oooooh oooooh)

[Chorus]
Just us two was all I knew
Now I’m still here, but half of me’s you
Win or lose, I can’t undo
The life we had, just me and you
(Oooooh oooooh)

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mountains split in two
But nothing broke me like losing you.
The earth can shake, the sky can fall
Saying goodbye’s the hardest blow of all
When sorrow calls, I can’t confide
I only whisper to the other side

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the fire, through the unknown
I stumble on, but I’m alone
Your hand once held me, your love the flame
Now I cry and call your name (mmm)

[Chorus]
Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

[Bridge]
The colors rise where the shadows go
Green and violet, the heavens glow
I search the stars for a sign of your face
A fleeting spark in the vast of space

[Outro]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty house don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

[whistling]

Northern Lights

🔻 Song Insight
Unread is a drive-into-the-night anthem for the left-on-read, the restless, and the ones who outgrow their own ghost towns. Built on sun-faded memories and late-night highway dreams, the track captures that split-second when nostalgia collides with hard truth: some stories end in silence, some hearts need open roads more than closure. “Unread” trades regret for wind-in-your-face freedom, riding away from the weight of the past toward whatever’s next—even if it’s just more desert and stars.

🔻 Lyrics
Verse 1:
 Left unread like you used to do,
 It's all been said, exchanging words,
 It all messes with your head,
 What's the point? We died anyway.
 Living like you tried, I wish I'd say,
 I see you on the other side,
 But I just don't know.
Chorus:
 Life's short and the gas is cheap,
 I'm tired of this same old street.
 Riding fast at 95,
 Chasing dreams just to feel alive.
 Mountains rolling, skies so wide,
 Heart's wild but I can't hide.
 This highway's calling me back home
 To where the wild winds roam.
Verse 2:
 You said it was forever,
 A never-ending beginning,
 It landed hard one Wednesday,
 Thursday packing, Friday gone away.
 Before too long there's a bride,
 But I'm still chasing what's inside.
Bridge:
 Stars are dancing on the desert floor,
 A chill in the air, can't ignore.
 Crisp white lines spell out my fate,
 The unknown callin' through heaven's gate.
 I hold on tight, I don't really know,
 But I keep riding through the glow.
Verse 3:
 It's been a couple years,
 Washed up and single,
 Sitting at the bar,
 Thought 'bout stopping by,
 But I just walked on by.
 Lost a part of myself in this mess,
 Forgot the wild in my heart,
 The parts that make me free.

🔻 Personal Reflection
I wrote “Unread” staring down the things I never got to say and the roads I was always too scared to take. It’s a song for every moment you looked back and wondered if you should have kept driving. Life hands out endings you can’t always fix—but there’s peace in letting the wheels keep turning, even when your story gets left on read. If you ever felt stuck between what was and what could be, this one’s for you.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
For 4Me2BeFree, every track is a piece of the journey—dusty, real, and cinematic as hell. “Unread” fits right in: it turns those late-night doubts and open road heartaches into music that moves, stings, and frees. Our mission? Keep telling the truth, even if the only reply is static and stars. Keep chasing the wild in your own heart.

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Unread

This song was created and written by: 
J J Samuels
The music, vocals and production were done by: 
J J Samuel 

#Pop #Rock #Electronic #Dark #Gritty #Sinister #Euphoric #Cinematic

Unholy Ghost

UNHOLY MARY by Nova J

[Spoken Intro]
I’ll give you until the count of five.
Then I do it.
5… 4… 3… 2… 1…

[Verse 1]
You cry wolf in the courthouse, you cry wolf in the pews
Every man who gets close leaves branded, accused
Unholy Mary, queen of shadows and schemes
You built your religion on your children’s screams

[Pre-Chorus]
Every story you spin gets heavier still
Like snow piling high on that house on the hill
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Verse 2]
You lock all the windows, you deadbolt the door
Homeschool their silence, they don’t dream anymore
You search for new labels, new ways to get paid
But the mirror reflects every debt you’ve made

[Pre-Chorus]
Every promise you broke turned colder with time
Your letters to God just excuses in rhyme
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Chorus]
Unholy Mary, where do you hide?
(Unholy Mary… where do you hide?)
Your children are shadows, they stand by your side
(Unholy Mary…)
The mirror won’t answer, it just looks right through
 (Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)
Unholy Mary, what happened to you?
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?!)

[Bridge]
Vanity binds you, your mercy decays
Loneliness lingers, you’re lost in the maze
Your children bear burdens they never should know
You pray for redemption, but the mercy won’t show

[Outro]
Snow falling steady on your backyard gate
The candles burn out, but you’re still awake
It’s your fate. Oh Mary. It’s your fate.
Your fate. Your fate.

[Instrumental Close]

Unholy Mary

🔻 Song Insight

Title: Was I the Last One
Artist: 4Me2BeFree

“Was I the Last One” is a cinematic, emotionally raw ballad exploring the ache of loving someone lost to addiction—and the even deeper pain of realizing you may have been the last to love them for real. The lyrics move through memory, regret, and that strange state of loving a person who’s already gone, even as they remain physically present. It’s about the way addiction stains everything: relationships, trust, self-worth, and time. Even as the song wrestles with anger, loss, and helplessness, it finds a kind of bittersweet closure in the knowledge that the love you gave was genuine—something the other person might never truly grasp. The song stands as a message to anyone who’s loved an addict: you’re not alone in your grief, your confusion, or your longing for peace.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro:
distorted phone ringing:, faint static:

Verse 1:
The power in my pain, aching in these veins  
Needle ruptures—as your stain takes hold  
Phone idles, it’s these moments that remain  
Stuck in like glue, nothing I say, nothing to do  

Pre-Chorus:
It’s you in what I lost  
Things you broke and tossed  
Every fiber of me  
Splinters—inside of you  

Chorus 1:
Vision blurred in my mind  
Parts I can no longer find  
Skin, eyes, and your lips  
Every part—I used to miss 

Refrain:
My moments slow to hours  
Days stretched, just waiting  
Now gone—it’s hollow our rings  

Verse 2:
The thing that scares me  
Was I the last one?  
I hope it’s not true  
to be the last to love you  

Interlude:
Is this what it’s like  
For the loved ones who fight?  
Tired words keep falling  
Tell me, how do I stall  
To fix these broken parts

Bridge Part 1:
Will I regret what I tried?  
Maybe I should have lied  
What did I do for you?  

Bridge Part 2:
If that phone rings, I'll know the truth  
The end has come, there’s nothing to do  
I will fall, and a part of me dies with you  
this pain inside—can’t... escape... this place

Hook / Chorus 2:
I have to focus on the pain  
Stay awake for all my mistakes  
It won’t solve this now  
No longer about us  

Refrain / Post-Chorus:
It’s only when sleep wakes me, and you can’t breathe  
I used to watch your chest rise and fall  
To think it could stop—with nothing at all  

Outro:
With every break and every pain  
And you, too, take this away  
But not the part that has to wait  
That I have to keep  
That I have to keep  

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song was written at the edge of loss, when you realize you’ve already grieved the relationship and are now preparing for the actual goodbye. I poured every ounce of love, regret, and helplessness into these lines—anger, sorrow, and the strange peace of finally letting go. Addiction doesn’t just take someone away; it makes you mourn them while they’re still breathing. For anyone loving an addict, it’s okay to feel the whole spectrum: love, hate, hope, and resignation. Your love was real. That’s what matters.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

As 4Me2BeFree, I create songs that turn pain into cinematic story—tracks for those who feel everything a little too deeply. “Was I the Last One” continues that mission: unfiltered emotions, hard truths, but always a glimmer of healing in the sound. My music exists to be both a mirror and a balm for anyone navigating the messiest corners of love and loss.

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Was I The Last One

This song was written and created By:
J J Samuel
The production, vocals and music were done by: 
J J Samuel

#IndieRock #AlternativeRock #NewWave #DanceRock #Anthem #Comical #Sarcastic #Fun #Witty #Upbeat #SynthPop #SingAlong #ClubBeats #NewMusic #Music2025

Dive into this sarcastic, upbeat indie-rock anthem that blends alternative rock, new wave, and dance-rock vibes with a groovy, danceable edge! I created a funky new sound and added an Upbeat synth and guitar lead melody and a pulsing club drum beat, this track delivers a catchy, memorable melody perfect for a witty sing-along. Inspired by lyrics of love’s wild addiction—jolt to veins, fevered dreams, and a heart’s boom boom boom—this is your go-to for anthemic guitars and synth-driven fun. Turn it up and try not to get addicted!

Lyrics, 

[Verse 1]

It hit me quick, like a jolt to my veins,
Your wicked grin sent a buzz through my brain.
Was it your eyes or your blonde hair?
I don’t know! I’m caught in your stare.

[Pre-Chorus]

Ooh, when you walked in, you lit the room up like a flare,
My heart’s pounding, feel you floating in the air.
I’m a goner, yeah, I’m losing control,
You’re a virus running wild in my bones.

[Chorus]

You’ve infected me, I’m hooked on your love,
Can’t get enough, you’re all I’m dreaming of.
My heart’s a drum, goes boom boom boom,
I’m addicted to your love, and I’m doomed!

[Verse 2]

Just a Saturday night, same old routine,
Then you spun around, like a fevered dream.
I said, “Sorry, but you’re looking so fine tonight,”
One touch, and you hijacked my mind outright.

[Pre-Chorus]

Ooh, when you walked in, you lit the room up like a flare,
My heart’s pounding, feel you floating in the air.
I’m a goner, yeah, I’m losing control,
You’re a virus running wild in my bones.

[Chorus]

You’ve infected me, I’m hooked on your love,
Can’t get enough, you’re all I’m dreaming of.
My heart’s a drum, goes boom boom boom,
I’m addicted to your love, and I’m doomed!

[Verse 3]

Your laugh’s a toxin, it’s pulling me in,
That cheeky wink’s got my head in a spin.
Every glance, every move that you make,
I’m a junkie for the thrill I can’t shake.

[Pre-Chorus]

Ooh, when you walked in, you lit the room up like a flare,
My heart’s pounding, feel you floating in the air.
I’m a goner, yeah, I’m losing control,
You’re a virus running wild in my bones.

[Bridge]

If I die right now with you by my side,
I’d be a happy man, no tears to cry.
Your smile’s contagious, it’s all that I need,
You’re the one, girl, you’re my sweetest disease.

[Chorus - Extended]

You’ve infected me, I’m hooked on your love,
Can’t get enough, you’re all I’m dreaming of.
My heart’s a drum, goes boom boom boom,
I’m addicted to your love, and I’m doomed!
You’ve infected me, I’m hooked on your love,
Can’t get enough, you’re my sweetest drug.
My heart’s a drum, goes boom boom boom,
I’m addicted to your love, and I’m doomed!

[Outro]

I’m addicted to your love, yeah, I’m doomed,
Your smile’s a toxin, got me consumed.

[End]

Addicted

🔻 Song Insight

“12 Ravens” is a dystopian spoken word journey that peels back the layers of illusion in modern life. Built on a Matrix-inspired soundscape, the song explores the blurred lines between reality, perception, and the inner need for meaning. In a world obsessed with more—more truth, more comfort, more distraction—“12 Ravens” is a reckoning with the questions we all carry but rarely ask. It’s not about surrendering to cynicism; it’s a challenge to recognize the systems that confine us, while daring to define our own moral compass and rediscover what it means to be awake.


🔻 Personal Reflection

This track isn’t a declaration of my personal faith or worldview—it’s a creative exploration of what it means to live inside the machine. I do believe in life beyond this world, just not as a simple escape or reward. “12 Ravens” challenges both the comfort of certainty and the paralysis of cynicism. At the end of the day, I believe in acting from a real compass: giving because you care, being someone others look up to, not just “winning.” The system is real, but so is our power to choose how we show up inside it. Sometimes, seeing the lie is the first step to finding what’s true.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

“12 Ravens” fits into the vision of 4Me2BeFree by turning raw emotion and existential questioning into a cinematic, immersive journey. Our music isn’t about answers—it’s about awakening. Every track is a story, a challenge, and an invitation to look deeper. By blending personal struggle with bold soundscapes, we transform the chaos of the world into art that helps listeners feel seen and inspired to question, awaken, and be free.

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12 Ravens

🔻 Song Insight

Title: To Be Alive
Sometimes a song doesn’t just come from life—it arrives out of the haunted territory between dreams and waking. “To Be Alive” was born from the echo of a night terror that didn’t leave a memory, but left its mark on my soul. It’s a confession from the edge of survival, the struggle to own the only self I have left, and a message for anyone who’s been trapped by pain they can’t put into words. The song’s layers—raspy vocals, shifting tempos, and atmospheric instrumentation—mirror the push and pull of trauma and hope. This is what it sounds like when your own mind is both the battleground and the sanctuary.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
I’m tired of this skin
the shit in my head
trapped on the inside
just want to hide

[Verse 1]
Screams, nightly echoes cry
falling from my walls
I want to survive
can’t breathe, awaken by lies

[Pre-Chorus]
I wanted change to save me
rearrange dreams
I build a will, 
I'll try, 
knowing I'm alive

[Chorus]
You don’t get these parts
can’t break what’s inside
I own this life,
my path I wear with pride
I will survive, I will live

[Verse 2]
Crime, it’s time that decays
mangled mind that strays
rotten thoughts in brine
blood drains as I fade

[Verse 3]
I’m yelling at this silence on the inside
stones I carried alone
I paid the price, I atoned
looking for a home

[Bridge]
Broken, with no repair in sight
outdated—an empty fight
parts of me slip by, fading,
I had to see what was right

[Chorus]
You don’t get these parts
can’t break what’s inside
I own this life,
my path I wear with pride
I will survive, I will live

[Breakdown / Outro]
Damned if I stay in this place
to hell with all your empty grace
without hope, I fight to grow
you can take what’s owed
but not the part that makes me free
I own my life, I own my path
I will survive, I will live
just to be alive

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song came from a night of dreams that woke me with my own screams—a place I don’t need to remember to know what it’s about. I’m grateful I forget those dreams, because my waking reality has been enough. I hurt for the version of me that still lives them every night, fighting alone. I wouldn’t wish what I’ve gone through on anyone, and this song is how I speak to that space that still haunts me long after the death of my relationship.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

At 4Me2BeFree, every song is an act of cinematic truth-telling. “To Be Alive” turns personal struggle into shared experience, using layered soundscapes and honest lyrics to create something that resonates beyond words. This is our mission: to transform pain into power and isolation into connection, so no one feels alone with what haunts them.

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To Be Alive

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.