quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

swarm of flies (sorrowbringer)

Dissociations (prod. jeweleryboy)

shoutout skelly 💀❤️

bummed out i been so bummed out
i been really dyin to see you 
my feelings like glue the way im stuck to you 
this sound like just another love song
my mind cold in the summer gotta keep my coat on 
ima sad boy feel like you could do better
i been stressin overthinkin everything that i been doin 
skelly made the canvas and i get to cookin sweets pudding
your way to good for me these cookies that you made are so delectable 

i put you on a pedestal and i put myself 6 deep 
i’ve been bummed out bummed out yeah i been bummed out
i can’t keep a routine for the life of me
then you text me got me talkin for a few hours

bummed out and tired (s0ftskelet0ns)

Thane:
[pre-chorus]
my heart is, in conflict
this is just life, my verdict
says i will, just predict
the fact im so imperfect

[chorus]
i might just bloom to fail
i try and i prevail
i love but i don’t care
your hope it seems to scare
and i don’t give a fuck
genie’s gold but no luck
i got hit by a truck
when i tried to score your goals
under the bridge there’s trolls
billy goats in the scrolls
i call this bloom failure
and death is the final toll

ANPU:
I felt you in my heart
Still so high
It’s so dark
I’m dead here
I wanna disappear again
I’ve been feeling so down
When will it end

I thought something wrote it down with my pen
I lost myself don’t know where I’ve been
Ketemine got me feeling so wavy
Fucked up how I think that you hate me
You hate me

[pre-chorus]
my heart is, in conflict 
this is just life, my verdict 
says i will, just predict 
the fact im so imperfect 

[chorus]
i might just bloom to fail 
i try and i prevail 
i love but i don’t care 
your hope it seems to scare 
and i don’t give a fuck
genie’s gold but no luck 
i got hit by a truck
when i tried to score your goals 
under the bridge there’s trolls 
billy goats in the scrolls 
i call this bloom failure 
and death is the final toll

[end verse]
i just wanna sleep, i dont wanna die
i wanted your heart, but i lost mine
sorry i upset you, are you gonna cry?
i felt everything, now i just lie
i lost my heart along the way
in the clubhouse, the only way
i just wish my emotions saw another day
but every time i think, im a lost case
every time i run, i come in last place
but its a journey, not another race

Heart (prod. djoeybeats)

lyrics:

why the fuck you telling me to calm down
right now im just trynna put a song out
hit me with an invite i might show up to the lake house
stalking all my pages man it feels just like a stake out
i been skipping sleep but every night been feeling great now
i still barely eat but theres a lot on top my plate now

why does everybody wanna fuck with us
i dont wanna talk no more
im done
i been on my own for the last 6 months
been 2 weeks since i felt sun
been 2 months since i saw someone

you know i stay on my own now
and i live my life on my own time
like i never think of my old self
i dont reminesce our past times

why the fuck you telling me to calm down
right now im just trynna put a song out
hit me with an invite i might show up to the lake house
stalking all my pages man it feels just like a stake out
i been skipping sleep but every night been feeling great now
i still barely eat but theres a lot on top my plate now

esoteric (prod. web + wraithontheporch)

prod. cxrter x irby



lyrics:
ima keep counting till the sun up
big bands, high end brands ima show off
deep fried, lemme cook, im a sauna
i can make it big, ima show her

she cant even look at me, im shining
if she ever walk on me, im fining
talking with the fairies, im flying
icgaf about no timing

bitch im cool
who tf is you?
on a groove
baby, tell me what it do?
making moves
got on my dancing shoes
shades on too
spotlight shining through (x2)

Kiddamo:
im drinking campagne in a limo
im staring at your house through the window
you turn this shitty town to santo domingo
multi persaonlity im stuck in a limbo
in a limbo, oh
in a limbo, oh, oh
im talking like an asshole but i think you could do better
told her shes so perfect that i wish i never met her
i hope you see the beach when you read these love letters
shawty fell in love because ima go getter
smoking on some runtz and these pringles extra cheddar
shoutout to the kid in bangladesh that made this sweater

scorpio:
bitch im cool
who tf is you?
on a groove
baby, tell me what it do?
making moves
got on my dancing shoes
shades on too
spotlight shining through

spotlight (feat. Kiddamo)

picture perfect

lyrics
im reaching deep in my heart
im ripping it out and its sharp
im puking blood like ive run out of time
im sick of playing my part
i put this shit into park
im dropping more weight than i want
the mirror is saying its fine
just give it a week till it all falls apart
the ceiling collapses in front of me
youd never know what this bullshit had done to me
i met a ghost in my basement
it looked at me like it thought shit was funny
i swear
i got leaves and twigs in my hair
i shoot this pistol off like its a flare
honest its never been fair

please lock eyes with me
and in time ill see
its testing me
and im underneath
please stay with me
ur all i need
im losing sleep
and puking up what i eat

im reaching deep in my heart
im ripping it out and its sharp
im puking blood like ive run out of time
im sick of playing my part
i put this shit into park
im dropping more weight than i want
the mirror is saying its fine
just give it a week till it all falls apart
the ceiling collapses in front of me
youd never know what this bullshit had done to me
i met a ghost in my basement
it looked at me like it thought shit was funny
i swear
i got leaves and twigs in my hair
i shoot this pistol off like its a flare
honest its never been fair

im vomiting blood. my pupils are blown. (tiedforsilver)

w/ @notaheroo
produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
i won’t miss these nights, i’ve had better times
i hope you know i pray for you like every night
if i don’t make it, hope i see you in another life
and if you wait around, i’ll show you that i’m still alive
i’m going crazy seeing shadows when i’m turning
i smush this cigarette out
blow it in the sky
and i’m the contrast, you’re so picture perfect
if only my heart wasn’t two sides
you keep begging me to stay, but my hands are tied
i’mma buy a ticket for the next flight
i really miss my friends living on the other side

and she said baby just stay
i promise you gon be okay
i made a fool out myself last night
i’ll try to forget it, but it happens every time

i wanna see you when you see me as a rockstar
and seeing me like this, i know that it’s hard
it’s hard
i broke your heart
you own my heart
the city stops and all of the lights are on
and now i don’t feel it all
now i don’t feel at all

i won’t miss these nights, i’ve had better times
i hope you know i pray for you like every night
if i don’t make it, hope i see you in another life
and if you wait around, i’ll show you that i’m still alive
i’m going crazy seeing shadows when i’m turning
i smush this cigarette out
blow it in the sky
and i’m the contrast, you’re so picture perfect
if only my heart wasn’t two sides
you keep begging me to stay, but my hands are tied
i’mma buy a ticket for the next flight
i really miss my friends living on the other side

picture perfect (cxrter x threemvsk)

choices freestyle (web)

just a diary 
Healing... not really tho
Just trying to do better
still a mess
   Kinda over it all
@deadwoodcollective TM pending 
  ⛓️💀🪵⛓️
Gang of divines

choices freestyle (web)

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