fallout ft flesh (p. bloodcryy + ryan kelly)

produced by @prodcxrter x threemvsk
featuring @decksmusic x @flesh

https://open.spotify.com/track/7IaPndHHSCwBx3zEFHtFAY?si=CL8_mcGpSG2pvXp4xVEwlQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A3nvvOZ7UptPO8PoFNhNMn6

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
every breath i take is just a waste when
you don't share the air that i breathe in
but i'll try my best to stay patient
it's just when i'm with you it's like i'm dreaming

i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@decksmusic]
whats the point in going back on my word?
i’ve felt it once or twice before i’d never raise up the dirt
you saw the mirror break connection at first
cuz that reflections never perfect, our relations are earned
i need like eight hours 
to break sour
you see me in the waves, cower,
all that power will go to your head
paste valor
your flush malar
i wonder what’ll make matters worse
could it last you a lifetime?

i don’t wanna overwhelm you with my pain
i put the pen down, call it a night
in the presence of the same i’d be a lifeline
tell me right now, is that alright?

[@lottaheart]
i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@flesh]
hold my hand
let's walk around
i'll always have the memory
it finally start to hit me
way back then it was something else
we were snowed in
but you kept me warm
for years i've been frozen
opponent of myself i know that
i'm just glad that's not the me that you knew
i put up one hell of a show
remember how callie would hide all the time
i guess that's what i feel like
that shit makes me wanna cry

hopes high w/ decks & flesh [cxrter x threemvsk]

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equaled the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me my time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without
Tell me less equals the same weight
I kept up on my shoulders
I’ve been seeing new dates new dates I need
New hate new hate I need something else to deliver me
I know that I need clarity
I can’t find my clarity now,
I’ve been doing without
Any of the voices in my head now

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equal the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without

All of these hurdles
they’re coming too quickly
It’s hard for me to see clear
All I see is blurry
Everything you see dear
never need to worry

I’ve been losing sight of what I’m feeling
I can’t feel it the same way as I did back when I was healing cause everybody else felt the same way as I did that was around me All of my friends that I hid with they never burned me
I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know
I know I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know

do u wrong (p. sorrow bringer)

lyrics

So maybe if it
Maybe if it sets in
Maybe if I feel you on my skin
Maybe that'll help me 

So maybe when it sets in
And I can feel your skin on my skin
And I can tell what's really different 
Yeah I can tell what's really different 
It all depends on the mood this time
And I know I won't change my mind
And everything heals with time 
But
It's probably best if we cut ties 
Cause I don't think anything will really get better this time
So I guess this is one last goodbye 
To the times that I spent loving you 
And I look back in the hindsight 
And in the past time we were in the limelight 
You only came around in the nighttime 
And I only came around when my phone was dry
So let's take this one last night for one last goodbye 

Say goodbye 
Say goodbye while we get higher than we've ever been 
Than we've ever been cause maybe that'll fix shit

Think not
Pipe down 
I don't wanna hear you
Just let me drown 
Myself in the bottle again
Maybe then
I can move past all this fucking bullshit
And I won't have to hear shit
Hear your voice in my dreams
And I know I just wanna scream
I just wanna scream but I can't
These wall are to thin
And the ones I build up keep breaking down 

But only when you're around 
Only when
Only when you're around 
Only when you're around 
You're always around 
I keep your spirit with me
And I know that I’m quite empty 
I know that my chest is empty 
And I know cause your spirits heavy
And I know why it's so heavy 
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you you're with me
When I'm with you n I miss you
N I'm not with you but you're with me
Keep you with me
Cause that's where you're supposed to be
With me
Stay with me
Just stay with me
Wonder why did you leave

Time (prod. cxrter x flesh)

lyrics at some point.... idk yet x_x

Fucked up again I’m fucked up again
I think I did too much 
I think I’m losing my shit
shit i’m losing my trust can’t find it
I know you notice it
It’s true now
That everything is running out
I’m running low on a life I love
I know it’s true
I know it’s due, It’s due to you
I know it’s true, I fucked you too

I can’t stand this no more I just wanna end it all
Take it all back again, my life again
May lose some friends for this, but I think that
I’m better in a hole than living on my own
And even in the end, you know it
It all ends well, but when it goes well, it gets harder to feel well when it all drops
nd when the ball drops
Shit, when my heart stops
I feel it in my lungs, I can’t let em pop
And let my breathing stop
Cause if it goes too slow, I think it’ll all go downhill
Cause if I let it go, I know everyone will know the real me and I can’t keep that up
Keep it up and push my luck
Cause it’ll drain and run dry again
I’m dry again
Phones dry again
I really miss my friends
Where the fuck are my friends?
I’m fucked up again
I’m fucked up again 
I think I did too much
I can’t find my way I can’t find my trust
I think I did too much
 think I gave too much
think I sold my trust just for some bucks
Ithink I sold my love just for one fuck
But the drugs were good
I just do too much
I do too much
I’ll always do too much
I’ll always do too much
Single-handedly sniff eight ball
I drink a fifth and then I’ll go AWOL
Go MIA and take a nap n sleep for a week
And I might not come back

And let the dream drop out
I don’t feel the same now

K.I.A in my dreams(p. OutOfPlace)

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (prod. wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

waste it (hollowprpl)

lyrics:

[bedroom noise:]

i stumble down the stairs
i grip the railng it sends splinters thru my hands
as the panels shift the mildew creeps its way into the air 
all i do is think about ur body and i stare
att the bones beneath the remnants of the flesh u used to wear
and ur not breathing. i dont notice
and ur bones r rearranged to fit a shape thats locked in place
as the spire calls my name i twist and writhe until i change
until the mirror splits and now i do not recognize my face 

uh, i do not recognize this place
fluid leaks from puncture wounds, its pouring out my  brain
i let my flesh
become a costume
for the souls that will replace me
the bodies left adorn the concrete floors inside this basement

i do not think abt u lately
something in the walls is tryna change me
i hear u caling down the halls
i cannot speak to u at all

[melmige:]
	
why u looking at me that way is something wrong
now that u mention it my body cold and my hands are numb
throat is closing up think im losing all my oxygen
pieces fragment falling off in sequence to the setting sun
bile rises up when i try open up and say what’s wrong
fighting for control i think i never had and never could
im scared not one for cynicism
but it’s looking bad and not any different
than how it’s been since it was in winter
heat change nothing don’t feel the difference 
i’m mumbling i’m stumbling all through these empty streets
i’m wondering bout where ive been compared to where i’ll be
my body rotting stomach rumbling i haven’t ate in weeks
not worth the trouble don’t deserve the proper care i probably need

so why you looking at me that way am i too far gone
i feel like time freezes and then i blink and the years i lost fly by
body rusting stuck in place gather dust over my eyes
don’t think i am someone my family recognize
every word tears at my throat and every step bones break
i feel trapped under my skin as i claw at my face
im writhing

a remembrance of the spire

a remembrance of the spire (feat. melmige) [prod. TXMID]

Hate

blow it off p. prodbychen

Back In Chicago (transposed)

Healing 
 Just trying to do better
   Kinda over it all
@deadwoodcollective TM pending 
  ⛓️💀🪵⛓️
Gang of divines

do u wrong (p. sorrow bringer)

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