Now you'll follow us
Can’t trust myself
So can’t look above
Time spent in the summer
Grows close as I get old

Lost time with trust what’s left of us
I think this is a bust
I know this is a bust
You cannot have my trust
You can’t have my love
The only time you even say, it’s when I’m in your guts
And that’s fucked up, love

Wonder what was us?
Wonder what we did to change everything from where it was to where it is
Love heels that’s a lie they tell when we’re kids to give hope that you’ll feel better when you get big
I wonder why I can’t trust her, but you can trust me
Oh, fuck, I wonder
Where I went wrong
N where I went wrong
Where I went wrong
This all just feels so fucked up 
In the long run I think I did wrong and then the loaded gun point that up
And this is all up
This is a stick up I think my times up 
and I can’t trust myself again
This ain’t goodbye but I think I’m just way too high right now
To deal with the come down
To deal with the life I have when you’re around

When you’re around
Fuck everything up and you just know it
Yeah, you just know it

Yeah, you just know it and when it’s over, stones left unturned 
Love left unheard
I know it’s all blurred
I think I used up
I think my times up
I think I used up all my luck
Use up all my luck
Used up all my luck I think it’s done
Wash the dust fall from the ceiling
I can’t stand it there is no meaning
No meaning to this love
Unrequited love
I don’t want this love
Fuck

trust  (prod hollowprpl x 93feetofsmoke)

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equaled the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me my time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without
Tell me less equals the same weight
I kept up on my shoulders
I’ve been seeing new dates new dates I need
New hate new hate I need something else to deliver me
I know that I need clarity
I can’t find my clarity now,
I’ve been doing without
Any of the voices in my head now

If I tell you something else, I will do you wrong
Tell me less never equal the same weight
I kept on my back
Never even changed my ways
I can’t sleep the same now
I know everybody else wants to dream now
Give me time to speak my peace now
I don’t want to dream now
I just wanna do without

All of these hurdles
they’re coming too quickly
It’s hard for me to see clear
All I see is blurry
Everything you see dear
never need to worry

I’ve been losing sight of what I’m feeling
I can’t feel it the same way as I did back when I was healing cause everybody else felt the same way as I did that was around me All of my friends that I hid with they never burned me
I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know
I know I feel the same way as I did back then
Back then I know

do u wrong (p. sorrow bringer)

allamericanwendigofreestyle (p. Pandemxnium)

lyrics

So maybe if it
Maybe if it sets in
Maybe if I feel you on my skin
Maybe that'll help me 

So maybe when it sets in
And I can feel your skin on my skin
And I can tell what's really different 
Yeah I can tell what's really different 
It all depends on the mood this time
And I know I won't change my mind
And everything heals with time 
But
It's probably best if we cut ties 
Cause I don't think anything will really get better this time
So I guess this is one last goodbye 
To the times that I spent loving you 
And I look back in the hindsight 
And in the past time we were in the limelight 
You only came around in the nighttime 
And I only came around when my phone was dry
So let's take this one last night for one last goodbye 

Say goodbye 
Say goodbye while we get higher than we've ever been 
Than we've ever been cause maybe that'll fix shit

Think not
Pipe down 
I don't wanna hear you
Just let me drown 
Myself in the bottle again
Maybe then
I can move past all this fucking bullshit
And I won't have to hear shit
Hear your voice in my dreams
And I know I just wanna scream
I just wanna scream but I can't
These wall are to thin
And the ones I build up keep breaking down 

But only when you're around 
Only when
Only when you're around 
Only when you're around 
You're always around 
I keep your spirit with me
And I know that I’m quite empty 
I know that my chest is empty 
And I know cause your spirits heavy
And I know why it's so heavy 
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you you're with me
When I'm with you n I miss you
N I'm not with you but you're with me
Keep you with me
Cause that's where you're supposed to be
With me
Stay with me
Just stay with me
Wonder why did you leave

Time (prod. cxrter x flesh)

lyrics at some point.... idk yet x_x

Fucked up again I’m fucked up again
I think I did too much 
I think I’m losing my shit
shit i’m losing my trust can’t find it
I know you notice it
It’s true now
That everything is running out
I’m running low on a life I love
I know it’s true
I know it’s due, It’s due to you
I know it’s true, I fucked you too

I can’t stand this no more I just wanna end it all
Take it all back again, my life again
May lose some friends for this, but I think that
I’m better in a hole than living on my own
And even in the end, you know it
It all ends well, but when it goes well, it gets harder to feel well when it all drops
nd when the ball drops
Shit, when my heart stops
I feel it in my lungs, I can’t let em pop
And let my breathing stop
Cause if it goes too slow, I think it’ll all go downhill
Cause if I let it go, I know everyone will know the real me and I can’t keep that up
Keep it up and push my luck
Cause it’ll drain and run dry again
I’m dry again
Phones dry again
I really miss my friends
Where the fuck are my friends?
I’m fucked up again
I’m fucked up again 
I think I did too much
I can’t find my way I can’t find my trust
I think I did too much
 think I gave too much
think I sold my trust just for some bucks
Ithink I sold my love just for one fuck
But the drugs were good
I just do too much
I do too much
I’ll always do too much
I’ll always do too much
Single-handedly sniff eight ball
I drink a fifth and then I’ll go AWOL
Go MIA and take a nap n sleep for a week
And I might not come back

And let the dream drop out
I don’t feel the same now

K.I.A in my dreams(p. OutOfPlace)

w/ @breckenford
produced by cxrter & chrismarek
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(brecken)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
what i been workin for if i can't ever feel like its allowed
i been fighting just to sleep
got me foldin’ all my sheets
i swear i don't feel like me
why’d they wonder why i leave
i tell them this everyday, but they still seem like its a scheme
i don't wanna feel like this 
i swear that's up in my dreams

(will i get there?)

please god, tell me that it's gon be over soon
everyday i get home, and i don't wanna move
every bone in my body feels like it’s been bruised
and i can't take this no more, but lowkey it's been a mood
that i been stuck up in so long that i can’t attempt to prove
no more lies about the the way that i hope i'll be feeling soon
i promise that i’mma change every single thing overdue
nevermind the fact that i can't even speak on what i do

i’m tryna get to sleep without waking up spinning in my room
i know you hate it when i tell you what i did, but it’s all true
i can't go outside to take a walk without thinking of you
yea maybe that's just what i’ll do
i can't tell you that love life is like everything i knew
if i gotta act like everythings okay, then it's not cool
i just wanna be myself when i'm around somebody new
(yea talkin about you)
it’s not cool when you act like that
and if i had the chance again i would never go back
I know it's hard to believe from what i did in my past
but lemme open up the curtains tell you everything i lack
it's a lot
sit back relax
lemme tell you how i feel about my past

street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em (proud)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
i can't even choose my own outfit, it’s navy blue
take off neon colored t shirts every night before i snooze
and that's what i been used to 
how i take off my shoes
it must be time to let loose
of what i do

everything i do (cxrter x chrismarek)

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
-=-=-=-
I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (prod. wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

lyrics

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

i miss those nights 
cuddled up during the winter we're soul tied
my brains succumb to the wither on both sides
like fuck tryna forget her
cuz now im packing my bags
im building the bags under my eyelids
and you're too attatched
and im way too sad for it to be august
and yesterday holds memories that im losing
i dont remember much nowadays
i dont remember much nowadays

fall in love with me again
wait in my coat while i smoke cigarettes
and plan to watch the sunrise, but fall asleep instead
i want to hold you like i used to
i want to tell you that i love you
we killed the tree and ripped the roots

and for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
for now im no one
now im no one
now im no one
(x2)

for now, im no one (p. muzcean)

lil red - HeartBreak Tune (prod.Eskimos x Jkei)

I Might Be Everything That You Call Me

я думал что не бывает чудес 
но когда её увидел понял наконец
что она красивей и лучше всех принцесс
и у нас с ней запущен любовный процесс 

я думал что не бывает чудес 
но когда её увидел понял наконец
что она красивей и лучше всех принцесс
её сиськи для меня заменяют антистресс 

вы не поймете как же сильно я влюблен
за все свои двадцать лет я не видал такой
она одна такая она просто огонь  
я ношу очки ведь ослеплен красотой 

черные волосы 
карие глаза 
ахуенная фигура
это просто чудеса 

это просто чудеса хоть и я в них не верю 
поделюсь с ней всем чем можно я ей всё доверю 
всё горит внутри полыхает огнем  
хочу болтать с тобой всю ночь обо всём 
у меня есть лучший друг его зовут артем 
про подруг расскажи мы их вместе обосрёM xD

antistress

Healing 
 Just trying to do better
   Kinda over it all
@deadwoodcollective TM pending 
  ⛓️💀🪵⛓️
Gang of divines

K.I.A in my dreams(p. OutOfPlace)

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