A little different-ish?

Lyrics

Every Day
Wasting away
Nothing to do but decay
I swear I’m okay
I’ll lie til I break
Call it all fuel to the flames
Even in dying
You know I’ll be calling your name

Know I’ll be calling
Darling, falling faster
I’ll meet you in 
Ever after

(I’m)
Getting my footing a little bit
(still)
Biting my nails til I get the chip
(stuck In hell)
Anxious as fuck while I’m testing my luck
Cause I’m mixing my potions like alchemist
Tell me what should I get out of this?
Tell me how should I get out of this?
End of the day, It’s all ending the same 
You know I’ll be calling your name

Know I’ll be calling
Darling, falling faster
I’ll meet you in 
Ever after



fuel (wraithontheporch)

Wonder if I’m fucking up 
Back in this hole again 
K hole I’ve been diving in 
Drugged up I don’t need no friends 
Fucked up I don’t need no benz
Crashed the whip wonder where I went 
Fuck 
Fucked up in the road again 
Find me when the summer ends 

So if I fuck it up then 
And I’m just being dramatic 
I know it’s over I’ve been looking past it
I cover up these wounds with plastic 
Seal it shut I can’t have it 
Happiness, I run right past it 
I can’t hack it 
I’ve been feeling like I’m out of practice 
And i’ve been looking down again 
I can’t move past it
All these dramatics, I’m overdramatic 
Over and over I go into panics 
I’m losing myself
I don’t know how I will manage
To find my way back 
I’m lost and damaged 
I’m cold and wet
I’m like a dog on its last leg
Cat last life 
And what if I’m dead and this shits all just a past life 
I’m never the sad type 
I guess I’m the sad type
I ain’t trying to stay clean
I’m on my last life
I know I’ve always been mean
I ain’t the nice type
And I know it’s over
And I know what life‘s like I’ve seen enough
And I know it’s rough
It’s rough for you and me too
I don’t feel the same 
I’m not sure what I’m doing this time
I feel like I’m losing my mind
Going manic and it’s all the same
I know I am to blame
I’ll never change swear I’ll never change
And even when I try to, I stay the same
Even when I try to, I stay the same
And I think I’m to blame

theatrics (p. hollowprpl)

it happened _outro (wraithontheporch)

passin out off oxys yeah i shouldve stuck to gettin stoned
scrip of 12 flow thru my body dont know how im gettin home
she gon call me askin where you at where the hell you go
leave a pair of undergarments for when im out on the road

cavatappi twisted off the bottle got me corkscrew wishin
everything i plan gon come around gon come right to fruition
i cant get it up its not you love im geeked im whiskey dickin
pills inside this orange bottle glass of bird dog right beneath it

i cannot fuck up i clutch
i get too fucked off the runtz
shawty come thru n im fuckin it up
n this shit gettin freaky my thumb in her -
all in my ear when she -
i need to shut the fuck up
im way too drunk i been talkin too much
i might let sumn slip like a drug in my cup
i might let sumn slip like a shot at the fuzz
or a mag when i see 'em its dumped
im too turnt and i done said it once
i dont choke it i clutch n im fucked off the runtz again

blood stained red in my cardigan
she tryna fuck in the car again
dont try to love me id hardly hit
she tryna love me like harley quinn

passin out off oxys yeah i shouldve stuck to gettin stoned
scrip of 12 flow thru my body dont know how im gettin home
she gon call me askin where you at like where the hell you go
leave a pair of undergarments for when im out on the road

cavatappi twisted off the bottle got me corkscrew wishin
everything i plan gon come around gon come right to fruition
i cant get it up its not you love im geeked im whiskey dickin
pills inside this orange bottle glass of bird dog right beneath it

i wouldnt fault you if you didnt trust me but baby i promise you im doin better
thats what she told me i think that she lyin she talkin on me so i fucked up the header
plz take out the knife when ur done stickin flames in my back leavin crimson all over my sweater
n she left a scar but im over the bullshit she gut me with keepin me tethered

cavatappi (sorrow bringer)

lyrics

So maybe if it
Maybe if it sets in
Maybe if I feel you on my skin
Maybe that'll help me 

So maybe when it sets in
And I can feel your skin on my skin
And I can tell what's really different 
Yeah I can tell what's really different 
It all depends on the mood this time
And I know I won't change my mind
And everything heals with time 
But
It's probably best if we cut ties 
Cause I don't think anything will really get better this time
So I guess this is one last goodbye 
To the times that I spent loving you 
And I look back in the hindsight 
And in the past time we were in the limelight 
You only came around in the nighttime 
And I only came around when my phone was dry
So let's take this one last night for one last goodbye 

Say goodbye 
Say goodbye while we get higher than we've ever been 
Than we've ever been cause maybe that'll fix shit

Think not
Pipe down 
I don't wanna hear you
Just let me drown 
Myself in the bottle again
Maybe then
I can move past all this fucking bullshit
And I won't have to hear shit
Hear your voice in my dreams
And I know I just wanna scream
I just wanna scream but I can't
These wall are to thin
And the ones I build up keep breaking down 

But only when you're around 
Only when
Only when you're around 
Only when you're around 
You're always around 
I keep your spirit with me
And I know that I’m quite empty 
I know that my chest is empty 
And I know cause your spirits heavy
And I know why it's so heavy 
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you n you're with me
When I'm with you you're with me
When I'm with you n I miss you
N I'm not with you but you're with me
Keep you with me
Cause that's where you're supposed to be
With me
Stay with me
Just stay with me
Wonder why did you leave

Time (prod. cxrter x flesh)

lyrics at some point.... idk yet x_x

Fucked up again I’m fucked up again
I think I did too much 
I think I’m losing my shit
shit i’m losing my trust can’t find it
I know you notice it
It’s true now
That everything is running out
I’m running low on a life I love
I know it’s true
I know it’s due, It’s due to you
I know it’s true, I fucked you too

I can’t stand this no more I just wanna end it all
Take it all back again, my life again
May lose some friends for this, but I think that
I’m better in a hole than living on my own
And even in the end, you know it
It all ends well, but when it goes well, it gets harder to feel well when it all drops
nd when the ball drops
Shit, when my heart stops
I feel it in my lungs, I can’t let em pop
And let my breathing stop
Cause if it goes too slow, I think it’ll all go downhill
Cause if I let it go, I know everyone will know the real me and I can’t keep that up
Keep it up and push my luck
Cause it’ll drain and run dry again
I’m dry again
Phones dry again
I really miss my friends
Where the fuck are my friends?
I’m fucked up again
I’m fucked up again 
I think I did too much
I can’t find my way I can’t find my trust
I think I did too much
 think I gave too much
think I sold my trust just for some bucks
Ithink I sold my love just for one fuck
But the drugs were good
I just do too much
I do too much
I’ll always do too much
I’ll always do too much
Single-handedly sniff eight ball
I drink a fifth and then I’ll go AWOL
Go MIA and take a nap n sleep for a week
And I might not come back

And let the dream drop out
I don’t feel the same now

K.I.A in my dreams(p. OutOfPlace)

blow it off p. prodbychen

doors W/MisFiiT (prod. web)

know that it's not (prod. EeKay)

thanks for asking

Happy Pill

just a diary 
Healing... not really tho
Just trying to do better
still a mess
   Kinda over it all
@deadwoodcollective TM pending 
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Gang of divines

Time (prod. cxrter x flesh)

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