Full disclosure.
I wrote the lyrics and had the ai SUNO perform them.

This is about my mental health journey. From childhood to this present day. I still struggle with everything but some things are easier than others.

Track 1, is about a feeling instilled in me from an early age of me not deserving nice new things and caused me to break some of the new things I was given in order for me to accept them as my own. I still struggle with this core feeling and it has ruined many of my relationships because I feel like I don't deserve to be loved, so I subconsciously distance myself from people I love and those that love me causing relationships to crumble into nothing.

Track 2, is about the single most traumatic event of my life. I think the lyrics speak for themselves and I don't want to write a description of that horrid event here.
I have included two different musical styles of this track as well as bonus tracks with cleaner vocals.

Track 3, is my journey through life secretly obsessing over the obituaries in the paper after I saw a picture of one of my attackers and is also what eventually leads to me having a mental breakdown. 

Track 4, is about my attempts at my own life and my cries for help. There are some complicated feelings with this lyric that I have trouble putting into words. 

Track 5, is my decision to not let this mental affliction control me. I am not going to allow what those monsters did to me dictate who I am. It is my declaration of me taking control of my life.

5. Taking Back Control

"~𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏, 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒐𝒓𝒏 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒏~" ꨄ︎

5. Taking Back Control

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