i’ve been trying to write you
a series of poems
but nothings changing
ill bottle my problems
till i can’t contain them
they’ll stay right inside of my own head
and i just wanna know what it means
to be myself again
i’ve lost interest in the things that would help me just forget

and i don’t like the way i talk
i hate whats said
id rather just shut up
and eat this lead
i cant deal with dread
i cant deal with stress
i lie every single night awake in bed
my mind is sinking into sorrow
i cant see tommorow
yesterday was hollow
eyes are feeling shallow
i cant give a reason
why i should be breathing
wish for different seasons
so i can feel decent

some nights I lie in bed
trying to make sense 
of what i intend to be
my mom says get a job
but i cant hang on
to a life that isn't for me

but you and i
see eye to eye
as they keep movin forward
we get along
sing the same song
someday we'll make it out there

spotify

poems for myself w/ stephanie cortez (caspr & saint tommorow)

[+] I been taking my time when I write what im spitting
*produced by @thersx *

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LYRICS:

[hook:]
had to let my mind just slip for a minute,
shawty she a dime, I don't think I wan spend it
I been taking my time when I write what im spittin'
I been getting by, but I still been sinnin (2x)

[verse:]
I don't wanna feel the heartache
pull up like a star aye, she been on my dick
I fucked her right there in the hallway
I keep havin withdraws thats why I call baby Im sorry
I just hope you know I'm gonna love you and thats always yeah
22 and Im a piece of shit, I should call it quits
I think I'm giving in, my momma counting on me
But im not feeling it, I quit my job left school cuz I thought I'd be big
my time is running out, I hear this voices in my head
what they talking bout? got this Xanax in my system and I feel it now
You aint even there when I be coming down...

star dust

g a r d e n
my vocals were mastered & mixed by: @chain_trash

lyrics:
i'm not doing good 
psychologists and meds but baby i feel alone
i've been suffering lately but i don't really show 
just like my was made outta stone 

i can't stop cause this is my life
can't show my feelings so i say i'm fine 
i'm working , almost crossing the line 
baby can't pick up rp i got no time

i'm working there's no time to sleep now
i'll have time to sleep when i'm 6 feet underground
on the ground got the bed beside but i'm on the ground 
can't go to school i'm obssesed with this music 
but i feel so stressed but i'm giving my best look at me i'm giving my best


i'm not doing good 
psychologists and meds but baby i feel alone
i've been suffering lately but i don't really show 
just like my was made outta stone 

tomorrow i will sleep
or maybe not 
writting this lyrics and making this song 
doesn't  matter i will always stay strong
pale fucking face and heart made outta stone

heart made outta stone (skellington x yung balta)

Goblin Kid

Fake IT

for my boyfriend, ily shy <3

prod. @jolst @pekarot_161

i dont deserve u 
but im so glad i have u...
im so glad...

i dont deserve u
im just lucky that i get to know u

i dont deserve u
im sorry fore these hoops you have to
jump through
im nothing but bad news 
you're the only thing that 
i dont wanna lose 

you're the only thing that 
ive ever cared about losing...
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant

and im sorry baby
i try to 
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes...i cant...

you've been everything to me
from way back when till now
and every message in between 

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

and im sorry baby..
i try to...
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes i cant...

(sometimes, sometimes)

sometimes i cant!
sometimes i cant!!

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

deserve u [+pekarot & jolst]

arrowhead

sorry anyway

lyrics

(cyzun)
I’m all on my own 
Got nobody beside me
No one hits up my phone 
Im tired of crying
I’m tired of trying
I gave up on hope
I feel like I’m dying 
My whole life is a joke 
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of trying

(autumndropsdead)
next time i’ll fuck it up 
cause i know that i am
nothing but a little bitch 
yeah a little cunt
the world’s falling out of my hands
and they took my fingerprint
while my hands were cuffed
got blood up all in the sand 
so i lit a bonfire just to feel hotter but
honestly i just can’t
go through another day
imma fade; fucking toxic, shitty fakes
i got way too many toxins 
coursing through like every vein
in the moment but they never last
in the moment while i’m in the past 
i was laying all up on the grass 
had my head up all upon your lap
now it’s over
or am i feeling change
or is it closure?
cause it feels all the same

(cyzun)
I’m all on my own 
Got nobody beside me
No one hits up my phone 
Im tired of crying
I’m tired of trying
I gave up on hope
I feel like I’m dying 
My whole life is a joke 
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of trying

tired of trying w/ autumndropsdead

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

mass appeal (+:: thersx)

[+] i still feel your presence in this absence and it's intractable.  
* prod by @iofmusic *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64JRGiNd-uY

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LYRICS:

[chorus:]
wrap me up i cant see a thing
maybe this is just one of my dreams
oh but i can still feel your touch
like you never even left

ay but i know its all in my head ya
you would never come again
so i lay here alone in my bed
contemplating why we 're only friends

[verse:]
rip my heart right out my chest bihhh
i swear you fake
i shouldve never second guessed it
i see your games i know em now
i heard you stressin
now you tryna pull me in
i learned my lesson
now im too hot
i fuck around and melt whole spot
still rep my old block
1120 fuck the ops
we just smoke
i break it down and roll it up
now they show me love
motha fuckas pourin up

music video

your touch (music video in desc)

This is my first release since the plague.  It talks about falling for someone and how even on the worst of days or when you're just wasting time, they make it feel better.  At the same time, it talks about the fear of messing things up from making big promises too soon and moving too fast.  Hope you enjoy! </3

Waste Time (Prod. TNVR)

Florida native shattered, is best known for his pop-like delivery which encapsulates moody and sad imagery.

The 21 year-old producer, currently living in Tampa, has crafted a versatile and experimental discography that is not able to be placed into one genre, sonically.

Dipping his toes into emo, rap, and pop, shattered’s ability to craft carefully constructed beats featuring attributes found within multiple genres has enabled him to rival and surpass other producers older than him – illuminating his talent and strong drive for success within the competitive industry.

Starting his music journey at age 12, shattered dived headfirst into production on his DAW of choice: FL Studio. Now having built a close-knit and dedicated fanbase, shattered has an array of singles on the way – with music to please his older fans, and new fans alike.

“Getting playlisted on Spotify and getting interest from a record label have been some of my greatest musical achievements so far,” shattered says – Kyle Hughes

poems for myself w/ stephanie cortez (caspr & saint tommorow)

shattered

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