I'm 18 today, I've been listening to this song since I was 14, it does hit different now lol

Almost gonna turn 17 listening since middle school crazy how life changes so quick but can feel so long at certain periods

i never asked for this at all

**[Intro - 4 bars]**  
From the ashes of my adolescence, I rose through the wreckage
With ink and insight, I weaponize the scars that used to stretch us  
I’m turning these lessons into blessings bred to transcend  
Rebuilt the broken bones, now I’m never gon’ bend

**[Verse 1 - 16 bars]**  
Started off stranded, knuckles busted on the block’s cold cement  
Where enemies and penalties formed a pact of dissent
I was kissing chaos, trading innocence for masked ambition  
A crooked system had me shackled, trapped in flawed tradition  
Cinderblocks inside my psyche, stifling my ascendancy  
Hustled black market scripts to flip a grim dependency  
Inhaling toxic fumes, exhaling demons in my lines  
Caught in karmic cycles spinning like corrupted vines  
But I studied subtle tactics from pages of secret codes  
“Forty-Eight Laws” lighting lanterns on these murky roads  
I learned to weave semantics, shape these syllables like steel  
Forged a fortress in my verses—everything I spill is real  
Now I’m cruising in the fast lane, smoke coiled in the breeze  
Turning hollow victories into timeless symphonies

**[Chorus / Hook - 8 bars]**  
We transform trauma into timeless technique and truth  
Planting seeds of survival deep in the soil of youth  
Every lyric’s architecture built from battered remains  
We resurrect the spirit—reborn and unchained  
Pressing pen to paper, slicing through old illusions  
This tapestry of rhyme resolves all our confusions  
We stand as sentinels, baptized in brutal grace  
Mapping paths through shadows to a boundless place

One More Chance

your backyard

Shinigami - I Miss U (ft. YungJZAisDead)

@familypet

shinigami: you said thisll never last so now im falling apart
my face is feeling numb again 
a shattered soul
dont let me go
you killed me first
im sure you know

she said thisll never last now im left in the dark
you saved me from myself again 
after the fall
i knew it all along
i never asked for this at all

you shouldve never let me in at all
now all you can do is watch me crawl
away
isolate myself
and i still can feel it all

and you can see the devil in my gaze
i think its best you stay away from me
im weak why cant you see this

familypet: thinkin back i fucked it up
my brothers just don't give a fuck
we skate until it's dark enough
to smoke and drink
we act don't think
don't think we act our age with it
i know i always ruin shit
i hope i never ruin this
i hope we'll always stay like this
putting each other in hospital beds
remember last summer when i broke my leg
doing a jump at the gap at 18th
remember the time that i knocked out your teeth
i'm glad that you always forgave me
these are the stories and memories that made me
i know i wasn't worth saving
i was just crazy
can't help the fact that i love misbehaving

i never asked for this [feat. familypet]

Lil Boo Weep - I Wrote This Song 4 U

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

ＹＯＵ　ＣＡＮ＇Ｔ　ＳＡＶＥ　ＭＥ

//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

occam's razor

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

Just a little something we were working on and never released :)

Cover of "If It Means A Lot To You" by A Day To Remember 
Guitar and Mixing by Shinigami
Recorded in 2017

shinigami + shy - If It Means A Lot To You (Acoustic Cover)

credits:

@4evergone
@charlieshuffler
@kellbender
@pxlm
@supachefm
@guccihighwaters

i will never be a memory

download

a place where i belong [feat. supachefm!] (prod. 4evr)

miss u haven't met u tho

cyberbully mom club - i'm tired and i hate this song

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

feel like shit
cut my wrist in the bathroom

kiss my lips
make me feel like i have you

this is it
and i know that youre sad too

cut you off
yea im sorry but i have to

my tears dont fall
they just drown my pain

like a thunder storm
that wont go away

feel like im drifting away from the one i love
i dont want you to leave cus ill miss ur touch
this life is nothing but a dream

feel like shit [prod. 4evr]

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

I never felt as powerless as i did in the hospital room
every second and hour spent saying how much i love you
and I’m so sorry that I fucking lied
said I’ll protect you but I couldn’t this time
it doesn’t matter how hard I tried
how the hell do I say goodbye
i wanna be the way we were
but it just keeps getting worse
keep screaming at the nurse I’m sorry
watch them take away your body

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me
scream until you comeback
I need you please don’t go yet
give me one more day
why would they take you away from me
I’m staring at the sky 
and wonder if you’re behind with
a thousand eyes on you
sitting inside the blue it still doesn’t feel real yet
kneeling next to your bed and seeing you so damn cold
just tell me its all a fucking lie

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

shinigami

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