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Lostinyourlove (demo)

things will never be the same.

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lyrics:
if you could just

understand whats in my head
im lost forever ive been mislead
ive lived ive died and i have bled
for all the words ive left unsaid

memories they cloud my mind
all of the people i left behind
at least i can say that i tried
its not my fault now let it die

if i left this place without a trace
no one could even recognize my face
why do i feel like a fucking disgrace
lay me to rest and cover my grave
 
i cannot feel
im only good at hiding and im
glad that you remind me of the
things i left behind me

this bed
that i lay in
only holds me back
and these walls just cant protect me
youre not the only one who left me 
[all alone]

why do i push away the 
people who stood by me
things are different now im better
at least thats what i like to tell myself

take my word
i know it hurts
forgive yourself
let it go



fade to black

luna has risen

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take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

luna

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nobody 😔

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

no samples
prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke

Video - https://youtu.be/UzKzr_uSyWY

cuts on ur thigh
where my eyes been lately
i've been feeling down
but i shouldn't be
i've been working hard
hope ur proud of me
lately,
i just wanna distance
whats been killing me

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

substance on substance
till i'm dead asleep
please silence the demon
that's inside of me

using book cover's as a headpiece
i miss being young having dirty feet
years go slow repeating history
lies grow mold and drift in the breeze

so lately
i've been careful when i need to breathe

and lately
i'm just not sure about anything

lately,
i've been drinking too much
if my dad saw 
he'd be mad at me
if my mom called 
she would cry to me
like "when u coming home" ?
"have u forgot about me" ?

(lately i've been drinking too much x4)

6SPEED

if my dad saw he'd be mad at me..

My real life.

prod by taylor king 💘

LYRICS:
you my best friend 
and my enemy
i pop one then i pop five 
you my remedy
and i don't know what 
what comes over me
i get fucked up 
my soul ebony

only dream off a bean ya
tryna be up in the scene ya 
(aye) clips limousine ya
why she callin me a feen ya ya
sad faces 
i aint got no heart
cold cases 
i ain't never gettin caught
ya she too basic 
i could never love a thot yuh
too shameless
i aint never give a fuck no

the pillies is silly
but i cannot quit it
woke up in the pital
my demons is winnin
why i'm always sinnin
downin this liquor
drownding myself in this venom 
ya ya ya

(the sample i used is from skins :)

My Best Friend

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

i had a lot of fun covering one of my favorite songs by @youngburial , hes crazy talented and a brilliant writer. i hope everyones having a great day, and expect another song this week!!

Tuning: D A D F# A E

fats'e 💙

i'd prefer an unmarked grave (fats'e cover)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

soundcloud.com/prodreaper


another night i would've wished that you were here 
i'm kinda high but still it never really stick
yeah i used to sit around just reminiscing
but now i'm tryna figure out a way to make a difference

turn around i see you standing in the sunlight
but i can't look cause everything around me so bright
sometimes 
i just wish i wouldn't be up all night 
and i don't ever really like it going outside

and if you love me why you treat me like you do
you always left me out the loop
and i got nothing left to lose

i ain't your trophy you can't put me in your room
with every heart that you collect 
you never really had me fooled
(i kinda knew)

i gotta pack up all my shit 
i'm on the move
i think i need another hit
don't feel a thing at all unless i'm taking two
still i can't forget it i be holding onto you
i got a pill to help me go and find some closure really soon

know you wouldn't answer 
if i ever tried to call
blow me off again
i know i'm not the one you want at all

you got me all tied down
now i'm strung up
i always felt that i was up against a lost love
i never said i wouldn't quit you should've saw
i wouldn't put up with your shit
don't you pretend you didn't know

i guess i'm not that right for you
i didn't ever really wanna have to fight for you
and i don't ever wanna lie to you
i think i left it where i should've least i tried to
(tried for you)

bury me with several little roses by the words
and write my eulogy in sentences that make me look the worst
i'll have dependency
addicted 'til i'm rotten with the worms
no i don't think i'll ever end it
got me caught up in a curse

If You Love Me (prod. reaper)

why the fuck u gotta be like this
talk like this
act like you know me
you dont know shit
you dont know the half of it
just fucking quit

dont hit up my phone cus i dont feel like talking
sorry if i leave u in the dark its nothing
personal im having trouble keeping up with
how ive been feeling lately

i dont care if you think im obnoxious
im aware that ive got fuckin problems
im running out of ways that i can solve them
and its all keeps coming back

clouds in the sky
with the stars is where i lie
i see fear between your eyes
everytime i say goodbye

dont waste my time with the bullshit and the lies
i see thru it everytime
i wont let u dim my shine

ya im over this
i glo like an angel trapped in the mist
feel like i dont exist
look at the blood flowing down my wrist
down my wrist
make a wish
that it all will get better
the tides will twist
im sick of this ion give a shit
wrap this chain round my neck
ya i fucking quit

grimworld

obnoxious

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

self doubt again
cant get the fuck out my head
this might be the end
i think this might be the end

i cant trust this bitch i know she digging for gold
i dont know if i could ever trust a soul
got my hand on the blade if u want smoke we could go
i been screaming at the sky cus i been searching for some hope tonight

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

go fuck yourself i
dont care what you say
hope this storm will pass
drowning in my pain

nicotine [prod. 93feetofsmoke]

delusional [prod. outby16 x grxgvr]

shinigami x ppgcasper - ghost town [prod. shinjin]

wallhack freestyle #Gx [prod. curtains]

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
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we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

nobody 😔

shinigami

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