I carry this pain
Underneath my eyelids
Spitting out my teeth

Searching for somewhere to place the blame

A river tainted
With the blood that i have lost

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Looking in the mirror
I dont know what i see
Disconnected 

Stressing over things i cant control

This cant be the end
I have to find a better way

Cant see the sunshine when im feeling the rain pouring
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Here i lay broken
The crows pick at my bones
As im rotting away
Theres nothing left here to say
Thats how the story goes (x2)

The rain is pouring 
Down on me
Im begging please
Im on my knees
The angels help me
Fall asleep
When the rain is pouring
Down on me

Im sick of hiding
And crawling in my skin

This is no way to live
I feel it in my chest

downpour

eyes wide shut

Lyrics:

What a slap in the face
I’m wiping blood from an open wound
I haven’t slept in a day
I’m watching ghosts roam a vacant room

The trees are all dying
The angels are crying
Move closer
Move closer to me

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

An echo of hope
Extinguished by flames 
You worship my words
But they’re born from my pain

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

everything falls to the floor

tears fall from my eyes
look to the sky and plead
for an answer
why was i dealt this hand?
ink will fade to gray
as i dissipate

i’ll lay down my weapons
this battle just isn’t worth fighting for
our story is over
but i’ll never forget what you mean to me

i had a dream last night that i woke up to you
opened my eyes just to see there’s nothing left
look to the sky
why do i feel like im dying?
breathe into me and i’ll never forget you

i’ll lay down my weapons
this battle just isn’t worth fighting for
our story is over
but i’ll never forget what you mean to me

suppressor

every light's fate

ONE LAST DANCE

breaking the bones in my hands (prod. freger)

perfume (prod. gee)

now, the sky consumes me
it's getting harder to see myself
will my vision ever clear?

water in my lungs
it's getting harder to breathe without you

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found


never again will i lose myself
in someone else's bone and flesh

put too much pressure on you
can't count the things that i regret

i held you back
and chained you down
there's just no way around it

you're just too gentle to admit it
but i know it's true

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets we used to hang around

i wrote this song just to let you know

the other day i was driving down the empty ghosts of the streets where we used to hang around

whatever you're looking for,
i pray it's what you found

the other day
i was driving down
where we used to hang around
wish you could see me now

i want you to see
what's become of me
i want you to see
i'm not who i used to be

swallowed by the sky

##cutter freestyle (prod. thayerperiod)

sore loser (prod. holy mountain)

produced by: death do us apart

lyrics:
she wears a halo made of broken glass
the windshield starts to crack
and i crack too
my bones werent made for this
they werent made for this

you looked thru me like u could just pass thru
but are you just broken, bleeding too?

i never wanted it to be this way

all this medication
no cause for celebration 
ill never be, ill never be the same
what you took from me
things ill never get back
watch me thru the looking glass

youre in my arteries
clotting up my blood
you make it hard for me
hard for me just to move on

bury me with my eyes wide open
(are you as lost as i am?)

bury me with my eyes wide open
(and are you struggling to find where you stand?)

through the looking glass

100 kpins in tha integra (prod. thayerperiod)

spirit: encoded in silicon (prod. chinapoet & hallow)

please wake up

<a href='https://theartistunion.com/tracks/a33884'>download for free here</a>

sanctuary 💕

<a href='https://theartistunion.com/tracks/c04d9c'>download here</a>

shout out brandon 4 inspiring me

lyrics:
i dont wanna fucking die here
cant watch the stars shine here
i cant lie in this bed

im turning to a ghost
watch me go
the curtains close
i told you so

i been flexin on my exes
dont reply to no message
they wanna get on guest list
i guess i need to stress this

dont hit up my phone 
im all on my own
dont need no one to hold

but if you stay here with me
well fly away in the clouds
never go back to the ground

turn off all the lights
say goodnight
shut my eyes tight
sweet dreams tonight

im pullin up in my 240
babygirl cant ignore me
skrrt off with windows tint 
spark up now the functions lit

falling asleep cos im faded
ill never be complacent
i feel numb and i hate it

your eyes twinkle like the nightsky
tears like diamonds when you cry
let me sing you a lullaby

its like a scattered dream
a far off memory
something that you cant see

grimworld thats the fuckin set
cant feel shit im such a mess
sometimes i wish i was dead
instead of sleeping in this bed

but then i cant be with you
alone in my room
watching the stars and the moon

save my soul
it wanders every night
thru the wind and trees
i guess this is goodbye

the sky lights up at dawn
its such a sight to see
roll my windows down
i feel you here with me

ghosts 👻

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

i know you wanna be 
far away from me
spirits in the breeze
weakened at my knees
staring at the moon
i know ill be there soon
luna forever

its not whatever
stay sad for never
no matter the weather
i know well be together

walking down the street
staring at my feet
wonder what lies
beyond the winter trees
im so sick and tired
of being sick and tired
i know im a letdown
i know im a liar

i hope i find her
this is a reminder 
that im the one to blame
always the spark that ignites the flame

its not whatever
stay sad for never
no matter the weather
luna forever

i dont care at all
thats my biggest fault
ignoring every text
ignoring every call
all i do is run
all i do is hide
frightened by the world
so i stay inside

at night forever
ill sleep for never
awake together
luna forever

i just wanna go
im far away from home
up at 3am
just staring at my phone
im a waste of space
standing in the rain
and feeling nothing

ill stand for something
always be nothing
ill just sit in silence
tears fall from my eyelids

[outro]

twinkle twinkle in the sky
i just wanna fucking die
slit my wrist and end this pain
put a bullet in my brain
twinkle twinkle little star
i hope i get hit by a car

luna

download

luna 💤

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

lying in the snow
so cold 
please dont leave me tomorrow
pressure on my shoulders
feels like boulders
i might crumble

be my sanctuary
you might save me
let the waves take me
on on on i wander
all alone
beneath the surface

watch me drift among
the stars and moon and sun
my journeys just begun
but all ive done is run
take away the pain
the silence of the rain
skin and bones remain
fragments of fragile remains


its time we stopped this pointless nonsense
pick yourself up its not worth it
they just wanna see you down
but miss you when youre not around

youre wasting all your time on this
thats all you do is overthink
i know you wish for this to end
i know you wish for this to end

i cant fucking stay this way
burn my body to a blaze
ash and skin and bone remain
lay me to rest in the rain x4

sanctuary pt. 2 🌠

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

staring at my ceiling
hiding from my feelings
tired of the same shit
tell my mom im leaving

playing playstation
ill call you back later
im so sick of waiting
can you do me a favor

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you (x2)

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

i just need to move on
ive been waiting too long
to feel like myself again
to feel like i never left

hiding from the gallows
hang my head downlow
walking in the shadows
feeling fucking shallow

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

lite brite ✨

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

nobody 😔

luna has risen

also available on:

itunes: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959?ls=1&app=itunes

apple music: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id1214071959

spotify, and all other major music stores.

lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

a fallen angel 🌟

scrape my face on the pavement w/ shy

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

occam's razor

in vain w/ kaiyko

available on all streaming platforms

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7hWQzHhOY8

lyrics: can you feel me
ill be in your dreams when youre asleep tonight
i didnt even want to say goodbye
i know tears came falling out of those green eyes
we both know its not the right time
i wake up and youve been missing from me
you were by my side
now were worlds away from eachother
i cant sleep i cant eat i feel like im dying
run the cold steel on my skin
ill never feel your kiss again
can you feel me
ill be in your dreams when youre asleep tonight
i didnt even want to say goodbye
i know tears came falling out of those green eyes
we both know its not the right time (x2)
​

music video

as long as we remember each other, we'll never be apart

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

100 gecs - hand crushed by a mallet [shini dnb mix]

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

self doubt again
cant get the fuck out my head
this might be the end
i think this might be the end

i cant trust this bitch i know she digging for gold
i dont know if i could ever trust a soul
got my hand on the blade if u want smoke we could go
i been screaming at the sky cus i been searching for some hope tonight

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

go fuck yourself i
dont care what you say
hope this storm will pass
drowning in my pain

Popular tracks by shinigami