im not doing very well, like at all, but fuck it we ball

I don't wanna feel anymore
I found my fucking body on the floor
it takes time just to look at all the doors
I want more, but i don't want war

there's chaos inside of my fucking head
the voice in my mind it wants me just dead
the demons inside crawl over my bed
every which side there is no defend

there is no defend
i lost all my sense
i lost everything 
to reality

tell me
tell me whats in my dreams
im caught in between
it gets hard to breath
(bro she was like my ecstasy)

i need therapy
or else i won't be here in 2 years
you never even made a thing clear
if thats how youll be 
then ill let it be

changes
they make you faceless
the shameness you hide your face in
everythings down i don't want say shit
with everything down what should i say next

took my happiness 
no, you can't replace it
done with all these lies, don't you try erase it
took my kindness for a weakness
don't mistake it
 
now I'm looking at the ceil-

I don't wanna feel anymore
I found my fucking body on the floor
it takes time just to look at all the doors
I want more, but i don't want war

there's chaos inside of my fucking head
the voice in my mind it wants me just dead
the demons inside crawl over my bed
every which side there is no defend

I Don't Wanna Feel Anymore

[LYRICS]
i heard you poppin xans your new man
is a fan 
remember when you told me i wouldn’t understand 
look at you so pretty party girl city
think that you’re so witty it don’t even hit me 

cigarette ashes 
the way she look like an actress 
and all she care about is fashion 
don’t show an ounce of compassion 
i be in the whip going 95 feel the mother fucking wind 
my brothers by my side hold me down when i’m sick 
i ain’t trippin bout you no more
you love to hit me up when you’re bored 

i dont wanna play 
all these games no more 
why do you treat me like a toy 
Im not a a party boy
and the games over
don’t hit me right back 
when im on my own and im getting my bag 
hidden in the smoke off a fat zig zag 
talkin all that shit i forgot who asked 
@ily_turo:
i forgot who asked 
and imma leave you in the 
past tense 
i dont want you shawty 
imma leave you for the next man 
you asked me a question 
and i dont think i was listening 
you fucking up my mental 
and your making me use ritalin
you wanna take me in 
call it a cordial sin 
you want my body 
and my soul 
im not sure how to win 
you tried to take, take 
my soul away 
but i got solio behind my back 
we dont play games

cigarette ashes 
the way she look like an actress 
and all she care about is fashion 
don’t show an ounce of compassion 
i be in the whip going 95 feel the mother fucking wind 
my brothers by my side hold me down when i’m sick 
i ain’t trippin bout you no more
you love to hit me up when you’re bored.

thx 4 listening :3
mastered by Turo

PARTY GIRL

PARTY GIRL w/ Lxve Turo! [kimani + senoju]

Lyrics
-----
@iissaa-hi
Changes, options
i've been cautious
(i lost conscious)
don't change the topic 
blame this nonsense
(i know your toxic)
where do you profit?
you've been boxed in
(your out of options)
you take a hostage
choosing arson
(now your the target)

out of options
i think i lost it
lifes up for auction
the devil clocked in
don't want your concept
i know your profit
your running lawless
reject the crosses

turn me to that monster
and i got was laughter
i hate all of you bastards

@nokerbforever
i hate every single one of you
it's so fucked up, trapped in this solitude
i found less when u said ''it's inside of you''
now it breaks, it falls down, all for you
all these drugs they fuck with my attitude
don't know what now, so tell me what to do
i've fought war while u found the peace in you
i feel dead, i feel lost, it increases too
changes hit me like the winter
feeling all this, shiver
i think that i really understood 
what u meant now
she called me a sinner
what's that supposed to mean now?
funny how life takes turns it's a riddle

Cautious

Cautious W/ NOKERB

'.t00-f4r!!//<3

track 1/3
produced by mix
for jude
vocals inspired by sleepwater

miss you <3

lyrics:
mom say's it'll be okay, mom say's it'll be okay
she's hoping that i'll come home soon, she's hoping that i'll come home soon

i'll be home soon, i lost my friends, i'll be home soon, to make amends
i'll be home soon, shit i lost my head, soon soon, i'll be home soon , im not enough, 
i'll be home soon, its just a bluff, i'll be home soon, i fucked up life, soon soon, i'll be home soon,
home soon, i'll be home soon, home soon, i'll be home soon, home soon, soon i'll be home soon 
why'd i trust you, i'll be home soon, pine i miss you, i'll be home soon


i met a kind pine tree, oh i love you dear
you gave me strength to be myself with no fear
i freeze my tears
hold you close to my heart, so i don't intend on giving up
back to building up

i get up off my phone, i plan on coming home
im stuck inside my shell, im breaking out of hell

i'm stuck inside this shell
i'm trapped here in this shell
i can't live in this shell
i don't feel in this shell 

no i don't feel in this shell
i'm stuck inside this shell
i like it in my shell
i can't breathe in my shell

im breaking out this shell
im getting out this shell
im getting out this shell
im getting out this shell

thank you.

dedicated to sleepwater 
pine tattoo when i can
we love and miss you <3

home (interlude)

Produced by Morri
Written and performed by Morri
Mixed and Mastered by Morri
PS. i took inspiration from Ruevi's "VI" for the ending

enjoy :)
|lyrics <3|
I'm blinded
By ur face i-
Don't know what to say
When i wake up

Reassuring
Our love too
And i hate it
I don't want to

You will hate me
I don't love u
I don't need u
I don't like u

U felt like a chore
But i'm too tired
I'm sorry lover 
But i'm a liar

I'm on a date with tears
And i'm shaking out of fear
I need to get out of here
I need to get (out of here)

So close but so far away
I dont want u to stay
My tears won't go away
They're persistent to stay

Change up
I wanna change up
Our flame is dying
I cant resist you

12 letters in my mail
And they come from u but i can't resist you
12 hundred reasons that
i won't change up but i think that i might just miss you

Change up
I wanna change up
Our flame is dying
I cant resist you

12 letters in my mail
And they come from u but i can't resist you
12 hundred reasons that
i won't change up but i think that i might just miss you

(I FOUND YOU)
I'm having trouble decide
I'm running back on my lies 
I'm wasting all of your time
I'm sorry i didn't lie
(I lied)
I'm having trouble decide
I'm running back on my lies 
I'm wasting all of your time
I'm sorry i didn't lie

Dilemma

Prod. me

lyrics:
(and i try
i try my best to die
whats that look in your eye
i just can't get it right
tell me tell me why do you lie
whats the point of replies
cause i think this is good bye)

I can't 
sit around just to pass by
cause I don't want you on my mind
I don't like when you lie
how are you surprised
you do this every time
so why you change your mind
how are you picking sides

yeah hurts every day that you pass by
but i can't go without high
but your onto the next without why
yeah i just can't accept "bye"
and tell me what you want
everything I saw 
and I can't get enough
I don't know if it's lust
but its so hard to trust

i don't wanna go outside
i don't wanna go to the light
my
would you take my side
cause i can't take these lies
you just, tell me we'll survive
i can't, tell you can't lie, don't lie
those 13 reasons why
cause i can't

Waiting

lyrics 

the demons coming out tonight
theyre haunting taking over me 
dont know just how to make it right
dont know how it’s supposed to be
im always fuckin up my life
and mixing drugs i might od
im running out of all my time
but youre still lookin right at me
(2x)
im running out of all my time
but youre still lookin right at me
the life i wished i lived in 
where i grew up safe and happily
if self loathing was a crime
id be locked up for eternity
take whats yours take all of mine
not showing ur maturity 

that feeling inside 
you keep saying shit thats hurting me
feels like im losing my mind
every drug i take controlling me
why do you have to waste my time
feels like you have a grip on me
so just grab the knife and cut my heart
and throw it in the ocean sea

the demons coming out tonight
theyre haunting taking over me
dont know just how to make it right
dont know how it’s supposed to be
im always fuckin up my life
and mixing drugs i might od
im running out of all my time
but youre still lookin right at me
(2x)

Flower From A Distance

play me yeah 
she tried to save me
said she wanna change me
no no you can't play me
i don't know what your gaining
you be on the same thing
and once she tried to blame me
i don't care what you claiming

oh she back again; think i don't noticed it
i had to change my friends; now you want come on in

she wanna start again
but i wont make amends
im gone, gon let it by
i tell you once now its twice
i don't; i don't know why
tell me tell me your lies

shit changed
i don't know how; to stay
i don't know which; which way
to go
no no you can't know

switching sides you want lie
can't trust you half of the time
i knew it was all a lie
what's more you wasted my time
wish i could take back my mind
brains rotting i might just die you won i can't deny
gazing i see through your eyes

one more time
i hope you cry
see your lies
this is good bye

Blame me

3 years old song

i've been wasting so much time
and i don't know where i went wrong
my mind it tells me to keep going
but i don't really feel like i want
where are we now? i'm not with you
the sky is dark, no stars just clouds
i'm walking down a lonely road
the eyes they don't shine anymore
my hand is blocking my whole vision
because i'm so fucking done
these people they think they know me
but i've been gone for so damn long

yeah i've been gone for so damn long
i'm really tired of this all
run away, i'd like to do it
but with no money there's no escape
everyone can hear me now
i bet they gon talk about me
it's good for now i'm with myself
and that's how it will always
yeah that's how it will always be
everybody fooling me
yeah i be writing every minute
and i don't think that u will see

i've been wasting so much time
and i don't know where i went wrong
my mind it tells me to keep going
but i don't really feel like i want
where are we now? i'm not with you
the sky is dark, no stars just clouds
i'm walking down a lonely road
the eyes they don't shine anymore
my hand is blocking my whole vision
because i'm so fucking done
these people they think they know me
but i've been gone for so damn long

no money, no escape (metlast)

SRT (PROD. AOTB)

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