lyrics -
I wonder bout the other side
And I know damn well I’m
Right on my way
Cus I hate my face
And I hate these games we play 
You say its not that bad

In a month or 2 i'll hate this song
Everything will all sound wrong
You’ll probably hate me too
I know I always do
Fuck I hate how I hit that note,
And I hate how I’m such a joke 
to U and your friends.
Go laugh about it

And when I walk alone
All the the things that’s left unknown
They keep me so surrounded
And everyday I sit and wait
For shit to change, I feel the same
I grit my teeth and hope I find myself one day..

i hate this song. (demo)

i want to live forever when i die

Open your eyes friends

I don't own the art.

Check out Solxce : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2a9eu2w5ysTd1zbbkSFONg

Lyrics:

Some things in life
Just ain't for me
I'm not for the fees
Lands mine paying for trees
Watching em mope
Steady reaching missing the rope
Treat em like wolves
For the coat
Real packs rise for the hope

Misfits just failing the game
Mental invade
How do we stand for the change
When things switch right under us
Moving the phase
Keep the lights dark up in the maze
A tired brigade
War dogs paving the way
Pay for the graves
And negligence 
Thrown in a cage
Watch what ya say
I'll need a black line when I pray
Call me a stray
But imma keep doing the most
Shoot at the ghost
Like
It's not invisible
Nor interdimensional
But all of it is in plain sight
Much like the visuals
A fake life how can we determine whats divisible
It doesn't matter if you are spiritual
It's all about the mind

(Hook)
We wont know whats up or down
Lose our senses who's around
I wont lose myself
I'll fight until the end

Know I wont gain any glory
Hoping they will tell my story
Keep em rising
We will fight until the end

(Verse 2)
Most of us are just living sad lives
Even with no rent to pay it's not a paradise
But it's better than most
It's what keeps us afloat
And more willing to conform 
Make control a new norm
At least it's better than dying
Forced from our homes
Military slapping your bro's
For speaking up a to the throne
And many may be fine
Living animal lives
Stuck and confined
Until they rot and they die
Not I
Homie Imma stand and fight
Even if the enemies a cat
And we are mice
All of us can rise
Pull down the enterprise
Find the freedom
That they do not show in their disguise
All the knowledge hidden so it may not compromise
The need we have for groups that has only fed us lies
It's not a God or entity 
They've all got human faces
Money makes em move
It can make the world be faceless

(Hook)
We wont know whats up or down
Lose our senses who's around
I wont lose myself
I'll fight until the end

Know I wont gain any glory
Hoping they will tell my story
Keep em rising
We will fight until the end

Till The End (Prod. by Solxce)

lyrics ⬇️ 💚

they gon do what they want regardless
takin it from the top just watch this
ima tell you my flaws and all my problems
idc what anyone say, 
we all got them
had a problem today
couldn’t solve it
she been switching her ways no stoppin
pretty lil girl 5 foot but she’s toxic
i don’t need that shit in my life but I want it

I’m just tryna be honest can you be honest with me
cuz one of the problems is how I got deceived
yea
she said she wanted me and nothing else
two weeks later told me to go to hell

so please don’t do that to me
It really hurt my feelings later I had to bleed
had to stare at the ceiling 
tell me god what I need
cuz baby I got a mili, a mili reasons to leave
yea you can’t believe it, can’t believe in me
tried to feel it but you dont put me to sleep
So defeated
see you in my dreams
so conceeded you don’t know how to think

they gon do what they want regardless 
takin it from the top just watch this 
ima tell you my all my flaws and all my problems
idc what anyone say, 
we all got them

so creative the ways you make me nauseous 
u got me stuck in a daze like do you want them

i been runnin in mazes and I can’t get out
hoping that I wanted to stay but yellin get back
you were only there for a day why don’t you get that
you cannot bury the flames unless you backtrack 
lights out idk the rest now 
pipe down I don’t wanna hear a sound

regardless (prod. flesh x jolst)

lyrics 

nightmare shawty
imma catch a flight there
let the stains bleed thru
red my dry hair
all the stress bleed thru
getting white hair
u always go low
shawty fight fair
everytime I die
I swr ur right there
everytimeee I cry u give a dry stare
all my flesh ghost white
cop the right flare
u don't know the feeling till the skin tears

u can rip my face off a wear it as a mask
I cannot wake up from this vision I had had
battery acid in my nails and down my back
my body made of concrete I can swear ull never crack
maybe I need some help right now but leave that in the past
I had not asked for u to put me straight on blast
u have had some qualities I used to swear I lack
if I'm going out, make sure I'm going out last 

nightmare shawty
imma catch a flight there
let the stains bleed thru
red my dry hair
all the stress bleed thru
getting white hair
u always go low
shawty fight fair
everytime I die
I swr ur right there
everytimeee I cry u give a dry stare
all my flesh ghost white
cop the right flare
u don't know the feeling till the skin tears




battery _acid

There it goes again
Feel it creeping in
Just like an old friend
Where have you been?

Did you miss the way I carry you around?

Take me back to bed
And tuck me in
I know you like it when
I’m playing dead

Did you miss the way you weigh me down?

You know I can’t resist ya
You know me all too well
There’s nothing quite as blissful
As the nothingness I feel
When I’m in your arms

where have you been?

have some spoken word-ish type stuff prod by @aminacuore

word trash:
On this isle of flightlessbirds we see stars
On this rock of grass unturned we hear far
Too far

On this isle of flightless birds i toss and turn and fall from grace to words ive never said or heard. I look up to shattered skies above to see the doves follow my donwards spiral into denial of self love. Thats why in here in the first place im lacking purpose i pace the firmant around copper swans on steel perchments im hurting im turning day by day im still burning yearning for the answer to why im here and all i heard was silence as i shed a single tear.

The isles come in elementals
Born from sentimental instruments of lost practices gone to written stencils. 
I sit and watch the pink water before throw itself farther and longer
Till the waves cant strike any stronger
I watch the iron puffings dance on stones
Covering layers upon layers of catacombs
And let them bury me.

Let the swans peck my eyes
Let the robins have my throat
Let the pigeons have my insides
Let whoever is trapped her next have my coat

Because one day we will join the isles, fade away as a picture of a shining smile on a frame in a house long forgotten. Rotten walls and torn floors with rats eating away at the drapes and the cotton. So let them take you, shelter the birds watch them play through

The pain so insignifigant, through blissful ignorance they have no interest in what our mission in. All that matters now, is youve joined the isles.

So let the ducks have my spine
And the hawks my left ear 
Let the eagle take my sanity
Let the fallen dove, take my fear

On this isle of iron birds we leave behind a message. Those who wander far enough to capture this lesson. Let those who can fear whats kept within. There is no shining end to the winding trench you call life, the bench you take as you set a stake will haunt you with strife. So count your words on one hand and your friends on another. And dont let the iron birds pull you under

Isle Of Iron Birds | prd. Amina Cuore

x influenced my rapping style heavily and was one of my favorite artists ever. I couldn't help but make a tribute song for him due to his impact on my life and music. rest easy man.

beat prod. by zeeky
https://www.youtube.com/user/TheGeckow

Tribute to You (prod. Zeeky)

Seventeen

with every end, there is a new beginning.

here it is. the first track under the new name. i've been working really hard the past few months trying to develop my own sound and understanding how i want the music i make to be perceived.

talk to me in the comments, i respond to every single one. x

follow the journey:
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soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/sohaylryder

lyrics:

They tell me don’t waste it 
And I know it’s basic 
Cuz patience is a virtue 
But it’s so outrageous 
So why is it so hard 
To Find out who u are 
They say be yourself 
but really? Now come on

Got So much to share 
But how do I say it?
I’ve spent so much time
Seconds gone wasted
But I did alright  
my dreams and ambitions 
Will keep me upright    
As long as I live them 

[chorus] x2
So once again
I’ll be waiting for you 
Tell a friend 
Let them know I’m trying 
I’ve hit descend 
“There’s nothing wrong with it”

This road is closed 
So Suck it up

Hold me close 
There’s nothing wrong dear 
there’s nothing wrong dear

This car won’t start
It’s fucked me up 
I think it’s time 
To pack things up Dear
Pack your things dear

[chorus] x2

Blurred trees, broken visions
New start, new decisions
Is this really what I wanted now?
Tell me how I’m gonna get it now

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i'll be waiting for you

All original guitar beat produced by myself

Must always credit in title (Prod. Zaini)
Lease Beats: https://zainibeats.beatstars.com/

Falter

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i want to live forever when i die

juli♡