sorry this is too much

@aeter 

My girl my girl she's so abusive I think I'm a loser
My girl my girl, she's so abusive I think I'm a loser
I think I'm a loser

Come on wait I can't I can't It'll take like two Seconds
The boss will have my ass for this it's illegal

My girl
My girl
She jus so fuckin  abusive
My body is covered in bruises
You made me feel so stupid
My girl is so abusive i think i'm a fuckin loser
Baby bleed a bloody river
I wish i didnt fuckin miss her
She's jus is so abusive
My body is covered in bruises

Are you ever going to ask that girl out
My girl my girl she's so abusive i think i'm a loser
My girl my girl she's such a loser I think I'm a loser
So stupid
I know what you did last summer baby put me Six feet under baby bleed a bloody river i wish I didn't fucking miss her
Loser

skul n aeter mygirl

produced and mixed by me

theres so many things left to do
i cant see you moving out of this wall
and i know its all my fault
now theres no one to catch my fall

NO MORE,
YOUR DEAD!

GET OUT OF,
MY HEAD!

YOU CHANGED,
MY FATE!

I CANT,
GO AWAY!

I KNOW WHAT,
YOU SAID!

I'LL DIE IN,
MY BED!

I'LL JUST,
DECAY!

TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS PLACE! (FUCK!!!!!)

11-08-24

the trees can talk

rewind time to be with u w/ lucky*

when her eyes look at you 
and her smile simply makes your day 
but you know that shes 
not yours
she woudlnt want to anyway

oh thats love 
sweet love 
she takes ur heart 
and throws it in its grave 

but thats love 
sweet love 
we couldnt have it any other way 

its hard to wrap your head around 
its like u just cant think straight 
whats this strange fear im feeling 
my legs want to run away 


oh thats love
sweet love
she takes ur heart
and throws it in its grave

but thats love
sweet love
we couldnt have it any other way

sweet love

The tears in my eyes are all cried out
I don't wanna be alone or alive right now

I'm running out of words, I'll try again tomorrow
And all this guilt I feel, it never leaves, it always follows
Almost every night I sit alone and weep in sorrow
Let me guess, I fucked up again, all of the trust you let me borrow
Look what you made me do

The tears in my eyes are all cried out
(I broke your trust once again)
I don't wanna be alone or alive right now
(I can't explain the way I feel, to my only friend)

The tears in my eyes are all cried out
(If you need a spare heart, I got one I can lend)
I don't wanna be alone or alive right now
(I want you to take advantage of my rotting flesh)

what losing your only friend feels like

im kinda scared of you ngl

ik u want me to heal but

this life isnt what you want

i hate myself for being born :c

[Verse 1]  
I woke up to the fridge humming your favorite song  
Your toothbrush still wet, but the water’s long gone  
Coffee went cold, I drank it black like my lungs  
Tasted like the “forevers” that slipped off your tongue  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Every mirror’s a crime scene, lipstick on the frame  
Every shadow’s a witness whispering your name  

[Chorus]  
Sing me to sleep with the pills on the shelf!  
I’m slow-dancing with death in a room by myself!  
Catchy little hook for a heart that won’t heal-  
La-la-la-lie, this pain is so real!  
La-la-la-lie, I’m already gone!  
Play it on repeat till the feeling is numb!  

[Verse 2]  
Your voicemail still says “leave it at the beep”  
I call every hour just to hear you breathe  
The cat stopped eating, she waits by the door  
Paws on the glass like she’s begging for more  

[Verse 3]  
I wore your hoodie till the scent turned to dust  
Now it hangs in the closet like a criminal’s trust  
Neighbors stopped knocking, they know what they’d find  
A man made of echoes and cheap boxed wine  

[Pre-Chorus 2]  
I wrote “come home” on the fog of the glass  
Watched it vanish like every second chance  

[Chorus]  
Sing me to sleep with the pills on the shelf!  
I’m crowd-surfing through hell in a room by myself!  
Catchy little hook for a heart that won’t heal-  
La-la-la-lie, this pain is so real!  
La-la-la-lie, I’m already gone!  
Play it on repeat till the feeling is numb!  

[Bridge 1]  
If heaven’s got Wi-Fi, send me a sign  
A thumbs-up emoji, anything fine  
I’d trade every tomorrow for one more tonight  
But the screen stays black and the stars lost their light  

[Bridge 2]  
I dug through the laundry, found your airplane ticket stub  
Destination: anywhere but here, anywhere but us  
The departure board blinks like a heart giving up  
Gate 23, final call, but I’m still in love  

[Breakdown]  
Tick… tick… tick…  
(That’s the clock counting heartbeats I’ll never get back)  

[Chorus]  
Sing me to sleep… (voice breaks)  
I’m dancing with death… (string bends sharp)  
Catchy little hook… (feedback howls)  
La-la-la-lie… (whisper)  
La-la-la-lie… (barely air)  

[Outro]  
 “Hey, it’s me… pick up… I miss you already.”  
[Beep… line dead.]

this life isnt what you want

imar