love u @seem_bng
Mixed, Mastered & Produced by: @areyoumatthias
Vocals Mixed by: @kayostarri

lyrics:

im starting to think im worthless
cause my lifes a fucking mess
im just going through these curses
please know im trying my best

you're saying its not as bad as it seems
but i know you'll learn to regret me
i wanna learn to love myself
but im just so fucking ugly, yeah

dropping out, disappointing everyone
try my best to make it up to my mom
do my best, that's what you use to always say
now im falling apart on the brightest day

now im bitchin' 'bout how life ain't fair
got me doubled-down, on my knees, tearing out my hair
got one big, happy family, but im never there
cause no one ever gave a shit, no one ever cared

x2

i want to love myself, but im sO F*CKING UGLY DUDE

thinking bout u - peep x boywithfroot

lyrics:

tell me what it is you want me to be
imma give you more than you’ll ever need
sitting here waiting for your final breath

(grey era clique <3)

could you please fly away from my grave?
do it slow, it’ll numb the pain
watch me blow up, gonna happen one day
people switch up, it don’t matter ok

careful what you ask for
lining off my dashboard
is this what you wished for?
need you close, my paramour

guess some things were never meant
bleeding out slow on the pavement
took a couple xannies just to reconnect 
pop a bottle with it, let my body hit the bed

cutting real deep, thinking bout you
everything i shouldve done for you
hurt so bad so i blamed you
but we know its not true, never shouldve blamed you

if i end my life
do you honestly think she’ll love me then?
i could pull up in my ghost
i’ll be haunting her till the very end
when i hit it big
i just wanna be surrounded by all my friends
you could call me lxst boy
cause i cant wait for december to end

careful what you ask for
lining off my dashboard
is this what you wished for?
need you close, my paramour

haunting her (prod. skinwalker)

why cant you just be content with the body you were given?

because this isnt me this isnt what i am i dont want to look like this why cant you just let me have what i want?

vent post

Dysphoria

Come Over When You're Sober, Pt. 2 (og version)

sixteen lines (og version)

made with: @breckenford and @yagirlbunny

lyrics:

yung bunn <3

[koba]

and if im being honest
i don’t got nobody to talk to
and if im being honest
i dont want nobody else but you

so what’s your number
tell me, what’s your number?
all my friends saying
“koba, you should call him”
say i love you
im so fucking tired

@miserygxrden baby
we on the moon baby

[FØRD]

lemme be honest i been goin crazy
you gave me a promise and you left me so baby
lemme tell you everything thats goin on
took time out my day and every day you made me walk

honestly im stuck standing in shock still
were we meant to be together girl jus be fr
every night im sitting here and you make me feel
like i dont even matter girl just tell me whats the deal
whats the deal
tell me whats the deal
its so surreal
cause i been skippin meals
its so familiar the way you 

put me in my feels

[koba]

and if im being honest
i don’t got nobody to talk to
and if im being honest
i dont want nobody else but you

so what’s your number
tell me, what’s your number?
all my friends saying
“koba, you should call him”
say i love you
im so fucking tired

@miserygxrden baby
we on the moon baby

if i'm being honest w/ brecken

Latitude

Lyrics: 

Roam these halls in my home
Livin' with a couple people but I feel alone
Break my bones
Voices in my head - people that I used to know

Roam these halls in my home
Livin' with a couple people but I feel alone
Break my bones
Voices in my head - people that I used to know

I don't feel alright, in my head's too much stress
Layin' in my bed all day, tryna rest
Stuck in my head all day
Thinkin' off the things I shouldn'tve said
Things I shouldn'tve said and leaving you on read

Roam these halls in my home
Livin' with a couple people but I feel alone
Break my bones
Voices in my head - people that I used to know

I can feel his presence, I think he is on his way
Death is waitin' at my doorstep
I got way too many sins - to confess
I'd be better off, dead

On My Own (Halls) [prod. THERSX]

Lyrics:

(Would you shed a tear when I die?
Would you shed a tear when I die?)

(I know.. I know.. I know..)
I know that I did some stupid things
but you didn't even try to understand me
Yeah, you told me that you did but I think
all those words were empty

In hindsight you were just like all the other guys
but I took what I could
So I had to settle with someone who never understood
Never understood me

I can't take it, I will never fall in love again, no
I'm too scared and my heart is way too fragile

...

I will never fall in love again, no
I can't trust a single person to this day
I will never trust someone again, no
'Cause my heart is still in pain, everyday, oh

(I know.. I know.. I know..)
I know that I did some stupid things
but you didn't even try to understand me
Yeah, you told me that you did but I think
all those words were empty

In hindsight you were just like all the other guys
but I took what I could
So I had to settle with someone who never understood
Never understood me

I can't take it, I will never fall in love again, no
I'm too scared and my heart is way too fragile...

Fragile Heart [prod. metlast x lL. lK.]

Reuploading this one because I didn't like the fact I was sick when I initially recorded the vocals. Re-recorded them and did some minor adjustments.

-copy pasting from old description:

I was planning to keep this topic private, but since it does affect me a lot and is a part of me, I had to bring it up at some point - which I felt comfortable enough doing thanks to some cool people I know.
It shouldn't affect my future music too much, it'll still be the same old stuff.

LYRICS:
(Soo.. the past few years.. I have spent.. figuring myself out..
and uh.. I'm pretty sure I got it.)

Goin' through my memories - skydivin'
Do a little self-reflection, I think that I'm hidin'
Hidin' who I am
I think that that boy is dyin'
I don't wanna be him

Put him in a fuckin' coffin, off him, I don't
wanna see him
Felt this way ever since I was a little kid
but I always put it to the side 'cause people
told me it ain't right

Goin' through my memories - skydivin'
Do a little self-reflection, I think that I'm hidin'
Hidin' who I am
I think that that boy is dyin'
I don't wanna be him

(I know it's going to take a while.. to..
achieve my goal.. of who I wanna be..

But.. it's gonna be a journey.. it's gonna
have its ups and downs.. I think I'm gonna make it.)

Goin' through my memories - skydivin'
Do a little self-reflection, I think that I'm hidin'
Hidin' who I am
I think that that boy is dyin'
I don't wanna be him

Put him in a fuckin' coffin, off him, I don't
wanna see him
Felt this way ever since I was a little kid
but I always put it to the side 'cause people
told me it ain't right

Goin' through my memories - skydivin'
Do a little self-reflection, I think that I'm hidin'...

(I only came out to like.. a few.. select people so far..
and.. I'm honestly kind of terrified.. of... you know,
more people finding out... but.. I'll tell them, when
I'm comfortable enough.)

He - She [prod. THERSX]

Trying something new

Lyrics:
I can't tell you where I been today
Voices get into my brain
I can't tell you where I been today
Foggy mind, endless rain
Don't know what to say

I can't tell you where I've been today
All these voices get into my brain
I'm afraid that it'll be too much one day
Yeah, maybe I'll go insane
Don't know what to say

I can't tell you where I've been today, no
Think I'll keep it to myself this time
I just wanna be alone for once
Please just leave me the fuck alone for once

Can you just stop naggin' in my ears all the time?
Told you that I'd be just fine
I don't even need you by my side
'Cause alone, I'll be just fine - I'll be just fine

I'm talking to the voice inside - my head
'Cause it wishes that everyone I knew was dead
I don't even wanna think that way
But there's demons in my brain

I can't tell you where I've been today, no
Think I'll keep it to myself this time
I just wanna be alone for once
Please just leave me the fuck alone for once

...

I can't tell you where I been today
Voices get into my brain
I can't tell you where I been today
Foggy mind, endless rain

WhereIveBeen [prod.  GAXILLIC]

Random silly fella who uses FLStudio sometimes. I'm from Germany, but I prefer speaking english, so the majority of my music will also be in english. I mostly do emo rap kind of stuff, but I do sometimes try out different vibes. Juice WRLD, XXXTentacion and Lil Peep have inspired me to make my own music.

If you happen to know me from somewhere, no you don't..

WhereIveBeen [prod. GAXILLIC]

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