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Revitalized Nefelibata

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shxdzn - 3

cardigan feat mako 444

w h a t.  i t.  m e a n. (prod.4clip)

wassup now! (prod.4clip)

Stream on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5o3zeb6JhEP7x2jGYZj7oa

Artists:
@prod-oc
@heylog

Lyrics:
did i want this, no not at all
does it concern you we still talk
i tried my best but it didnt work out
im tryna see you, dont know if ur taken now
i wanna get what was lost
i just want that for us
and tell you i love you

you lied to me
now the text box is green
so now is it tense
we went through this once
cant do it again
but thats what you get
i dont love me
so how can i love you
when i stand
to look at myself
no im not a fan
i wish i was dead

baby im not the same person i used to be
and when you left, did it have something to do w me
running around with you like it was yesterday
and if i saw you i wouldnt know what to say

you lied to me
now the text box is green
i dont love me
so how can i love you
so how can i love you

oc & heylog - love//heartbreak

prod hiraeth
just trying things, sorry if not best

is this as bad as before?
laid out on the floor
how can you claim you wanna know
with all my messages ignored

i don’t think you really understand
i told you alr we wont last
told me where i cut it’s getting bad
but i don’t care,
you wish i never had

fucked up got my head in my hands
i won’t love, you get it all on-demand
no thoughts, running dry like the sand
don’t leave ur all i have

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

leave me alone
i don’t wanna try but ur arguing
i have anxiety
they’re watching me
I’m tryna quit
you don’t really know me
feel like im nothing but misery
I’m tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
you can call me useless
least i had a fucking ounce of trust
let go of everyone
I’m struggling to give you up
you don’t really want me
i had everything and fucked it up
is this a sign that i should stop pretending how to love

step away from the door i won’t let you in
i don’t wanna tell you what is happening
leave me outside in the cold again
nothing to say
we’re at the start of the end

start of the end

prod me

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you don't think twice when i tell you i've grown all alone
was i the one that you wanted before it begun

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
shes poisonous shes poisonous shes ignorant shes ignorant
destroy me leave me out, you annoy me your a cow
got some grass to feed, hear me out
you on the fully feed, on the ground?

our time has passed ik i need you here alone
your face looks nice from the pictures i see on my phone
you hide everything you do i'm inside of everything i knew
wipe tears behind pine, get back beside my life
i love you how fuck me then tell me to be fine

her name is poison and i am addicted
she cast flames on my heart, ik that shes different
i know  that im lame still living, this is what i predicted
no direction or aim, tunnel vision getting twisted

drama queen (feat. xatashi) prod.4clip

produced by xona 

[???]

-lyrics-
I might act like you but I’ve been knowing my own limits
I can’t help myself when you treat me like I was different
oh my god, I swear I’m falling all apart and it won’t stop
it’s like September and it doesn’t seem to rot-

like you..

I might stab myself or two
don’t walk within these hilly dunes
I’ll fall right here and shoot through you
“stay by side”
I’m not your other guy
this isn’t choice I just know that I’ve been airtight 

I’ve been so upset, ember through my chest
where did all your friends go(?) coalesce
I might need a grip to pull me into this 
drugs are different, they walk into a depth
ay, yeah
caught within my skin 8 leg to my sight 
I’ll tell my truth and leave you hanging so you won’t cry- don’t try
ain’t one, ain’t by your side
so so, out of line? enduring all the fights

~

my life is hurting for a way to pause
I’ll hang around and let it go on
yeah, yeah
I can’t choose on what I’m on
I tend to change and I’m worried that-

talk down oh my oh my-
it’s on me to make it out alive 
more found within my skin
8 eyes, 8 legs
they left off from my head

the coldest winter seemed so innocent, swim through the rivers and reach my instrument
I threw my life on the line for a threat.
I’m so depressed, I’m at fault for this shit
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin’ dread to our trust and I cry
and I can’t find a source why oh I, hate my life I don’t need an-

spotify

spiders III

prod hira <3

cleaning his blood with my sword
staring my eyes kinda sore
are you trying to look like a whore
put a guard up shes breaking my wall

she kept calling every number on my phone
texting people there that i dont even know
swear she thinks i care but god i really dont
must be boring when my voice is monotone

keep him pressured, i can do this on my own
shooting arson as it melts between the snow
ill burn his house down, pouring petrol on the road
he cant leave hes getting covered in the smoke

just give it up im getting out of your life
i dont really give a fuck if no ones bothering mine
u said its okay
better dead then alive
said its not my fault
ur heart beats closer to mine
i dont know how to look at you
fighting for my life so baby please just drop the attitude
looking in the mirror
i dont know whats gotten into you
throw myself in water with some concreted tied onto my shoes
i mean nothing else to you

okay,.
die
ok
alone?

travelling at 60 going home
the bottom of the bridge is looking warm
promise me that you wont tell a soul
i gave up everything so you could have it all

she kept calling every number on my phone
texting people there that i dont even know
swear she thinks i care but god i really dont
must be boring when my voice is monotone

keep him pressured, i can do this on my own
shooting arson as it melts between the snow
ill burn his house down, pouring petrol on the road
he cant leave hes getting covered in the smoke

arson

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

how could i be worse then i was before
i keep writting songs
and you all want more
every word i say is just getting ignored
but youre wanting more
but youre wanting more

i dont know how i can keep going like this
ive got nothing left ive got nothing to give
can anyone hear me 
are you listening 
does no one relate to the words that i sing

i feel like no ones even trying to help me
not helping

cut my hair dow
worked on myself
why do i still feel like no one

savour my loss
hope youre drowning 
you wont let me out of this hell

cut my arms down to the flesh
ive been alone for
so many years

all these people
want my best
but i cant seem to deliver it

drag me to the top of the bridge
tell me to jump
i wont even hesitate, overthink 
i want it to stop
cause baby youre all that i have
all that ive got
and im dealing with it so bad
im fucking it up
im not unique 
im so replaceable 
and for the last few weeks 
ive been unbearable
i better sort my shit
before you break it off
and though i try so bad
im never safe at all

i could tell you like everything ive been through
cut down my arm to tissue
wont eat i dont deserve it
cant sleep my blood runs surface

wont leave, you dont deserve this
why cant my love be worth it
im worthless 
ur perfect

perfect

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

lyrics:

intro: ohmace
how far would you go 
to tell me i don’t know 
well drive along the road 

chorus: ohmace
tell me to my face how you feel
thought we were in love it wasn’t real
everytime i fall in love
i feel like i was never enough 
stop calling i know what you want 
stop telling me that i was the one
stop lying you’re not in love 
just tell me that i wasn’t enough 

verse: murph
just tell me that i wasn’t enough
cuz i know what you think
when you look at me that way
yeah it’s so clear to see 
what you really think of me
so go and speak your mind
i ain’t got no time

and you keep on wasting it
stepping out of bounds
baby tell me what you make of it
started with a white lie, 
and that was just a taste of it
now you’re a pro when it comes to faking shit
so i did it on my own 
got my ass off my phone
and i made myself something big 
huh, now you’re saying you’re alone 
and there ain’t no one home 
and you need someone to have fun with

please tell me are you kidding?
cause it feels like everytime i speak 
that you don’t even listen
yeah, i feel like everytime i leave 
you call on him to hit it 
i’ll say it once ill say it again 
i’m only stickin to business, ugh..


chorus: ohmace x murph
tell me to my face how you feel
thought we were in love it wasn’t real
everytime i fall in love
i feel like i was never enough 
stop calling i know what you want 
stop telling me that i was the one
stop lying you’re not in love 
just tell me that i wasn’t enough

never enough w/ b murph [tnvr]

@lilskeleskrrt

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i haven’t been waking up fast enough
i’m too naive for something like real love
i don’t even really know who you truly are
at least it feels like that from afar

so tell me everything that you've been hiding
a faceless volunteer that left me writhing
i’ll be in my room so please don’t mind me
the worst part of it all is the deciding

whether or not you’ll even
be here tomorrow
you've given me blades
but i guess they were all borrowed
the lies that you’ve spun
you hid your last smoking gun
don’t wanna know how it starts
just know you fractured the hearth

wait
for a second
i need to catch my breath
take a step and
realign myself
with my intentions
i forgot how to think
yeah it’s impressive
the way i read your mind
no obsession
i just had a hunch
it was expected
no matter what you do
i’ll still accept it
you’re still half of my genes
i can’t resent it

baseline elevated high, i
wrote this to remind my
ego to abide by
the rules behind my eyes, i
fell into a state of shock
amassing so much writer’s block
i thought my hands had time to thaw
now i focus on every flaw

would you hate to be so weak?
would it tear you up limb to limb?
has it ever occurred to you that i'm
lost at the beginning, no?

[skele]

hold on to you
so tight it hurts
i can’t let go
i can’t make you worse
this isn’t what i asked for
give me a sign
that you would’ve kept my
heart sore
leave me to die
gave you a little
don’t have more
i’m out of time
i can’t move on for
a reason tonight
it comes from the hearth
i wish you could see the sparks
i made for us

[zoltar]

i been waking up at 4 a.m.
white lies got me stressed again
internalize all of my anger then release it
through a pen
i’m so sick of second chances
you heal with a small bandage
how could you jeopardize a life,
a wife, a holy marriage?

and i won’t ever make the same mistakes as you did
i know you’re in my blood but i’m a different human
plus i can air out all my grievances through music
i lost the man that i revered through shit excuses

i cannot handle the things are given to me
i thought i was strong but i’m so fucking weak
feel safer in sadness, i hide my exterior
peace is so boring but i feel inferior
i’ll be returning whenever you’re hurting
cause you’re still a part of my family tree
suffer through poems, i gotta get goin'
just don’t forget to leave the light on for me

hearth (ft. skele)

self prod
guitar by hiraeth
<3


in ur own ways
tell me where u stand
no. its not 2 faced
dont understand
is all that you take
left the way u found it? 
now this i cant shake
not this, i doubt it

Maybe on a different day
You’d have been nice to me
Maybe in some different ways
U formed apologies
If the weather was a different type 
Would u still be with me?
Cloudy, with seafret in sight 
Does that mean anything?
its the way that you are
i thought you loved that i hated myself, not to mention
my critiques are poor
theres nothing left in this hollow, ashen and hes tarnished
to
no ones support
i probably could do more
baby watch me fumble, every chance i get in love
im
cutting down my line
is that what you planned for my life ?
its clearly out of spite, youve done it 3 or 4 more times

shake w/ hiraeth

// verse 1 
watch as you’re breaking their hearts 
can’t touch without leaving a scar oh no 
know what you do after dark 
leave everyone torn into parts oh 

oh babe  
walk to the bed 
lays me right down 
and gives me the best head 
oh babe 
got my sheets all red 
say that it’s not love 
till we’re bleeding out  

// chorus 
fuck like we fight 
and you kiss then you start to go down 
talk with your tongue 
oh talk to me 
hands on your thighs 
and you move like you can’t slow down 
fuck till you’re numb 

hands round your neck 
rolling your eyes  
like i’m the best you’ve had 
and i know tomorrow 
that you’ll turn your back  

fuck like we fight 
and you kiss then you start to go down 
talk with your tongue 
oh talk to me 

// verse 2 
watch as you’re stealing their spark 
just to feed your ego, oh darling don’t
and leave them all covered in marks 
let everyone know what is yours oh 

oh babe  
walk to the bed 
lays me right down 
and gives me the best head 
oh babe 
wanting me dead 
choking me out 
but she knows i like it 

// bridge 
watch as you rip out their hearts
it’s no secret
i see you inching for their soul 
oh baby when it all gets dark
i hope you know that your name’s not the one i’d call anymore 

it’s all turned red
the movement 
the bed 
the money 
the power
the cancer
devours 
we’re all dead 
our brain’s full with lead 
so don’t be so shy now
come show us what you came to do

talk with your tongue

Spotify

talk with your tongue [tnvr]

im sorry its quiet messy, it was supposed to be one take throughout i just couldnt do it, im sure you can hear. lyrics can be found on sleeps version.
i miss you sm buddy

anxiety - sleepwater (one take)

rot 
i can’t deal with all of it 
i’m starting to feel nauseous 
would you want to talk? 
but please don’t mind the silence 
my brain just isn’t kind to me 

stay alive 
say a lie
wish that i could speak my mind 
but i’ve got so much to lose 
that i’d rather keep my pride  
say its fine
then we die 
it all feels like wasted time 
say are you wasting my time?

yeah i should stay my distance
promise that’s just how i know to be
i like it much better
when nobody seems to notice me 
stay and listen?
but i've been bored of all the fucking grief
no one seems to comprehend 
yet they have the songs on repeat 

i’m pleading my silence
no reason for violence 
i’m not gonna take this outside 
i’ve been subconsciously cautious 
of inhaling your toxins 
but seems that i let them inside 
there’s no way to find what’s wrong now 
cause i moved on so why the comedown

untitled freestyle [prodsecre x sorrow bringer]

produced by heylog

lyrics:
tread light, proceed with caution
months passed, i missed the pollen
carry weight that slowly turns to rust
and i'm thinking "what could've been done?"
wonder what's in the deep end
jump off, i swim for a reason
this the worst place i could ever go
and i sleep like "what could i have known"
residue
slip if i'm not using chalk
dirty wounds keep burning from the salt
come with me only if you're not opposed
i'm paranoid
is there something i should know

what is there to know (7x)
WHAT IS THERE TO KNOW (2x)

keep thinking i'm being stalked
i'm convinced i'm being watched
if that's true, i hope it's not
can't believe the time is up

shh

you're too late
that was the best i've felt
i'm so sorry i couldn't contain myself
i say things some would probably hate me for
just know i'm not here when you're at the door
i left a note
did you bother to look
someone had to plant their foot
just understand 
if i see another bird
come toward me, i'm pulling up the dirt

i got the remote
i'm now under control
toggle emote
and hit the swish like free throw
i'm not too bright
it's interesting what i know though
i pinched a nerve
but that snake had to go
man down
that's an elim
look bro, you gotta see this
feels like playin reload
the whole damn lobby on my penis
i'm starting to feel bad
you suck at making decisions
cast out, then reel back
maybe there's something i'm missing
i got no time, put it all way past me
i'm out of the loop, couldn't care what is happening
europe flight, got to finish up packing
lord these cathedral faces are dazzling
no time for none of that
it's day here while you're sleepin
i got a flight to catch
PROVIDE THE FOOD AND FEED EM
I CAN'T LET ANYONE STARVE
PISS OFF IF YOU ARE A LARP
NOTHING BUT DIRT TO ME NOW
AND THAT'S COMING FROM THE HEART

dirt

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

talk with your tongue [tnvr]

I'm Geist