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Bleached Serpent

Black Leather

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featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
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lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

Vacuum Boy

Francis

Burn (ft. Astrus*)

Call Me Karizma - Burn (feat. Astrus*)

red vol. 2, 7th july <3

i feel my heart tear string from string again 
and i’m so sorry but i don’t know where the fuck you went 
cause you’re somebody, not the one i met  
i’ll leave the roses by our grave for all the love we had  

no one ever really cares for what i need 
i fall in love with narcissists that have different beliefs 
said that you’d do anything 
but chose to watch me bleed 
and honestly the pain is starting to feel like relief 

no one ever really cares till u can’t breathe 
i’m really fucking fighting i just need my time to grieve 
feeling so damn angry can’t take anymore defeats 
i really miss my friend another ghost amongst the trees 

are you mad love 
tell me i’m the bad one 
your life is but a scam but 
you don’t care what anyone thinks of you 
wish you had think us through 

fuck it’s so pathetic 
miss when you were more poetic 
brag that you’re so copacetic 
but what’s that worth when everyone’s tasted you 
it just not the girl i knew..

i’ll lay here flat on my face 
compare us, i’m a waste 
but at least i’m not fake :/ 
so don’t text that you miss me too 
oh love it’s just not the truth

i fall in love with narcissists [johnnyfriend]

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

@tnvr555 

one, two, three, four 
stay awake
oh love i need you can you stay with me
there’s something about the way you say my name
it keeps my head afloat and thoughts at bay

it’s 4:04
i left my heart out by the door
tainted black but u adored it..
i gave yours back cause it was too pretty
it wasn’t meant for somebody like me :/ 

butterfly kisses
she’ll give me her best wishes
i’ll say i’m sorry love it’s how it goes :( 
butterfly kisses
you know i’ll always miss it
the hazel in your eyes and how it glows :)

don’t say goodbye
just stay the night
i need you here :/ 
it’s you and i
until i die
don’t let it end...
i will try a million times
until it clicks :(
don’t say goodbye
it’s you and i
please promise me :) 

and without you
i’m someone else
if not for love
what is life
cause this feels like hell
you’ll always find your way back
so grab my hand and take me home love...

lost inside of yours eyes
ive wrote this song like a million times
i’d do it all, do it all till die 
over and over if it’s for you & i :D
falling, you catch me and then i fall for your smile :) 
lean in so close and you’ll kiss with eyes
i’d do it all, do it all till die
over and over if it’s you & i

so you’ll smile and i’ll wave
if it’s love
i won’t break
so let’s give it all we have
so love come and please take
swear it’s love
i won’t break
so lets give it all we have <3

butterfly kisses

spotify

butterfly kisses [tnvr]

@tnvr555 

another day
now i’m out the picture for the thousandth time :/
a pretty face
that never fails to captivate with her gold eyes

and its ok love
cause truth be told that i’m doing just fine
i’ll keep acting tough
cause truth be told that i just told a lie...

hey there, darling
you’re so charming 
i don’t want to leave for good
keep on smiling :)
know you’re hurting
say we’re both misunderstood
we’ll get it right or i’ll break
my heart cannot take
a moment without you here!!!
hey there, darling
you’re so charming
i don’t want to leave for good :( 

new face
new lovers
i’m still stuck on the old one i’m sorry now
same flow
wrong color...
but i’m still red till i get this feeling out >:)

i'm still red till it's out 
oh i'm still red right now

and i wont say goodbye
i swear to god that i will get this straight...
and you’re on my mind
like every second of the day :)

hey there, darling

hey there, darling [tnvr]

it'll be okay

the temperamental feeling will pass
and then i’ll go home
i don’t take meds for any pain
i feel it in slow mo
baby don’t you dare say my name
cause i don’t know you
play cautious but i still lose the game

so i tripped
i fell
blood's on the stairwell
i stand where we kissed
and say my farewells
again
it always ends the same

what do you even want from me?
can’t you see I can’t fucking breathe?
there’s a beautiful thing about pain and suffering
it all depends on what you believe

crumbling in my skin
always lose never win
drink from the bottle until i spin and spin and fucking spin
out of control
i can feel it all in my bones
i ain’t never coming home
so just leave me the fuck alone

it always ends the same

it always ends the same w/ revengeinkyoto [tnvr]

@sinxi
// sinxi 
say
what you meant all along
'cos they
won't judge you when you talk
fate
brought me back to where you were
it's late
and i will never know where to start

'cos god it's so hard
and this medicine won't work so now i can't
bring you back from the depths of my heart
and i'm bleeding baby? trust me i know
i know, i know, i know

// i'm geist 
i might as well swallow all my pride
like i always do but u don’t even try
why won’t u even look me in the eyes
i might as well swallow all my pride

feel all of my thoughts slip in the wrong direction
baby if it’s love then you wouldn’t have to question
everybody’s views of me and you
i thought that we would work it out
i thought that you cared too

so dig your nails deep in my skin
wipe the blood say you’re sorry
do it all over again
and i’ll take it for as long as i can

oh
say that you win
take all you want
i don’t have hate to give
but don’t say that you’re wanting me
when you take your time
no intention to follow me
and it’s not fine
if you leave me to die

settle down love you’re nothing but a narcissist
say i’m the worst but you don’t know the half of it
truth is love just isn’t what i'd make of this
settle down love you’re nothing but a narcissist

love isn't what i'd make of this

love isn't what i'd make of this w/ sinxi [sinxi]

@decayinganyways
@milli2nd 

tripped into the lobby
and now i look around and hope
that no one saw me
i lost myself inside the club
with ghouls and zombies
and now they wonder where I’m at
but please don’t call me
no, no please don’t call me

tripped into the lobby
i dont know what's inside my cup
but it makes me happy
oh love you act like you're so tough
when you're around me
and you know that ill call your bluff
so please don't call me
no please don't call me

tripped and said i'm sorry
but truth is i might fuck this up
and i cant stop it
i see the angels sniffing dust
with shinigamis
they hand a knife and said to kill the
ghouls and zombies
oh the ghouls and zombies

and when i wake up
it’s all so unknown
i piece it back, found footage on phones

oh, my head is screeching
i feel a knot inside my chest
the drinks are leaving
i hear my phone i get a text
from those ghouls zombies
they wonder where the fuck I’m at
but please don’t call me 
no, no please don’t call me

oh and the lights they fade out 
don’t wanna leave but slow down 
love that sound it cuts loud 
20 more shots too slow down

ghouls & zombies w/ decayinganyways [milli2nd]

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If God Didnt Want Us To Snort Worms He Wouldn't Have Made Them Cylindrical(Not_Yoki Breakmix)

strings by @vayhn

For so long
I’ve cut my heart open
I’ve Been so heavily devoted
But what does it matter now
What does it matter now

Harboured to nothing
I’m drowning you’re not running
Am I not worth saving
Don’t leave me, I’m wasted
I’m rotten
Don’t taste me
I’m falling
You’re waiting
For somebody better than me
How I wish I could have been

Don’t ask no questions
Won’t get no lies
You’ve ruined all we’ve had
Hope that was right

I draw lines running parallel
They never get to cross 
But they know so well
And ones always on the frontline 
Though they never get to touch 
They protect so well
Keep running
I’m surrounded 
Heart open
All this damage
You noticed
Oh you noticed
In truth I’m losing focus 

Don’t stay awake without me
Stretch marks on my skin and I’m hardly
Impressed by myself and my surroundings 
Lowkey kinda scared that you despise me

Maybe it’s all a facade and you’re just tryna keep round
Breathing under water girl you cannot hold me down
Down
Both my feet tied to the ground 
Ground

parallel

and the words don't seem to make it out
guess i stitched my mouth
feelings won't die
they're too loud
and keep leaking out

but i knew it would all
come to an end
please i must leave now
but don't forget me

and when i rest my head on you
i'm captivated you're so pretty
go on rip my heart in two
anything you want my baby

oh
i hope i see you in my dreams
when i fall asleep

you're so pretty [neverforever]

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cares when I say it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
Aren’t I stupid ? 

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid 

Eyes glued to my screen all night
Fall asleep without my high
You don’t get it and nor do I
I swear I only use it to pass my time
But what time is it now ?
I’m starting to feel better can you slow it down
I’ll stay awake till I go outside
And pretend it’s not ruined my life

Is this all that I am anymore ?
Can I call this a relapse or
Am I just stupid
I’m just stupid
No one cared when I said it as a joke
I look fine but inside I’m froze
I’m so stupid 
I’m so stupid

I’m so deluded it feels like a burden now
Keep throwing money till I say I’m finally out
But I’m not
All that I’ve worked for immediately out my hands
Say I’m fine but it’s nothing that I could grasp
Isn’t that stupid ?

stupid

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ghouls & zombies w/ decayinganyways [milli2nd]

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