When living without purpose starts to kick in, somehow~.

Loose songs which I lowkey get too emotional with

SAD (ep.08)

Dyadya Bogdan

Alone Made Of Ice

with @dylan-kidd-1 and @PearsonGhost (in-store release)

Intro Guitar: https://goo.gl/km7G0M
Ryan Tedder Vocals: https://goo.gl/VimZRP
Five Easy Pieces Monologue (1970): https://goo.gl/Ziervn

download my music: https://bit.ly/bonjrbc
use this track for youtube/film/music: https://bonjr.me/licensing

Dylan Kidd
https://instagram.com/dylankiddmusic
https://twitter.com/dylankiddmusic

Pearson Ghost
https://instagram.com/pearsonghost
https://twitter.com/PearsonGhost

Artwork: still from the music video
Making Of: 
Spotify/Apple: https://goo.gl/U4Pd2M
YouTube: https://bit.ly/3wXVTfb
Stream on Audius: https://bit.ly/bonjrAudius
Stream on Matter: https://bit.ly/bonjrMatter
bonjr's Discord server: https://bit.ly/bnjrdiscord
bonjr's Spotify playlist: https://spoti.fi/2It3GaI

Lyrics:

buy/spotify

someday we'll be together again

None Of The Clocks Work

CIGARETTES

Whxami - Heart Broken (prod. PLURBS)

prod. by / mixed by / hook guitar by / cover by - @fukkyouimmapretty

📝 LYRICS: 
i spend my time in the background, 
whole life in the background,
don’t know how but im tryna blackout...

im lil bit sick now but fuck it i’ll record it cause i got lil bit to say now,
fuck all this sing stuff, im here just to be honest and to show how not to spend life,

im kinda sad now,
i think its cause i really got no friends now,
i got no bands now,
you still wanna ask me why the fuck i’m tryna blackout?

dont tell me you need me if you don’t mean shit
cause i’m addicting to you quicker than a 6.3,
i be hangin on some ice i know i’m misfit
but when i die i hope that someone gonna miss me (x2)

i spend my time in the background, 
whole life in the background,
don’t know how but im tryna blackout...

im lil bit sick now but fuck it i’ll record it cause i got lil bit to say now,
fuck all this sing stuff, im here just to be honest and to show how not to spend life,

whole world stressed out,
i think its cause nobody understands us,
im kinda dead now,
pretty poppin pills just to not thinkin bout past now

dont tell me you need me if you don’t mean shit
cause i’m addicting to you quicker than a 6.3,
i be hangin on some ice i know i’m misfit
but when i die i hope that someone gonna miss me (x2)

я не хочу влюбляться ведь я сдохну очень быстро,
я не хочу, блять, вешать свои траблы на ее плечи,
я не хочу мешать жить и тянуть к себе на низ, но
я хочу остаться в ее памяти навечно

dont tell me you need me if you don’t mean shit
cause i’m addicting to you quicker than a 6.3,
i be hangin on some ice i know i’m misfit
but when i  die i hope that someone gonna miss me (x2)

When I Die I Hope That Someone Gonna Miss Me - Single

When I Die I Hope That Someone Gonna Miss Me :)

love you guys ❤️

i thought i had it all figured out
inside my head
but as it all turns out
things didn't go my way

just give me some time
some time and i'll be fine
just give me some time
some time and i'll be fine

i feel like i am running out of time
i'm losing my mind
lately i've been doing less and less
it scares me though
the thought that i might lose it all

just give me some time
some time and i'll be fine
just give me some time
some time and i'll be fine

spotify

thought i had it all figured out

From an idea of Alex
Written & produced by LÆ

"disorders" lyrics

I need to cease to lie
I tried once or twice
but I keep on grab that knife
I can’t even try to find
a way to get me fine
cause I know I’d miss that knife

Oh oh I lost my soul
and I don’t know
if you have been through
Oh oh I broke my bones
against the wall
and I fell into

It gets too deep
when you make that sound on me
and that’s how it feels
cause you can’t forget something that you already seen

You know we got these scars
reminding who we are
but they won’t get us far

Oh oh I lost my soul
and I don’t know
if you have been through
Oh oh I broke my bones
against the wall
and I fell into

It gets too deep
when you make that sound on me
and that’s how it feels
cause you can’t forget something that you already seen

I’m already passed out
hide in the background
fuck my life and I don’t even know how
I wake up from my bed
kiss me on my head
and tell me that I’m dead
cause I don’t give a fuck
we don’t give a fuck aye
I can feel the pain but I never seen the love aye

It gets too deep
when you make that sound on me
and that’s how it feels
cause you can’t forget something that you already seen

Thanks to Jessica.

Disorders

prod yusei  & me

lyrics:

i had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry, don't die
give it two years it'll only take time
and you're never ever ugly with a smile that bright
no your parents don't listen but i swear they wanna try

know your stressed, and depressed, and your hair is a mess
but you're cute when you lose or you're mad at your friends
and i hate when you'd cry every time that i said
oh i love when you're here, i don't want this to end

can we not talk school for once, it makes me nauseous
everyone in class is either mean or real obnoxious
and i'm sorry that i said it, but i felt so fuckin lost
it's like my life is just a token either spent it or you lost it

here i'm sittin, eye inside the storm issuing
waiting being patient for the rain to ruin
everything i've ever loved or ever touched, 
or ever gave a fuck about, i'm sorry that i hurt you friend i'm sorry that i let you down

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

 had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry

milan w/ suckerpunk & lil hawk boy [prod. jvsper]

runaway (prod. feelo)

looking for a star (feat. rosesleeves)[prod. rosesleeves & yxshi]

Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Wake up pop another pill,
I’m sad but that’s jus the deal now,
And I don’t wanna have to die- don’t kill-
And I can’t ever even tell what’s real now,

Fallen of Athens, all I wanted was your kiss
Pretend it ain’t happen, but I know that you still miss me x2


Like a bird she flys at dawn,
And All I do is sing these songs,
We could fly if I had my wings,
I don’t even wanna live that long,

I told her you’re the girl of my dreams
And I’m not ready to leave-
Cos people need me,
I guess that I’ll just wait on my wings

Girl of my Dreams

lyrics:
cuz i been down bad 
i been lonely 
why does everybody think they know me
all these fucking thoughts and i been thinking that im useless
dressed up in designer and i still feel like im worthless
got lost in the wake 
i feel im deserted 
u left as of late 
i feel i deserve this
caught up in these days 
dont know if its worth it
im stuck in my ways 
wont open the curtains
oh my god its the same
rip me down to the core 
swear to god i wont change 
let the tears hit the floor 

Wat3r:
watching all the things i care about fall by the wayside
said i wouldnt care about this life and i should take mine 
(i should take mine)
you always say it too
but you dont know 
you could never understand 
just go home 
you’re so fuckin selfish and i hope one day you wake up 
vanity and greed that you hide behind all your makeup 
(fuckin worthless)
and its like you never shut up 
ruined everything i loved and its fucked up 


follow @yungxwater <3333

damn that's crazy, anyways i'm sad w/ 💕Wat3r💕 (prod. discent)

Produced by @taxpurposes 

Lyrics: 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Use me for the moments that your life feel like a nightmare 
Been moven fast but I think I'm stoppen right here 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Repeat in the morning alright 
Fill all these cracks in our fault lines 
I don't shake anymore when can't find a meaning 
I believe when you say that you don't plan on leaving 
I wanna see your skin in august 
I bet that you still keep the picture in your locket
I'll let her check me when I'm outa pocket 
You couldn't do a thing to make me ever not want it 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
You know what I'm about when I say let's 
Make this forever 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better

Feel The Same (prod. taxpurposes)

lyrics:

im locked inside my head
unconsciously conscious
wraith walking shadow men
after all we do it for the screen time woah
walking to the plug im on a bee line woah
2am mcdonalds uber eats woah woah
3am i never get my me time woah
she just put my sheets beneath the sea line woah
i just racked my brain removing landmines woahhhh
expect my waves connecting to my family thru the phone
expect the unexpected i might never leave my home
expect that added tension when i step inside my zone
30 30 is 60
perc dissolve in the schweppes
this murky water could fix me
im zippin down my guiseppe
my clothes depress when im sweaty
my scales just rip at the fleece
im exposed the devil i say a prayer for i sleep

36,000 feet underwater in the western pacific (eric godlow)

really how I'm feeling at the moment <3 love y'all

LOSE MY MIND (PROD. FOREIIGN 808)

pmzzz x sewerperson 
On streaming platforms now (link below) 
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/pmzzz/flowers-feat-sewerperson
featuring: sewerperson (@Sewerperson) 
produced by: metlast 
mix and mastered by: dmg
cover art: myling pak

lyrics:

(pmzzz)
 rain showers
 on the flowers
 sunrise in the early hours
 its so beautiful
 i want flowers at my funeral 
even in death, life is beautiful
rain drops on the roof 
of the nighttime 
staring at the stars
 in the night sky 
shooting star , from afar
 i see you shine bright
 you're the lifeline
 of my lifetime

(sewerperson)
 open cracks filled with morning sun
 but ill stay inside till the show tonight
 hidden water beneath the don
 i see air around her thats smokey white 
never knew what attention was
 so were latching on to just anyone
 could you help me with blending in
 she said you could ask about everyone
 focus
 tell me what u need it for 
i lust learned what i had never known before 
yea 
rough shapes in the centre of the universe
 i see symbols through the dust on top my cellar door

(pmzzz) 
i had never known before
 the symbols on my cellar door

rain showers
 on the flowers
 sunrise in the early hours
 its so beautiful
 i want flowers at my funeral
 even in death, life is beautiful
rain drops on the roof 
of the nighttime
 staring at the stars
 in the night sky 
shooting star , from afar
 i see you shine bright 
your the lifeline
 of my lifetime

all platforms here

flowers ft. sewerperson (prod. metlast)

lyrics:

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight
i put on my forces and i walk into the night
pink diamonds in my blunt its like my body flying kites
i see the village from the mountains looking down like what a site
gods ascend from clouds and then were saved or left to die
i guess no one understands me
i fill myself schedule to hide to pain of feeling empty
i got demons on my shoulders sweating buckets tryna tempt me
but they cant get through
in my experience on earth at least ive dealt with more than plenty

it happens every time
it snows
i just wanna get it right
i think i might mold to my home
and im happy with the life
but when im dead
will i know
im excited for the ride
touch my hands and theyre ice cold
im excited for the ride

icy
baby are u human had to tell her that i might be
least when she found out she couldnt tell me i was lying
if i told you everything ud look at me like mind freak
half way cross the universe the fuckers wanna fight me
i just push my pedal down and pull it up
i fold up my landing gear and drop the clutch
baby im from 20 fucking  million miles away 
and you aint even thanking me for showing up

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight

im sober
soon ill be falling over
shawty im five leaf
baby u should do ur homework
all of my bone hurt
im cold
and my throat burns
i know
i know lately i been hard to find
i see you once like every weekend please dont use this time 
to fight

folk song from the settlement on the edge of the earth (eric godlow)

Much love gang thx for listening and sharing my music it always means a lot to me 💖🌟

- lyrics -

Where are you?

Let me take you out tonight
Shawty I can do you right
Dinner, wine and candlelight
Sit by me I will not bite
Unless you want me to
I'll do it all for you
I will give you my heart
With some new Louis shoes
Let me take you to the stars
Come wit me and we'll go far
From now on I'm taking charge
Go pick out any car
Before you ever knew
I set this up for you
It's like COMME DES GARÇONS
My heart bleeds for you

I’ll make diamonds dance on your wrist
I need a chance I want a kiss
You kill me with dat ass and hips 
please don’t let me live like this 
My heart is bleeding
And now I’m speeding
I do not know what to do with all these feelings
I’ll put you up in any crib
Then you can go choose any whip
Then hit the mall cop all the drip 
I love the way your jumper fits
My heart is bleeding
And it's barely beating
Wherever you are I need your healing
Put you in that Chrome Hearts
Just tell me where you are
You could be near, I'll take you far
Oh don’t let me fall apart
I fell asleep and woke up praying that I would find you
I dreamt of poppin tags and goin shoppin beside you
I hope you stop this bleeding cuz I already tried to
Anywhere you wanna go I’m right behind you

Let me take you out tonight
Shawty I can do you right
Dinner, wine and candlelight
Sit by me I will not bite
Unless you want me to
I'll do it all for you
I will give you my heart
With some new Louis shoes
Let me take you to the stars
Come wit me and we'll go far
From now on I'm taking charge
Go pick out any car
Before you ever knew
I set this up for you
It's like COMME DES GARÇONS
My heart bleeds for you

Every time I think of you
I feel like I’m in love with you
But right now I am feelin blue
woke up alone what do I do?
My mind is racing
I’m tired of chasing
These dreams of my princess
Screaming "come save me!"
I built this whole life up for us
Now baby girl I need your trust
And of course that ass now that’s a must
With you Im in love and lust 
My heart is racing
Anxiously pacing
I guess I’ll just call you
Why am I waiting??

Let me take you out tonight
Shawty I can do you right
Dinner, wine and candlelight
Sit by me I will not bite
Unless you want me to
I'll do it all for you
I will give you my heart
With some new Louis shoes
Let me take you to the stars
Come wit me and we'll go far
From now on I'm taking charge
Go pick out any car
Before you ever knew
I set this up for you
It's like COMME DES GARÇONS
My heart bleeds for you

my heart bleeds for you

Spotify 🌟

my heart bleeds for you (prod luciid x jkei)

Thank you for listening

shoutout @deadfishpoland for killing this <3

prod @user-597676997 and @iofmusic
mixed and mastered by @farhantnvr


Available on the following and more!
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4wzCqCFTJqQ4TTSSuEy0TJ?si=OaSoHZzeSPe2TVMFlZtn4A
iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/halfway-down-feat-deadfish-single/1525141680

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Art by calzadadebbie
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LYRICS


// BOJACK HORSEMAN SAMPLE
you see things much more clear than from the ground
it's all okay? it would be, were you not now halfway down
trashed to break from gravity, what now could slow the drop
all i'd give for toes to touch the safety back at top
i changed my mind, i changed my mind, I don't, I-don't wanna...
it's okay...
but this is it, the deed is done.
silence drowns the sound
before i leaped i should have seen the view from halfway down, no
i really should have thought about the view from halfway down
find your peace big guy find it
i wish i could have known about the view from halfway down
is it terrifying?
no i dont think so
it's the way it is yenno
everything must come to an end
the drip finally stops.

// IM GEIST
I feel the wind against my face blow
Told you if I wanted I could let go
And the pain inside my head grows
Then I close my eyes, I'll never see home

// GEIST X DEADFISH
The view
from halfway down
Seems like this time I'll drown
And you
don't make a sound
everytime I'm around


// DEADFISH
I feel the wind against my face blow
my life was so fast, yet the fall is so slow
the water should be cold, yet I'm feeling so warm
i'm feeling the rush, yet I always was numb

i'm falling down just to go up there
when I'll met u there, i won't know what to say
last view, before I close my eyes
last try to feel before my body hits the ground

// GEIST X DEADFISH
The view
from halfway down
Seems like this time I'll drown
And you
don't make a sound
everytime I'm around

Halfway Down w/ Deadfish (Prod. CapsCtrl & IOF)

I'm Geist