She only text’s me in the nighttime
Still drunk can’t read don't feel right
And I swear i could never act right
Still left on read like ghost time 
And i swear that I’m trying 
Two shots to my head now dying
And he acting like she bribed him
No love just sex now crying

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And I smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

I’m easily replaceable
Don’t have another way to go
I’m lost without a reason 
Time to stop my breathing
Heart be running fast within my chest it gets to beating
Found another way to make it out i swear I'm leaving
Pain been pushed aside i lost my friend and now I'm grieving, grieving

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh i lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now I’m dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

gemini (prod. siem spark x gavinhadley x milesjulian)

Congrats JPJP for winning the Lightning remix competition in geistcord 
Hope you all enjoy <3

// geist
ghost inside of my walls they know
every time it comes and goes
light inside of my eyes won’t show
i think it’s gone for good

i tried to tell you,
there’s something wrong with my head
it’s see through,
cant get out of my bed
what’d you do?
to captivate me
every night you’re haunting my dreams

i guess i should’ve tried a bit harder
my heart skips a beat when you talk to me
you couldn’t hold on much longer
feelings get lost at sea

// hook (geist x envy)
tethered inside we’re caught in the silence
tell me would i be dead when the night ends?
i don’t wanna feel left out when you’re smiling
i don’t wanna hear a sound from the lightning

// envy
i struggle to say what i need to
and you say that i would complete you
so many things i would undo
i didnt mean to mislead you
and i cant be true to myself
left you when you needed help
and i swear that i couldnt tell
it feels like im frozen in hell
cause nothing makes sense anymore when youre not around i forget what im living for
and i cant sleep i swear i see you in my dreams

// hook (geist x envy)
tethered inside we’re caught in the silence
tell me would i be dead when the night ends?
i don’t wanna feel left out when you’re smiling
i don’t wanna hear a sound from the lightning

Spotify

Lightning w/ NotEnvy [JPJP]

produced by me ^^ <3

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Lyrics -
i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls
i didn't wanna text you
too long
that i didn't really see you
won't lie yeah, i've changed a lot
spent the summer with myself and all of my thoughts
bring another bottle
i could really use one
but it's something that i never really talk about
never really saw the same
never really felt the pain

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

i just watch u cry
you do it all the time
i'm here cause i like you
it ain't a lie
focus how to breathe
i need u for some venting
look at me i'm worth
more than i really think
knock me down until it hurts
i'm omw to brink
i'm omw to edge
i'm omw to learn
i'm omw to death 
i don't wanna make this turn, no
i don't wanna make this turn
i don't wanna hit the dirt
i don't wanna make it worse

i just don't understand
i left it in your hands
you left my heart tainted, don't know where i am
but i ain't fuckin' healed yet
but you act like you don't see it

you don't deserve the praise
you didn't wanna change
you gave it all up for a little bit of fame
and i just don't wanna feel shit

i just don't really need this, no

late calls (feat. heylog)

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

next episode...

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

i suppose time will wear away the pain of not seeing you again
the memory of you
the loving of you
time won't take that away

it would be easier to die

i cant fathom
the fucking feeling in my chest
i inject the venom
hope it leads me to my death
i’ve lost all passion
this isn’t music i just vent
cause i can’t fathom
i take the blade and then i’ll rest
oh
cause i can’t fathom
how u breathe when i’m not there
cause i can’t have love
if it’s not u it’s nowhere
and at this point it’s not fair now…

i never want to fight love
i’ve made you so tired
if we can just rewind
and not get caught in the moment
i know now that our times up
but love you all the same now
yeah we cannot rewind
but i’ll hold on to the moments

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same
even when the words aren’t spoken

i’ll write you goodbyes
till it feels like i’m not choking
but i can’t find the words
to show what was lost and broken
doesn’t matter now
how much wounds i still reopen
i’ll love you the same

spotify

i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

produced by i'm geist
guitar @prodjpjp 
engineered @tnvr555

i burnt the words off of my tongue in dismay
they scraped my lungs on the way
oh how i love you i’d say

i watched the flowers decompose at my grave
you’d leave a rose everyday
and then regret you didn’t stay
ohh

i don’t want to talk
but i miss you
starting a new slate that’s been past due
you’re holding on to love but it’s gone blue
i’m holding on to love but it’s not you

i don’t to want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s someone waiting for me that i can’t lose
choking on my words swear my tongues glued
i can’t say goodbye but i have too

her eyes as green as dancing trees in the rain
i watched the leaves all decay
there’s nothing more i could say

a perfect story, perfect song that had changed
all because i didn’t stay
and now i can’t be awake

oh
u don’t want to talk
but i miss you
promise that i’ve changed its a new hue
you’re letting go of love say it’s all blue
i’m letting go of love cause it hurts you

i don’t want to go
but my hearts bruised
there’s no one waiting for me and that’s fine too
choking on my words but it’s not new
i can say goodbye
it’s all that i do

oh
write the words in the stone
r.i.p. to our bones
petrify me my love
forgive me
i’m not that tough
my patience
trust
it’s all fucked
i’m sorry love
but hey..you might the one
your voice brings me a new calm
so promise me that you’ll come
and hold me close

stone

There’s something in your eyes or maybe it’s the water
Hold close to me I have to reside
Right here right by ur side
Stay here part of my life

Don’t set me back now 
Leave me all alone
I’ll keep wearing designer so I can hide the mold
Surface to my body
Im not getting cold
U can talk all you want ur music is getting old
They keep wanting more from me
Then you wonder why I feel like I’ve been letting you down
You stayed away from me
No friend would be dragging me around 

Take me to the edge of the world 
As long as I’m with my girl I
Question much but I don’t question your words like
Got a grip around me I keep holding tight
I cant keep up with demand and I can’t sell right
I’ve given everything to you
And I won’t ever stop
If I was bleeding out, I’d know it’s not enough 
Hold my
So hold my hand till we turn to dust
I’m never close enough to you until we both combust 

Heart and soul it’s still not enough 
I’d give you every single limb until I’m truly worthless
You’re perfect 
Say goodnight before you sleep and it’ll hurt less

Take another picture I’ll use my Polaroid 
Rip me from the image you’re playing seek and destroy 
You’ll never capture anything if you keep holding me down 
I keep running I’ll keep running buried under the ground

You were never a friend to me
No regret you would have said it all again
Such a cunt you’re a tragedy 
Never thought you would be so awful yet

polaroid

Sourface

prod. @prod-oc 

// sewerperson 
the trust was removed from you and i 
you and i 
from you i 
still I thought about how u told me its till we die
like you and i
till the afterlife
now I sit alone inside this booth and I bleed
all the words on this page leave me shameful its free
i know
oh i know
you’re still awake just like usual
just like the photos
oh I know 

uh if no one told me different I would get by
if u just shared my feelings we would be more than fine
blood all over the floorboards i cant hide
u should’ve been all mine u didn’t have to die
i will say a prayer and ill go to sleep
if I die tonight lord take my soul to keep
i was way too wavy look at my cup it bleeds
bape pink on top my hoodie with yeezys on my feet 

// geist 
yeah you come to go 
to put on a show 
watch me die alone
when i need you most 
again 
god i hate this game 
the way it ends the same 

be soft 
it’s all so brittle 
squeezed tight..
now blood leaves every pore 
swore that you were my angel 
saved me to ruin me once more 

shut up i’ve got nothing left to say to you 
i shutout every word cause you don’t speak the truth 
crossed my heart and now you’re gonna pay for two 
the sky is ripping open
swear this time we’re doomed 

please don’t look 
i cannot stomach it 
swore it’s you & i 
until my heart stops beating 
bloods all on the floorboards
never meant for this
don’t look me in the face 
cause you’re not my muse darling 

i won’t try there’s nothing to save 
i’ve learnt you’ve got no shame 
and i don’t want to know what’s his name 
i’ll put him in the grave 
i don’t need nobody to say 
who am i to blame 
i call every shot that i take 
you’re all just fucking lame 

yeah spit on my face 
once you’ll clean it with yours baby 
don’t say my name 
and watch the tone you speak to me 
i’m not the same 
person you left groveling 
on my feet again 
kill all who dare looks my way


i can't fathom // goodbye pt. 3

I'm Geist