produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

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i won't forget w/ heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

i don’t want to wake up safe and sound
i’ve got a million ghosts they follow me around
cause it’s safe to say that i hate this town
and everyone that i see they act like fucking clowns  
 
well damn i lost my mind
holding on to something i couldn’t keep alive  
lights in my eyes died
staring at what was never truly mine

it’s black and white for the millionth time
the colors stripped with the lies
i’ll add the red with my bloodshot eyes
i swear i tried but you ruined my mind
the trust was pushed to the side
we couldn’t rebuild the broken ties
 
pretty eyes
how they always hypnotize
i can’t take it anymore
i’m holding on to what’s left of my pride
and i
don’t want to fight
but i can’t seem to get you off my mind

here we go again
i know you’ve had it my friends
i crashed my car through the fence  
you know i’m wanting to feel alive
it’s you and i
till the day that i die
i hope that day is tonight
cause i can’t take anymore
i tried 
i can’t take anymore i tried 

i’m no kid in the limelight
i’m more like a deer in the headlights love
already been hit to the curbside
lost so much blood but i’m alright now
and i don’t care if it feels like
razors in my thighs
soul’s been damned like wow
hope that one day i can make it out and tell you bout the love i found

here we go i take the pain like a man
bite my tongue till i can’t
i do it all just to feel alive
and where’d you go
when i just needed a friend
said you would wait till the end
but you couldn’t even stay the night

i can't seem to get you off my mind [tennis player]

stay awake
stay awake with me
i can’t fall back asleep
stay awake
stay awake with me
insomnia is haunting all week
insomnia

stay awake
stay awake with me
i don’t want to die inside my dreams
lay here all night with me
i need you here to feel at ease

stay awake with me // insomnia [lil biscuit]

dancing i want to go with you
glancing at the world from a better view
romance has turned into sending nudes
ill stay away from falling in love

i'll stay driving in the backroads
always on the way but i never wanna go
so ill stay dancing in the moonlight
underneath the stars with somebody i dont know

dancing i want to go with you
that's a world from a better view
i want to go with you
i want to go with you

i'll stay driving in the backroads
always on the way but i never wanna go
so ill stay dancing in the moonlight
underneath the stars with somebody i dont know

and the night's so cold
i hold you close and i won’t let go
lights off love
and you move so slow
say the times not right
like you always do

make a full twist
clockwise on your tip toes
seal it with a kiss
and a smile
feel my heart fold
whisper in my ear
say you never want to go home
but if you leave before the sunrise
how you gonna talk like that?

i can spend all night here dreaming
wishing this was something real
darling drag me whiles i’m bleeding
don’t you care bout how i feel?

i want to go with u w/ ohmace [tnvr]

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite 

It’s so late 
And it’s so dark out 
Are you home yet ? 
It’s not safe out now
Are you home yet ? 
Can you not let me know?
Did you find somebody else who’s gonna fill my role 

You should lay here beneath me
In a forest, near the wood
And try to imagine 
All the things that we could 
Should

Black tar around my body weight
Dark circles round ur eyes 
U would think that we where made this way
But
It disappeared when u where mine 
No way u could get over this
There’s no way I could survive 
I’ll pretend that I got over it 
But 
my heart is still so full of spite

one listen, before you sleep

prod. @tnvr555 & i'm geist 

let me guess
you'll bury me in the garden

you brought this on yourself klaus
remember that

i never forget betrayal, marcel
remember that

the blood is all over the covers
so wrap up my body and
say that you only meant well
if this isn’t torture enough
let the ocd kill me
cause the thoughts are driving me out

i’ve got a lot left to say
but well i’ll bite my tongue
cause i cannot speak up when you yell
feels like the pains always lasting forever
so i drink my sorrows
and sleep by myself

and i’ve learnt that poison
is hatred
the more that you have
oh the more that you’re killing yourself
and love is no cure
cause you cannot fix somebody
who doesn't want to be fixed for themselves

i’m sorry it’s my way
or the highway
and i don’t know what else
could i say
so i leave the words
left for the stage
cause i don’t know how
how else could i’d stay

when i’m bleeding you dry
and you open up my wounds
pouring your salt telling lies
and i
i don’t feel good tonight
and if i take another shot
i swear i might take my life

cause i’m no good at apologies
but i gave you my honesty
and honestly that’s all i would liked
and if i drop dead on this hill
i bet no one would be surprised

bite my tongue

bite my tongue [tnvr]

it's my birthday, happy valentines
thank you for listening as always 
prod @tnvr555

// verse
bottle up my issues
i can’t be caught saying i miss you
but truth is that i do
cross my heart
cause i hate that i do :/

that’s alright…
drown when i sleep like every night
wake up sigh, back to the grind
i’ve got no time to lose my mind
holding on to the silver lines
life’s too short to rot inside
i would never tell a lie
keep it honest till i die
ok

// chorus
and i don’t want to feel any remorse
come back over, see me baby
hands around my neck, so gently
what’s left but to bury the ghost
don’t say that you miss me baby
it’s not worth the feeling you bring

oh
this isn’t love
it’s far too cold
i thought i knew you
but i don’t
got your hands around my throat
come on love
bury the ghost

// envy
that’s alright
i can’t even step outside
air is poison grab my throat your face on every flashing light
but i don’t mind
cause i never lose sight on losing mine
yeah that’s alright
tell myself a thousand times

because i know it’s not enough
understand you’re running from
before you blame it on my feelings
take the air out of my lungs
and one day
i’ll regret having blood in these veins
but you stay
just to make sure i’m here when you’re sane

bury the ghost

bury the ghost w/ notenvy [tnvr]

I been thinking about all the times I was an asshole 
And I never really tell you that I’m sorry so 
I figured that I’d lay it down you always do the most 
And I never do the most 
I hope you don’t wanna go go 

Fucked up let me breathe for a minute 
That’s some tough luck 
Had enough of me for a minute 
 Cause I’m coming down 
And it can’t be 

Laying here face down on the concrete 

Cause I’m really fucked up let me breathe for a minute 

That’s some tough luck 
Had enough of me for a minute 
 Cause I’m coming down 
And it can’t be 

Laying here face down on the concrete 

Everyday I grow older
Start to think every single day grows colder

Everyday a lil less sober 
Tryna find a way to get the least fucked over 

But nah everything kosher 
Cause ion wanna talk and plus I’m on a low motor 
I’m really sorry what I wrote her 
Ion wanna fight can you please come over 

 fucked up let me breathe for a minute 

That’s some tough luck 
Had enough of me for a minute 
 Cause I’m coming down 
And it can’t be 

Laying here face down on the concrete 

Cause I’m really fucked up let me breathe for a minute 

That’s some tough luck 
Had enough of me for a minute 
 Cause I’m coming down 
And it can’t be 

Laying here face down on the concrete 
(X2)
#indierock #punkrock

GrowsColder

GrowsColder (Prod. xmichaelwarren)

found peace in the fight

prod. tymxru

(can you lend me that my babe?)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
Its not gonna feel the same.
Everytime you.

I'll still probably miss your name.
Even though we played 
the love, hate game.
And your face is so hard to forget.
I don't think anyone could ever replace.
This one is not for myself.
It's for the helpless cries that's lost in this song.
And there some things I'll never forget,
But they'll sit there even though that you're gone.
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.
(Woah)
It's not gonna feel the same. 
Everytime you.

(Huh)
No way to feel you I gotta accept
That you're
gone.

7-4-3-7-4-6-6-3

i want to go with u w/ ohmace [tnvr]

I'm Geist