prod hiraeth and sinxi

getting too far from ur eyes
im leaving
hold me too close
you can see that im bleeding
and if you hate me
why the fuck did you leave him
if i had a chance
i would stop him from breathing

you know its not fair when you send and delete it
it was never my choice
i was always a secret
i know you dont care
got me feeling defeated
i had to run away
leave me tied to the ceiling

i dont wanna stare
running fingers thru ur hair

but you dont deserve me
i dont deserve this

leave me in the ground and i can prove that im worthless

(ooo)

done it 5 times
you promised you wont lie
leave it outside
you tell me you wont try
im nothing in your life
stop looking i get shy
grabbing my hand
so pull me or ill die

struggling to care that id give up all that i have for you
its not like you to worry or have an attitude
and im broken and beaten, do what i have to do
left out in the rubble forgot to save me 2

worthless

@vito2300
@tnvr555

I would cut my lifeline to see you shine
I can’t fill the gap left from you and I
Left home been outside for quite some time
I can’t bare to go back got too much pride
It’s unlike you
It’s unlike you
Everything in motion
Never follow through
You made it feel hopeless
Nothing more to lose
Oh

Set in stone
Everything I’ve known
Had to let it go
Someday when I’ve grown
I’ll be running back to
Moments when I had you

I hate to say I know you’re right
Games we play just wasting time
I vowed to keep you safe inside
But everything just escapes me sometimes

Everything just escapes me sometimes
And I won’t waste my breath on a goodbye

Oh love, I wish that you were right
But you just turn your head and lie
So tell me what is honesty to you?
Cause honestly I only want the truth
Why is that so hard to do?

I’m scared of the limelight
But I’m still chasing the fame to cope
And I’d give you my lifeline
Cause I only need two years at most
And I’m over wasting my time
On people who once left my side
Cause I’ve got too much fucking pride
To stay where I’ve been left behind

I would cut my lifeline to see you shine
I can’t fill the gap left from you and I
Left home been outside for quite some time
I can’t bare to go back got too much pride
It’s unlike you
It’s unlike you
Everything in motion
Never follow through
You made it feel hopeless
Nothing more to lose
Oh

Set in stone
Everything I’ve known
Had to let it go
Someday when I’ve grown
I’ll be running back to
Moments when I had you

I hate to say I know you’re right
Games we play just wasting time
I vowed to keep you safe inside
But everything just escapes me sometimes

Spotify

Lifeline w/ VITO [TNVR]

produced: @yokaidreams 
piano: @diamoonofnhg
engineered: @tnvr555 

// yokai dreams 
i don't rly know u anymore
every other night your out the back door baby it's cold
said u miss the past more lately, i know
i think that's too much to ask for maybe i'm wrong

now this place is just a ghost town
how could home turn to somewhere i can't go now?
said it's fine
if u knew what i know now
would you still come around?
because for me it doesn't really change a thing
now this place is just a ghost town
we're all alone now
get so anxious when it's only you and i
could u just stay a while?
just for a little, i don't want to be alone
for another night

// i'm geist 
it’s a ghost town
baby i know
i built this whole place from the ground up
and called it my home
oh take a breath
you need to calm down
learn to let go
i found more comfort in being alone now
just me and my ghosts

you want to take my soul
but i sold it to hell
for love many years ago
you can’t save my heart
it’s all black
in the pine
but they wouldn’t know

it’s the sentimental taste on my tongue
i bring the noise say i’m the poltergeist
haunting your town
i’m wreaking havoc burning buildings no they cannot get out
and if you knew what i know now would u still come around

spotify

ghost town w/ yokai dreams

@onlyfriendyeah
@tnvr555 

give a second dose
anything not to feel this
you know i’ll go ghost
pack my bags and i’m leaving 
and you will find a note
cause i've learnt i love you most...
but you seem to attract the fucking crowd i can't deal with

but time and time again was it worth it?
tell them love how you’re picture perfect
me? i’m trash washed up on the surface
i’m always the worst :))

now we’re falling again
into the darkest of nights
you can say you want me
but you already left my side...
hate myself less
but it’s really bad tonight :/ 
i can’t keep on fighting
i’ve got too much on my mind!!!

darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :/ 
darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :( 

say i dont need ur validation
but that's a lie
i cant hold a conversation
i'm too tongue tied
couldn't break it off, not to save my life
instead of amputating i let u bleed me dry
fml
hold me up to hang me high
and if the fall dont break my bones youll twist the knife
and pull me close

lover

i will never be happy with u - alt

i will never be happy with u w/ onlyfriend [tnvr]

wait 
it’s been a hard day 
stay 
but it’s too late you’re been gone  
it never sticks for quite too long 
 
oh it’s storming and i’m cold 
cried my eyes out and you saw the damage done  
then still chose to move along 
oh it’s hurting, i’m alone 
the rooms a little darker now you’re gone
but that’s how i belong 

hold my heart 

come on baby tell me do you do it to be spiteful  
i pray that you’re happy and get everything that you want 
i hope you stop listening cause i’m not sure where geist goes
where’d the time go..
got to work on myself 

i try to stay sober but im drinking my own weight now 
losing my composure and deep breaths just do not help love 
always make me feel like i am crazy then i’m not wrong..

such a shame [prodsecre x chrismarek]

id wait a thousand years, for you to be here
how many times in my life did i disappear?
my parents told me we should stay friends
but i cant handle being short of anything that we had

id lose everything
just to feel anything
if i turned to religion, id make sense of it
but its not sensible, im not very valuable
even to myself, no god would raise me as his own

just a little curious, ive got some questions
why does no one treat me like im not a weapon
when all my life ive been getting attacked
id never do that

cause its not that fun
and its certainly not pretty
i dont mind, aslong as youre the one with me
please dont do that to somebody else
i want no other guy to get used to your smell

you know hes not as good so why replace me
he couldnt give a fuck about your safety
while youre out at work, hes sat waiting
entertaining other women

you can go and ask
every message been deleted
fucking psychopath
lie to you til you believe it
hell never post about you anymore
hide you away from several different whores

i wont back down from my word
his face is clung to the curb
let him up for just a minute, cause whats next is worse
let him breathe for the last time
ill let him see all of his bloodline
but who is next, who is next in kin
to try condone anyone like him

Safety

strings by @vayhn

For so long
I’ve cut my heart open
I’ve Been so heavily devoted
But what does it matter now
What does it matter now

Harboured to nothing
I’m drowning you’re not running
Am I not worth saving
Don’t leave me, I’m wasted
I’m rotten
Don’t taste me
I’m falling
You’re waiting
For somebody better than me
How I wish I could have been

Don’t ask no questions
Won’t get no lies
You’ve ruined all we’ve had
Hope that was right

I draw lines running parallel
They never get to cross 
But they know so well
And ones always on the frontline 
Though they never get to touch 
They protect so well
Keep running
I’m surrounded 
Heart open
All this damage
You noticed
Oh you noticed
In truth I’m losing focus 

Don’t stay awake without me
Stretch marks on my skin and I’m hardly
Impressed by myself and my surroundings 
Lowkey kinda scared that you despise me

Maybe it’s all a facade and you’re just tryna keep round
Breathing under water girl you cannot hold me down
Down
Both my feet tied to the ground 
Ground

parallel

@decayinganyways @prod-oc 

// decayinganyways
black light seen the blood
seen it all on display
sometimes get bored and i play with this blade
i won’t ever stay complacent no way
undead fuck it up play it back no delay
and I’ll say i won’t go
got dead eyes seen it in the snow

threw out all the fakes
get 'em outta my way
i burn it down all around
it’s a bloody parade
cross 'em out
hide the rounds that I fired today
their bodies drop and they rot
they can watch

okay so

.308
hit my shot and it hits fast
fuck around i’m shroud in a bloodbath
decay’s T-T-K yeah it’s so fast
E-G-O yeah it’s so high unmatched
saw blade to your skull like what’s that
slicing up cut a limb yeah I’m so rad
and i know that a brain won’t grow back
yeah i kill no live no love laugh

// i'm geist
take it off
turn slowly around
put your hands right up
you know what you’ve done

and it’ll all burn down again
will you smile as u kill all your friends?

locked eyes
got her fingers in herself
but she’s got you wrapped round those same fingers you’re a simp
oh well buddy there’s no shame if you’re living in my shade
but you wouldn’t catch me in my 20s taking breaks

fuck this
i’m not one to feel bad
locked in and it’s straight to a blood bath
dual blades and a gun in my backpack
no scoped
no live no love laugh
talk shit
then you’re back just to kiss ass
but don’t speak to me
you’ve got no class
move swift and i leave you in the past
won’t find an ego here to match

no live, no love, laugh w/ decayinganyways [oc]

prod stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

ft @xav0id

her soundcloud - 
https://on.soundcloud.com/vMttEe6irRmQ5eXX9

lyrics:
stezzyxl -
hold me tight to the bitter end
wrap a rope around my ankles till i’m in ur bed
hmm “hold me close” we’re the words she said
loving u is brutal, when the love is dead

gotta carry on
i don’t wanna love you; gotta move along
gotta walk it off
maybe in another life
in another time
maybe then you’ll change your mind
then you’ll change your mind, but then again you won’t
but then again you 
wont
but then again you 
won’t
but then again you 
won’t
but then again you 
won’t

xav0id w/ stezzyxl -
please don’t leave me again
darling please stay
everyday i pray 
(x2)

stezzyxl -
monsters fill my room
they smell like her perfume
there stuck with me like glue
the image i have of you

stezzyxl w/ xav0id -
ohh
ohh
ohh 
ohh

xav0id -
i 
dont like
to fight
with 
myself
at night
(x2)

move on w/ xav0id

önemli değil(demo)

so where you been gurl lately it's been hard not to notice
lately you been feeling like a walking diagnosis
suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
if you need me here i'mma stay right here
i'mma keep you here so safe from the other side
and i'mma hit you with the truth i'm sick of all the blues
but i ain't walking out on you; i'm scared of finding you suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
don't you dare
but i ain't got the capability
physically or forcefully to change your mind
draw a line, stay this side, promise me
you'll call me the moment you feelin low
it's like your soul went cold right now
gotta bring you back somehow
i'm anxious, i'm nauseous
i'm pale as death's horse is
i wanna carry on but i'm just exhausted
don't wanna have to leave but the sleep is creepin over me
i have to trust you'll get better
won't you stay with the living?
won't you stay with me

i will never be happy with u w/ onlyfriend [tnvr]

I'm Geist