prod deadfish 
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featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:

(I've kept on fucking up
and that's why
I can't keep it up
But now
I'm left here with no one
I gotta manage here on my own)

it's been so cold now
that I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
these thought in my mind forever

No, I don't wanna hang out now
cause, too busy hating on myself
Just digging my grave deeper
til I meet the reaper
death to me is peace

I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
damn, it causes my mind to break
can you say that you relate?

So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

[heylog]
you don't know
how much u mean to me
i stumble up on my feet
text u and never sleep
i'm happy, this can't be me
cut
me
off
write a song about us
oh numb
i'm hoping ur gone
u caught me a break
recover from loss
but still feel the same

[deadfish]
So I've been
tryna find
anything that could help me
and therapy
isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own
I'm on the edge

I'm so scared
nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
well, that's how
my day goes

on my own

on my own (feat. heylog)

<3
released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

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lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

prod hira :)

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

i heard u talking shit
so baby come a lil closer
tell it to my face so i can use it for some closure
god shes so embarrassing 
pretend i didnt know her
stabbing thru my chest 
i cant believe she said it wont hurt

that boy gonna piss from his eyes
u told me there's comfort inside
but ur presences still hunting me down
even my shit wanna drown

gimme some time 
i just need some patience
bodys on the floor 
i make em seem weightless
if he wanna die 
then we can arrange it
wasting all my time gambling my wages

gimme some space
i just need a minute
i left my soul on a bridge hoping that youd save it
you told me jump
so i did
and i hit the pavement
ive got nothing to give 
i dont think youre safe yet

in the end its only u and i
dont shed tears on a pillow if it isnt mine
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
u say theres something about me 
u dont have to lie
turning to nothing 
ur watching me die
fuck face he a parrasite
ill stab that bitch in the neck if he wanna fight
these cuts fill the space in-between ur eyes
turning to nothing
ur watching me die

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

prod @tnvr555 

you wake up in the middle of the night
and push my hair out of my face
hear you smiling
turn to your side and i’ll hold you
wake up in the morning
and i’m right where i’m supposed to be
homes complete
it’s you and me
feel at ease
promise you’ll never leave

so say that we worked it out
that it’s all good now
cause i need you here with me
and you know i love you
how i can’t sleep i’m bound
to see you in every dream

take me back now
to the summer where we met
where i was starving for your love
writing songs about our death
and the feelings never die
trust me that i tried my best
but the feelings never die
feels like my heart is in your chest
oh

we got lost a few times
u skipped states
i wrote rhymes
i still hurt every night
i can’t stare in your eyes

i see u in every dream

spotify

i see u in every dream [tnvr]

@onlyfriendyeah
@tnvr555 

give a second dose
anything not to feel this
you know i’ll go ghost
pack my bags and i’m leaving 
and you will find a note
cause i've learnt i love you most...
but you seem to attract the fucking crowd i can't deal with

but time and time again was it worth it?
tell them love how you’re picture perfect
me? i’m trash washed up on the surface
i’m always the worst :))

now we’re falling again
into the darkest of nights
you can say you want me
but you already left my side...
hate myself less
but it’s really bad tonight :/ 
i can’t keep on fighting
i’ve got too much on my mind!!!

darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :/ 
darling i will never be happy with you,
fuck i miss you,
damn i hate you :( 

say i dont need ur validation
but that's a lie
i cant hold a conversation
i'm too tongue tied
couldn't break it off, not to save my life
instead of amputating i let u bleed me dry
fml
hold me up to hang me high
and if the fall dont break my bones youll twist the knife
and pull me close

lover

i will never be happy with u - alt

i will never be happy with u w/ onlyfriend [tnvr]

prod. @tnvr555 & i'm geist 

let me guess
you'll bury me in the garden

you brought this on yourself klaus
remember that

i never forget betrayal, marcel
remember that

the blood is all over the covers
so wrap up my body and
say that you only meant well
if this isn’t torture enough
let the ocd kill me
cause the thoughts are driving me out

i’ve got a lot left to say
but well i’ll bite my tongue
cause i cannot speak up when you yell
feels like the pains always lasting forever
so i drink my sorrows
and sleep by myself

and i’ve learnt that poison
is hatred
the more that you have
oh the more that you’re killing yourself
and love is no cure
cause you cannot fix somebody
who doesn't want to be fixed for themselves

i’m sorry it’s my way
or the highway
and i don’t know what else
could i say
so i leave the words
left for the stage
cause i don’t know how
how else could i’d stay

when i’m bleeding you dry
and you open up my wounds
pouring your salt telling lies
and i
i don’t feel good tonight
and if i take another shot
i swear i might take my life

cause i’m no good at apologies
but i gave you my honesty
and honestly that’s all i would liked
and if i drop dead on this hill
i bet no one would be surprised

bite my tongue

bite my tongue [tnvr]


World lookin’ toxic green at night,
three days up and my pulse still bites.
Every stare cut sharp like a steel-blade line,
and crank in my veins keeps twistin’ my mind.
Shadows whisper when the walls get thin,
something crawls deep under my skin.
Somebody’s drawing out where I’ll end —
whole damn town tryna drag me again.


Tell me how they say it’s fine,
when I’m stuck below that bottom line.
Bones for wages, nights for pain,
hunger burnin’ through my veins again.
If fear would fade and leave my mind,
maybe someday I’d sleep just fine.


“Peace on Earth?” man spare that line,
barely breathin’, hollowed dry inside.
Job crush bone for a check that dies,
dust on my plate and dust on my life.
So I chase that crank to stay upright,
heart still racin’ through the dead-end night.
Hours blur and my vision shakes,
trade my breath for whatever it takes.


Tell me how the world is fair,
when I’m broke and drownin’ in thin air.
Dreams fall flat ‘fore they land anywhere,
time slip fast and it don’t play fair.
If fear let go for one more prayer,
maybe I’d stop pacin’ there.


To kill that hunger I slip to dope,
time slows down like a breakin’ rope.
Heartbeats drag on a fog-lined slope,
seconds melt and forget their hope.
Cravings fade into dust and smoke,
world moves slow like somethin’ broke.


Even if dope turns bones to sand,
pulls my thoughts from my own damn hands,
nothin’ matters, nothin’ stands —
world drifts off into a grey-wash land.
Voices fade like motel rain,
names and faces blur the same.
If it’s peace or rot or pain,
I can’t tell — I’m numb again.


TWISTED

When You're Away

“Build the Sky” is an anthem forged from wreckage — a declaration that if the world won’t give you a place to stand, you build one yourself. This track rises from the bones of everything meant to break us. Every scar becomes scaffolding. Every failure becomes a brick. Every betrayal becomes another rung in the climb out of the valley.

This song is about the kind of resilience that isn’t polite or pretty — the kind you earn when you’ve been buried deep enough to taste the dirt. It’s about taking the weight of your past and stacking it higher than the people who put it there. It’s about building a tower so tall that when you finally stand at the edge, there’s no going back… only wings.

Silk & Circuitry channels raw survival into a cinematic, defiant, alt-trap sound. Driving drums, atmospheric pads, distorted synths, and orchestral swells collide beneath a vocal performance shaped by grit and rebirth. The chorus turns into a rallying cry:
“Stack the hurt, brick after brick, ’til hurt becomes the sky.”

This track is for anyone who’s climbed out of a place they were never meant to escape. For anyone who turned trauma into architecture. For anyone who jumped — not because they wanted to fall, but because they finally deserved to fly.

Welcome to the tower.
Welcome to the skyline we built ourselves.
This is the sound of wings breaking through bone and becoming something holy.



i will never be happy with u w/ onlyfriend [tnvr]

I'm Geist