Glass Heart

guitar by @pekarot_161
this is for the OG listeners, I love you all from the bottom of my heart. 

lyrics:

i don’t know where i came from
only where i’ve been 
i could scratch out my eyes
when i’m feeling like this 
i can’t breathe since you left
i got cuts on my fist 
and they hurt (they hurt)
they hurt (they hurt) 

and i know that i’m sad but still smile when we kiss
i got scars on my arm from those nights i gave in 
and then you said forever but now you’re with him
and it burns (it burns)
it burns (it burns) 

but those scars on my arm 
they tell you a story
since 14 years old
they’ve been coming for me
i’m not what you want
so just throw me aside
and i’m old enough now
so i’ll wipe my eyes

and i’m praying to god
that i’ll just get better
i’ll hide in my car 
and sleep on the leather
i love you to death 
from now to december
this ones for the grayfox fans 
love you forever 

and now i’ve learned 
i’ll never be first 
but at least i’ve turned
my life around,
look at me now 
x2

look at me now
look at me now
look at me now
not 100% but i’m still here 
so look at me now 
x4

lookatmenow (pekarot)

nevermadeithome:

I don't even know what's happening 
your words come down like avalanche 
and I swear your tears hurt me more than you know 
and I'll be on my walk again covered in snow

I'm just a fuck up
for some reason you still find love in me
i guess its tough love
because I'm trying to figure out what you see in me 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

I'm still waiting 
waiting waiting waiting 

areuhappy w me? cuz i kinda hate myself 
I cant communicate the right way, what I'm tryna say 
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm tryna say yeah
what I'm what I'm tryna say


sendflowrs:

can’t you hear what I'm tryna say
i buy a gem i fell in love with the finer things
and you won’t ever see my face at the pearly gates
love, it’s a funny thing
so I'm smokin on that gas till it go away 

like can you go away, no
I cannot hear a thing, woah
all this noise my darlin 
I don’t think ur listening, no
that song it curses me 
and I can hear you whistling, woah
swear that she’s a god at this
but I won’t ever say a thing, no

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are you, happy? w/ sendflowrs (irby & jolst)

produced by hiraeth


just say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony dont change
say that you love me its too late
cant even look at my face
how could you do that to somebody who loves you ?
go and lie and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna go i dont wanna leave you
you know i wanna, know i wanna believe you

just say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony dont change
say that you love me its too late
cant even look at my face
how could you do that to somebody who loves you ?
go and lie and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna go i dont wanna leave you
you know i wanna, know i wanna believe you

you left me in a pool i swim with agony
crying at the bottom what is happening?
you tell me be more open never let me in
im drowning in my sorrows guess ill die again

just say that you hate me i wont break
sitting in agony dont change
say that you love me its too late
cant even look at my face
how could you do that to somebody who loves you ?
go and lie and say you dont even mean to
i didnt wanna go i dont wanna leave you
you know i wanna, know i wanna believe you

anor

amv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LT7FyConbo
thank you all for the amazing support just in general.
love you all. take care
featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

Lyrics, Credits and Description Below.

>> producer - @metlast <<

+ vocals - @nevermadeithome - master +

Lyrics:

+ nevermadeithome: +

what would it mean 
to you 
if we fell out and broke up 
and would u be 
confused 
totally upset and feel used 
and would u be 
in a mood 
would u come back 
in second or two
would u want to redo 
or move on and pretend we dont know eachtoher 

ima light a match for u 
and hope that light burns long 
and if goes out right away 
then i know that u r thinking of me 
u haunt me in my dreams
so i guess that makes it a nightmare 
i wake up sweating in the night 
turn my lamp on and ur right there

Description:

I tried creating a really sad break up song and this is the finishing product <3.

whatwoulditmean [metlast]

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

prod by justdan

completely nonprofit

lyrics

walk with me 
talk with me
stay a little longer
wont u come inside?
walk with me
talk with me
ur mind begins to falter 
wont u stay the night?

surely it's safer 
inside waiting patient
for the sun to rise
these woods will get cold
frost bites at all ur toes
u should roll the dice
lets go

ignore what they told u
there's some who will guard u
u should come inside
we're getting frustrated
just break concentration
u should come inside
i promise it's safer
ur dreams i will take them
for once u'll sleep the night
and all of the feelings
that u seek escaping
I'll void them from ur life

so walk with me
talk with me
stay a little longer
walk with me
talk with me
ur mind begins to falter
wont u stay the night
surely it's safer
inside waiting patient
for the sun to rise
the woods will get cold
frost bites at all ur toes 
u should roll the dice

promise or guests never once leave complaining
im really quite alright
lets fix u some food
bits of meat diced and cubed
and get u a bed for the night
u won't feel a thing
as u drift off to sleep
don't mind the soup or its eyes

don't trust the soup (justdan)

birds cry ill try
to capture the feeling of falling to you tonight
get up move sides
my heart it wants it you but i cant (die)
by the way i see 
little change in me (woah)
you hurt me (woah)
lets count to three go
oh babe i love you
look at that dove it flew
oh babe i love you
i never knew how much it would be
to lose all that
i pray your still looking for me with that hunch back
did you know how introverted i would be
you only find me standing by a oak tree 
body's got a fleeting feeling when you leave
dirt between my hands reminds me
the soil think it might be might be
be careful 
she might eat you
oh be careful 
she might flee through
so have your guard up
somewhere to retreat too
by the way i see 
little change in me (woah)
you hurt me (woah)
lets count to three go
oh babe i love you

bridge

https://fanlink.to/lfadb
guitar by @kill_vein

i’m just trying to find
a reason to care
i once believed in a god till i cried out to him
and nobody was there

a burden on my brain
that isnt going away
and now i’m looking for reasons
that i shouldn’t need this
but i can’t turn away

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the memory remains

and as i took my last line
i was approaching the light
you laid your head next to mine
what a beautiful sight

i made up my mind
i’m friending i’m fried
i don’t need these drugs
i just need your love

ive got no reason to hide
tell momma i’m fine
it’ll be ok down the line
but i’m tired of trying

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t relapse
but now i’m standing
on my deathbed
and i don’t want to stay
when i've always been this way

i know i said the last time
that i wouldn’t go back
but now it’s been 3 nights
at the hotel we met at
and you’re not here with me
but the  memory remains

letterfromadeathbed (prod. heffy & killvein)

guitar by @imcaves
rest is me
something told me i should put this out now, so here you go
hope you enjoy .
retention 8/26

totally unprepared
faces shapeshifting around me
i tell myself, don't be scared
only what i think can hurt me
but every night's harder than the last
(the last)
(the last)
(the last)
i let my spirit shatter just like glass
(like glass)
(like glass)
i stood up again last night
i couldn't close my eyes
no matter how much i cried
i tried
i tried...
night.

spirit trash

@tnvr555

i cant stand the pain
but its alright
missing how your eyes
would just light mine
i don’t want to cry
but its alright
every time we tried
watched it all die

now you’re gone for good
and i’m not fine
wishing i could save
but there's no time
only took a month
now you're not mine
only took a month
i guess time flies...

and i'm so replaceable
why am i here at all???
pains unbearable
oh say i’m terrible
and i love you i hope you know :/
so if you’re happy guess i’ll go

guess i'll go home
guess i'll go, i'll go

I CANT STAND THE PAIN
BUT ITS ALRIGHT
MISSING HOW YOUR EYES
WOULD JUST LIGHT MINE
I DONT WANT TO CRY
BUT ITS ALRIGHT
EVERYTIME WE TRIED
WATCHED IT ALL DIE.

NOW YOU'RE GONE FOR GOOD
AND I'M NOT FINE
WISHING I COULD SAVE
BUT THERE'S NO TIME
ONLY TOOK A MONTH
NOW YOU'RE NOT MINE
ONLY TOOK A MONTH
I GUESS TIME FLIES
yeah...

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imysm [tnvr]

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

Is this what you really want?
'Cause I think you've been lying to yourself
You just keep on leading me on
I know that you're seeing someone else
I could be there for you
If you wanted me to
I said, I could be there for you
But you don't want me to
And you lie, and you lie and I could see it in your-
You lie, and you lie and I could see it in your eyes
Yeah, I know that you're picking sides
I guess it's just left for you to decide

(I guess it's just left for you to decide)
(I guess it's just left for you to de-)
First song of 2024. enjoy! 
w/ @xodazed

Lyrics:
I guess it's just left for you to decide
You ain't getting through to me
You're a witch, im gonna burn you alive
I ain't showing no empathy
I know the truth there ain't no need to hide
Is this who you want to be
It's kind of funny that you still think you're right
Such a waste of an entity
(And you lie, and you lie, and you lie)
(And you lie, and I can see it in your eyes)
(Yeah, I know that you're picking sides)
(I guess it's just left for you to decide)

decide (dazed?!)

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

You’re so lovely 
And all that I’ve got
And there’s a part of me that’s missing when you’re gone 
Cause your so beautiful 
It would be hard to let you go
It won’t be my choice
I’ll never let it ..
You might have to guide me
This paths getting dry
Another call from him and I might cry 
You don’t know what it’s like
To get used to this
But this happens all the time, ill get over it

imysm [tnvr]

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