I'd let someone pull the trigger on me uwu

produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

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enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

prod. caps ctrl (https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997)
feat. kais (https://soundcloud.com/ripkais)

october:

dont tell me goodbye (x8)

just go away leave me alone
dont talk to me when youre stoned
no im not okay youre breaking my bones
and no i cant find a home
im lost in a maze i cry and decay
i get into bed and i die everyday
i get into bed and i cry everyday
i dont deserve the money i make
im a loser and im lazy on the highway 180
gonna swerve off cant save me 
all in hd 1080 say go away 
bitch make me idgaf if you hate me
if i were you i wouldnt date me
coz my head a mess it so crazy
its so crazy im broken
life shattered heart frozen
dont really know where im going
but im prolly gonna blow it
now i cant work and i cant eat
takes too long to go sleep
dont really think you ever loved me
gonna leave me gonna dump me
the first time i drank i was with you
havent talked in years now i miss you
i think my whole life an issue hit ctrl z edit undo
baby can you delete me see me in the grave on the tv
life is done now wont see me end of the game its gg

kais:

im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make u smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well
theres three words ill still tell you, even though we dont feel it cus we fell through
i dont even know who u are anymore 
fuck is you talkin bout
you think im fine when you not around 
who do you think I am tryin to change me like baby let go of my hand 
lookin back at all our memories 
tryna find the reason why you cant just let me breathe
girl you got me on my knees
i’ll never replace you
and i wouldnt think of it at all
and im gonna stay true
ill be there when you gonna fall
im really sorry I missed your call
got my back against your wall
i try my hardest give my all
im sorry 
that im not the person you thought that i was im useless because 
i cant make you smile like everyone else
im stuck in my mind I know that you cant tell very well

i dont even know who you are anymore

dont tell me goodbye (feat. kais)

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

So what if I leave you 
Still stuck in my head cause I need you
I hated the sequel I wonder if I didn’t call would I see you
So whyd she go and lie to me
I keep my head down I’m running from what’s inside of me 
And I can love you but honestly my anxiety 
I’m cutting wrists to avoid that there’s nothing of me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

And I can give you everything you ask of me 
It’s not blasphemy 
You don’t have to leave
I’m a tragedy
It’s always one after the other, never after me

So, go
Leave me in the bottom of a hole
Staring down a barrel with my soul at stake
I wanna fade away
I wanna die today
I tried yesterday

So, go
I don’t wanna be here I’m alone
Cut me hold the knife up to my throat
Twist it then you pull it from my bone
Puppet when ur putting on a show

So, Go (prod. jolst)

prod heydium <3

lyrics: 

yeah i struggle a lot with myself
i spend a lot of time stuck in this hell
caught up between realities
i try not to become another victim of mentality
but i tell you what..
this life is slowly killin me

da da da da
this shits too much
da da da da 
like i rlly give af?

how do i make this something real?
i fuck with the aesthetic
i just dont get the appeal...
and its kinda fuckin me up
hardly livin wit the liquor and the drugs
this life has never been enough
i hate myself and it fuckin sucks
yeah its been so long man, stuck in this rut
i could die tomorrow
yeah, nobody give af 

yeah nobody give af...
nobody give af...

NOBODY GIVE AF

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nobody give af [+heydium]

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

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trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

comfort

comfort (feat. Lil Skele)

with @tnvr555 
please check him out :) he's a great friend of mine that mixes and works on almost all of my songs, insanely talented

// tnvr 
snowfall sweetness, baby you could feel it 
summertime sadnesss, don't need no reason 
waste my time, if it makes you feel so alive 
heads in a panic, man i'm independent 
wait just wait, hold up wait a minute (why?)
not ready for the real world (oh, ok)
it's what you never say 
the facade you think you play
be careful what you wish for cus karma gets you back 

sometimes, you're on my mind
and when you're on my mind, i wanna die 
yeah
sometimes, you're on my mind
and when you're on my mind, i wanna die 

throw your holy water at me 
got some ghosts around the block that wanna see me bleed
i'm not, not who i thought i would be 
but at least i'm not you 
na na na na na 
na na na na na 

// geist 
at least i’m not you 
pulled up on the track and now your tongues glued 
throw holy water at me 
can’t burn my devils you’ll see
now it’s all blue 
scared to leave my house cause well you’re all ghouls 
come on, oh baby let’s bleed 
just pull the trigger on me 

liar, you’re a sinner  
so tired my eyes are hindered 
but i’ll still see you in my dreams
and i’m a fire in the center
burnt out i can’t remember my name 
oh woahhhh oh oh…

// tnvr & geist 
(i can’t go another night without sleeping)

snowfall sweetness, baby you could feel it 
summertime sadnesss, don't need no reason 
waste my time, if it makes you feel so alive 
heads in a panic, man i'm independent 
wait just wait, hold up wait a minute (why?)
not ready for the real world (oh, ok)
it's what you never say 
the facade you think you play 
be careful what you wish for cus karma gets you back 

karma gets you back
karma gets you back

panic w/ tnvr [prod. tnvr]

Prod by @Sorrowbringer
Mix/Master @Tnvr555

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// Lyrics ( Will Update Soon)

Was It All My Fault Ft. Days To Waste (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
this song is entirely non profit on Spotify and soundcloud 

thank you

im trying everything possible.

this isn't really the most me kind of song
just a lot of gibberish thrown together but i did want to share at least something as it's been a hot minute
i hope i'm back to usual soon <3

Lyrics:

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

could you tell me that you love me
even if you'll never mean it i need something
i been needing reassurance that i'm something
this shit is fuel for giving up please
so could you tell me that you love me
it's fucking lonely in this body so i share it with her lusting
oh could you fuck me

could you fuck me right back
i won't get attached
just need to make it thru the night without a rollie or a pack
at least the music has my back
yuh
cuz i know people never last
yuh
i made this shit so in a week i'll have a song to cry to
i made this shit so in a year i'll be at peace and i won't mind you
she said that she'd be right there nothings ever right there
i'd honestly be dead if i found another life there

so let me know if you relate
or i'm alone to fight my fate
i tend to fall in love too quickly
have the habit getting clingy
have a habit sort of sticking
it's probably something that i'm missing
from my childhood or misery
and now i can't remember much
but i know i never really wanted this
and the things i'd give to run back life again
now i fantasize bout the corny lovey shit
but it's probably better you're never hearing this

yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this
yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

panic w/ tnvr [prod. tnvr]

I'm Geist

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