dont expect anything better than this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShEa0k_n5l4 breakdown

how to make a recovery

a song about the things i wish i could have done

produced, mixed, mastered by phixel
verse by saoirse dream
backing vocals by jackalsclaw

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[NOTE: english translations will appear in brackets next to catalan lyrics. im still learning the language so im really really sorry for my bad pronunciation and grammar]

(phixel)
em fa mal  [it hurts]
tan malament  [so badly]
com puc escoltar  [how do i hear]
digue'm per què  [tell me why]

no et puc veure  [i cant see you]
a través de l'aire negre  [through this smog]
caurà neu ardent  [fiery snow will fall]
t'enterraré, a la cendra  [i will bury you, in ashes]

et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

(saoirse dream)
I still fall asleep in your clothes
Try to struggle out of your rope
Buy into release I’ve imagined
Cling tight to the arms of your ghost
I light matches that I can’t put out
So I burn down bushes outside of your house
And you just watch me
You laugh
Like “what the fuck is wrong with cat?”
You know that I can’t answer that

(phixel)
et llegiré la ment com un llibre  [i will read your mind like a notebook]
però no ho vull escoltar  [though i dont want to hear it]
encara no ho sé, per què estimes  [i still dont know why you love me]
em desgastaré, afectat  [i will wither away, afflicted]

a la cendra, a la cendra, a la cendra  [in ashes, in ashes, in ashes]

[jackalsclaw:]
(i went, i cast you in the fire, i watched you burn, i didnt cry)
(ill tell you everything alright, to get your memory out my mind)

notebook

ALL PLATFORMS!!!

notebook w/ saoirse dream

i'm dead

Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1pjsNRqOyIkHrm2N6FRBp1?si=QCSxcGXHR-K4M_mBxsIo1w
https://genius.com/Elxnce-18-lyrics
circa — June 2023

Stream

Visualizer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2RxcoAHZNv4&ab_channel=erdo

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WIP Digital Mix (Visualizer)

prod by me
mixed by me

decided to cover one of my recent favorite songs. i hope u enjoy :)

also jane if u see this PLEASE let me know what u think! also thank u for writing this masterpiece of a song

thank u for listening and reading this lil description

@janeremover

cage girl - jane remover (cover)

prod. me 

lyrics:
do you even recall my name - my name
do you even feel the breath of air you speak
was it really worth all the pain - the pain
did you ever know me? break my brain
hold my hand
but all i can see is the shadow beside you and
it calls for me
we can't go back yet you still stand at the edge of the world
parlay with your life until
the light behind us starts to fall
eventide holds on to you
it won't let go until we're done here
bequeath all you own
it won't stay your home
hold close to let go
become echoes
the world you once had
watch it fade to black
you're still all I have but I can't grab you
recollect my thoughts from all your shattered words
splinter in my brain all I say just hurts
take a picture before you forget it all
it takes pain to heal again

gash upon my skin
let the shadows inside
of where i live where I still feel safe
hole in my feelings
can you feel it there?
it's all your fault now
I can't feel can you
it still hurts me too
does it hurt you
do you love me do you feel pain 

was I nothing

you told me to not forget
I'll stand watch as the world ends
everything you said was wrong
but you knew that all along
"you love me, do you trust me?"
do you love do you trust do you feel me here
everyone just hurts sometimes but
I think pain can still break a heart
scales sway as you play with my love
feel it's beat go out and in and
do you even care anymore
cause you have no place in this world
did you
did you 
did you feel did you

the world ends with you

6 of 9
~
the train, I made it just for you
one year later, I still don't think that I can do it

turn the light out in the hall
it's been 3 weeks but I'm not sure if I can catch my breath
I think that it's been long enough
only waiting for the woods to stab me in the chest
but how do I walk thru the world without shame
but how do I walk thru the world without shame

I think I hate you
you don't expect me to let go of you
you wanted too much
guess I never wanted anything from you

if you really loved me, you'd want me dead
you wouldn't miss me, you thought I said
I love you too much to do all that
but I'm not the person you think I am
don't think I want a sudden death
but i'd never show you who I am
if you really knew me, put it to rest
if you really knew me, you'd want me dead

Sudden death

UNEMPLOYED PEOPLE (and jauntsen) ON A MONDAY

Fake Club

prod. me

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

that's enough to kill the bitch
stuck inside my room
i don't give a shit
more time to myself
ima make a hit
yea my mom said i'll make it
IMA MAKE THIS SHIT

i look outside the box
don't know where to start
ask me how i feel 
i feel spectacular
lost track what u want?
don't know who you are
so ask me how i feel
spectacular 

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

-tacular
ask me how i feel
i feel spectacular 
-tacular 
-tacular
spectacular 

i'm tryna do this shit for too long
it better work out
i've tried to hit the ball too far
now there's no sound
they tryna take me down i said 
FUCK YOU
HOPE IT WORKS OUT
i've got the best feeling 
it's somebody i know 
i hope you get well

stand on what you said
take a new approach 
if you look outside the box
you can see me
fuck what you said and meant
i don't care at all
i'm like oh my fucking god i don't mean it

but if i said i did 
would it change a lot
i'm like come on what the fuck 
i didn't break your arm
its so simple its a joke
i never got this far
and i'm sorry if i hurt you
i just care a lot

spectacular

i make music sometimes
hoarder is out now :)

cage girl - jane remover (cover)

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