https://open.spotify.com/track/5QTBwgAkE6HuG3wxwe5zFt?si=320d9379b8a1403e

locked inside my room again
thinking about u again
is this really how its gonna end 
i wish u'd b my girlfriend

i trust u never once worried
thought i was rushing things i didnt wanna hurry
u wanna keep me safe i dont want u to hurt me too 
but its impossible if i just really love u 

and i do
and i do 
i rlly do 
and i do
2x

im awaiting
will this go 
how im thinking

i have faith in god 
cuz this is no mistake
almost gave up but i had to stop
cuz i know my love isnt fake
just be urself please
i'll be pleased
i'd do it all for u 
to make u happy 
im not the dirty type 
but lets get zappy
i love ur selfies
and ur body 
its not over cuz i like u 
u could reject me its ok dont be scared to 

thought i lost then, i just didnt know
its not the end yea i have hope 
so stressed im sweating bury me in snow
clipping my nails with my teeth i wanna slit my throat

waitingwaiting Prod bloodsekai

me
feeling sober
weight on my shoulders
feeling like a boulder 
i always fall
im nauseous in the hallway
no matter what i cant escape
wanna see better days 
but everythings the same
wanna be in paradise
i just wanna feel alive
the future doesnt seem bright
oh well i might as well die
my friends start to disappear
it feels just like hell is near
but i just stop and i stare
theres no more that i can bare

i dont wanna do anything
i wanna forever fall asleep
fuck life id rather rot instead
my lifes so much better when im not inside of my head

bloodsekai
u make me feel like something's wrong
i try my best to play along
i step outside outside
it's been like this for too long
send me off to another world
i wanna sleep like a fucking squirrel
in winter
i'm bitter
i'm a sore loser, yeah a quitter

i hurt all the time
my brain will be my killer

my killer
my killer
i fucking love my killer
my killer
my killer
my killer, killer, killer

same chords as 2 songs ago on acc

forever asleep ft bloodsekai

bloodsekai .. I LUV YOU

i like you but im too scared of what ur gonna do
if i tell you that i like you
c
im blushing oh my god
cant talk right cause ur so hot
ur presence makes my heart drop
ur voice makes my heart stop
at the end of the day im a loser
spending their life away on a computer
at the end of the day im a loser
id have you if i was cooler

im a loser im a loser
rotting on computer
rotting on computer


want you to drop in my arms
youll be mine afterall
i know im insecure but
this time i will not fall

i wont be alone anymore
as long as i just try
but if you do reject me
ill kill myself tonight


i really like you but im a loser

@bloodsekai

i could do sm better
only if i wanted to!!!!!!
nothing's rly stopping me
besides my rly shitty mood
and lack of sleep i guess
and lack of friends too
there's so many things
that i dont rly care 2 do

more and more excuses
i'm running out of them
don't know what to do with
my fucking life again
i stopped trusting people
i have a messed up head
im sorry i ignored u
i dont mean 2 upset  :(((((

i must be
in that 1 game
where u can't logout
or they'll fry ur brain

bloodsekai .. but only if i wanted to!!!!!

walking through the forest im all alone
running away from what i call home
but im so scared of the dark
im crying so hard as i walk

i hear a loud voice scream but it sounded near
so i dropped my bags and checked everywhere
but theres nothing here im so scared 
im so scared
im so scared!!!

someone help please
im yelling loudly 
im being chased by a shadow
im going crazy
i tripped right over a rock and then he caught me
he carries me into the air i started shouting

please dont hurt me
ill do anything
it stares right into my soul and started laughing
he grabs my throat and squeezes me i started choking
smiling and grinning while im in the air dying

at my rescue 
is a girl
with a light so bright
that i just might turn blind

she picks me up off the ground
and hugs me tight
and for the very first time
i felt alright




















romantic nightmare

rushing running down the stairs
hoping that my cat is there
shes the one thats by my side
even when i start to cry

she so white and fluffy too
her fur just makes me comfortable

i know shes just a cat
but she means the world to meeeeeee

shes my only company
she give me lots of peace

id die if she ever leaves

i love my cat and she loves me too
everyday the world makes me feel blue
but my fluffy little cat helps me get through
in her empty little head she has no clue

my best friend is a little fuzz ball
when i wanna cry i know who to call
meows when she wants to play
then im on my way

come on lets go
my only friend
playtime with you is my medicine

she knows when im sad
shes the best friend ive ever had

i love my cat!!!

prod @bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/album/5R4wmZWjhjhRoreGZqvqQT?si=OfiXWL1iTRWfceRxPDCJHg

fantasize your touch
i wanna feel love
distanced it sucks
i'll stay i must
we'll meet just trust
don't leave me i'll rust
wait for me im your bus
light my sky like dusk

i dont feel out of place your words make me feel at home
i wanna be stuck to you until we turn to stone
please say you wont leave
i want to be yours to keep
i'll fly out and see
what love is truly
thats if u love me
thats if u stay by me
please stay close while im low
and when im high dont go
im here for u u know
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go

just give me time

produced by + featured @redizesux
the covers also drawn by redize!!

https://open.spotify.com/track/536gLQ1Lrak35zxQCjEqGT?si=Xrf6yDWPRc-3VivG-aDtSg

lyrics:

[imsorryhori]
real life is not my cup of tea
i know i will die by 20
you want me to be in my
deathbed
and its all my fault
x2

ive never felt this way before
theres a pit inside my stomache
you would like me to die
chain me up and rot them :<

what is your discord?
oh wait i sent a dm n you ignored
what is your discord?
oh wait i sent a dm n you ignoreeedddddddd

[@redizesux]
but u never really understood 
and theres ntn much you can amount to
still focused on feeling good?
i think I’m starting to despise you

i cant help it theres a pain inside my stomach
not one to forget cuz i think id rather vomit
i cant tell if ur the same old person
that i thought i knew then
idk if this all seems to perfect
cuz my thoughts are intrusive

and ur not the only one
who feels like that sometimes 
no ntns all for none
as long as you’re satisfied

[me n redize]
where did you goo?
where did you go?
where did you gooo?
where did youu goooo?

[imsorryhori]
real life is not my cup of tea
i know i will die by 20
you want me to be in my
deathbed
and its all my fault
x2

not my cup of tea w/ redize

im idealistic about this
i wanna envision a crown prince
i follow your trail through your foot prints
i'll call you a liar if the shoe fits

if the shoe fits

produced by me

lyrics :

ill slit my throat
when your not home
youll tell my folks
its all your fault
x2

i wish that you would just..
read between the lines
i dont know why
your not seeing the signs
cause i hate your guts
and i hate my life
october 31st is when i will die

you said you wanna go
trick or treat with me
but you just want to trick
cause you dont want a treat..
youll get me fucking jumped
on the night of halloween
and when im on my deathbed
ill wonder why your mean

ill slit my throat
when your not home
youll tell my folks
its all your fault
x2

i wish that you would just..
read between the lines
i dont know why
your not seeing the signs
cause i hate your guts
and i hate my life
october 31st is when i will die