AftertheSesh

SADGE BUT LOVELY

JAmS#2

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U.B.B. (prod.okthxbb)

@the0000 💜
Cover art by @the0000 💜
Thanks to @dhaelo for help on the mix 💜

COMA:
I'm falling away
Rip at my face, display all the pain
And take it away
So maybe I'll face, the things that I hate

And better the days
It's all that I want, so maybe I'll pray
And lock it away
Inside of my brain, please empty this cage

Empty this cage
Empty this cage, empty this cage, please empty this cage
x2

THEO:
Open
All that remain is unspoken
Communication is broken
Pull the trigger on the shotgun

Blowing my heart into parcel bits
The corpse will forever swim in the abyss
My soul will rest in bliss
Escaping the problem that I haven't fixed

Cuts are too deep
And it hurts so bad
I heard you weep
And it makes me sad
We bleed from the blade of our toxic love
But don’t you worry cause I'll watch you above
x2

Lock & Key

Lock & Key w/ Theo

Sickly (prod.okthxbb)

stay cover Ft. loowana

Not a fuck up
I just keep my grace
Boy don't speak my name
My time never waste
I want better days
Live in better days 
My heart never breaks
I don't keep the shame
I don't show my face
Show my face
Not a fuck up
I just keep my grace
Boy don't speak my name
My time never waste
I want better days

Bitch I got plenty to spend
So many problems I shouldn't forget
Many many many said
I was better off dead
Look at the moments I shed
See me living in they head
Bring that paper for my mother
Half these fuckas been a fed

Live in better days 
My heart never breaks
I don't keep the shame
I don't show my face
Show my face
Not a fuck up
I just keep my grace
Boy don't speak my name
My time never waste
I want better days

Live in better days 
My heart never breaks
I don't keep the shame
And I don't show my face
Not a fuck up
I just keep my grace
Boy don't speak my name
My time never waste

live to break

art by @pikachu_tears on instagram

she brought coke ima match call that double up
is this even real? i be going numb
she be sitting with her feet up i be going dumb
3 years later still got cleavers all over her tongue

3 years later you still hit me like a fucking fever
if u need sumn bitch i got it i'm a wide receiver
all star i'm on 10 like Derek Jeter
she went fucking silent i said id never leave her

but that was a lie i guess
you were ill, i won't lie, but i digress
i cant shake the fucking feeling hidden in my chest
is that why you're maybe eating less?

is that why you're popping everything
from molly to amphetamines?
i hope that she's not scared of me
it's in my heredity
i can tell you're helpless
but i am not your enemy
and this landscape is hellish
how could you remember me?

how could you remember me?

we were only 17
that was pretty heavenly tho
i never wanna leave
not a care in the world heart beating next to me

stand in silence no longer (x2)

(hey woah)
i think i cracked the safe
(hi)
came in like a meteor
she screaming like im eating her
i don't think ill forget about it
smoking's just way easier
get way into my head about it
she think i'm deceiving her
she called me irrational
she told me i care too much
while i don't think you care at all

3 years later you still hit me like a fucking fever
if u need sumn bitch i got it i'm a wide receiver
all star i'm on 10 like Derek Jeter
she went fucking silent i said id never leave her

but that was a lie i guess
you were ill, i won't lie, but i digress
i cant shake the fucking feeling hidden in my chest
is that why you're maybe eating less?

is that why you're popping everything
from molly to amphetamines?
i hope that she's not scared of me
it's in my heredity
i can tell you're helpless
but i am not your enemy
and this landscape is hellish
how could you remember me?

hoes mad freestyle (prod. thislandis)

Watching the rain wash up 'round my throat
Trying to breathe choked up on my thoughts
Please don't follow me through my haunt
Watch from a distance crushing my heart

I'll never be the one
But that's okay I'll just run
Confess all the things I've done
Bleed the soul until there's none

I'll never be the one
But that's okay I'll just run
Confess all the things I've done
Bleed the soul until there's none

I'll Never Be

Dead Spent
All of my lies they will reject
Burn off my face with my regret
Choke on the knot that fills my neck
They won't be the one to taste my flesh

They won't be the ones to fill my head
They won't be the ones to speak again
Lips tied the moment it begins
I'll never bend

You're lost inside my aether, just a moment in my head
It never meant much more than nothing, another place to rest
I'm clawing out my chest, the lives we never meant to test
You weren't worth my fucking breath

You're lost inside my aether, just a moment in my head
It never meant much more than nothing, another place to rest
I'm clawing out my chest, the lives we never meant to test
You weren't worth my fucking breath

just a passing thought

featuring:
@theredrxxm
@dhaelo
@imsoscaredcoma6
@the0000

FEVER FREESTYLE [prod. RED RXXM]

HAPPY LATE HALLOWEEN 💜
Was gonna upload this the 31st but had setbacks

Feast
Parasites are crawling through my teeth
Feast
Open wide, embrace the entity
Feast
You can't stop this, it's too fucking late
Feast
You're just one more fucking casualty

Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast

Good luck cleaning out your closet, there's too many bones
Underneath all of that skin you're just a mindless drone
And when it comes and rips away your fucking coward soul
You have so many questions but the answers never fucking show
Feast
Feast
Feast

Feast
Parasites are crawling through my teeth
Feast
Open wide, embrace the entity
Feast
You can't stop this, it's too fucking late
Feast
You're just one more fucking casualty

Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast
Feast

FEAST

It's the worst love, hanging by a note
Fading all the words out, memories they choke
Blood stained pictures frozen like your bones
Carving out the imprint, bleeding out in snow

Overgrown, sinking like a stone
Takes away your mind and leaves you void of all you know
Nothing but ghosts haunting the walls that you once called home
You once called home

Hang it up, pass it down
Do everything you can to turn it back around
Bleed it dry and leave it in the background
Leave it in the background

Overgrown, sinking like a stone
Takes away your mind and leaves you void of all you know
Nothing but ghosts haunting the walls that you once called home
You once called home

Overgrown, sinking like a stone
Takes away your mind and leaves you void of all you know
Nothing but ghosts haunting the walls that you once called home
You once called home

Overgrown, sinking like a stone
Takes away your mind and leaves you void of all you know
Nothing but ghosts haunting the walls that you once called home
You once called home

overgrowth

i cant turn back if i wanted to no
i cant even feel you but im close to you now
i know that its different but it felt the same and
i know that im different but i act the same and

oh were gonna fall
i dont wanna be here blamin but
i dont wanna hear you shadin me
i dont wanna hear you trading me with no one else
i dont want to hear your playin me with someone else oh

why you lyin 
who you hidin 
is he better than ive been
does he know you from inside out
does he love you do you love him now
i dont like to get emotional but wow
whenever im gone do you bring him around

imma go ahead and switch it up
i got all these drugs in my cup
put a lot of drugs in my cup
i dont want to let you go
but ill have to let you go
money gonna fuckin' flow
imma laugh at you hoe
imma laugh at you fucking little
imma laugh at everyone sayin that i couldnt do it but i did it
now i got money comin in and im lookin at the fuckin world different
i couldnt stop if i wanted
i dont even fuckin wanna


i cant turn back even if i wanted to no
i cant even feel you i know im not close to you no
i know that its different and its not the same
i know that im different i dont act the same 
oh were gonna fall
i dont wanna blame on you but its all your fault
i will not trade my position oh i worked to hard
i dont wanna play these games you're playing no more
play with someone else

someone else[prod by aftertheparty]

i dont want to change the world
i just wanna change my pocket
i dont want a brand new house
i want the lot then lock it
family will get profit 
past that it's my profit
i am not a handout
what you want im not it
duck duck goose on a fine bitch
bout to start upping my fine bitch
add a couple zeros to my wrist
diamond dance till its blinding

who do you want me to be?
what do you want me to be?
want me to be like this?
want me to be like him?

fuck it ill be like this
go make a bee line bitch
please just stop calling my phone
hit you with cease and desist
swing and a miss
bet you pissed that you found me
i dont want you around me
only family thats around me
go fuck a townie i don't know
go get your friends do some blow, right?
yeah you're on top of the world aren't you?
yeah you're on top of the--


who are you disguised as?
oh you look so fine
"who's the girl making eyes?"
i've never seen her just ignore that bitch
i don't know, i don't know but
you can tell that it's easy for me to switch
and you know it
i'll probably end up doing the same shit with her but
i know, i know it
so pour, so pour it
i'll just sing about a foreign with a foreign
and i'll pretend im important
when im not and we both know it
but im big enough to admit it
are you big enough to admit it?
what i really fucking meant to you
what you really fuckin meant

what i really meant to you[prod by aftertheparty]

you cannot feel this no more, no
numbness that's perpetual
i just want to hold it
i wanna feel it again
perpetually

i'm getting used to the silence
you not used to relying on nobody but me
you not used to relying
guess you got sick of the lying
i know what it's about baby
sitting by myself faded, i'm faded again
i know what its about baby
all these problems i make up, we make up again 
and its my fault
oh i know
end this dial tones with low serotonin
bonds that not ionic oh you feel so cold and
you cant even feel it numbness gets so old

i cannot feel this no more, no
numbness that's perpetual
i just want to hold it
i wanna feel it again
perpetually

perpetual [prod. by aftertheparty]

sorry it's been so long.

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5BTIuoLO20tBe9DBVooLqN
apple: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/numb-single/id1252086345

I'm different now
Pill poppin' got me feelin visceral
Melancholy girl tell me where you're from
Why the fuck should I smile I'm barely on

(Ooh get me higher)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn betchu riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.
(Ooh then I'm riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn let me ride out)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.

Do this 'till you're fucking on with me.
Leave it behind it's all gone 
If you really wanna let it go
Let it.
You wanna feel something and that's fine.
You gon' let him swallow up your pride?
You can come with me and just ride
We can do this till the night end
Cigarettes and pills burn your eyes
You can take off your disguises
He ain't worth the tears that you cry
All you wanna do is get high
That's okay, lets get high.

(Ooh get me higher)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn betchu riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.
(Ooh then I'm riding)
Do this 'till you're fucking numb.
(Like damn let me ride out)
Do this 'till you're fucking gone.

Same kick with a new bass
Same bitch with a new face
Same dish with a new plate
Cookie cutter that's the new way
New friends think they knew me
Old friends act a new way
I've been getting it the hard way
They gon' find out the hard way
When she call me baby hit her with the plan b, and that's plan a
Car straight from Japan, hands free but ignore when she call me
I can't depend on nobody and everything that I've been doing it's all me.
Who the fuck gonna stall me.
Who the fuck gonna stop me.

I've been numb.
I've been on.

Apple Music

numb [prod. by aftertheparty]

cover by @creatork_

always been a liar
either you have faith or you're in denial
and you've always lacked faith

but i could use you right now
right now what i need
always think i'm satisfied
but there's always vacancy

are you on the way
are you on time, or is it on your time
and there's a price to pay
silicone lips and silicone tounges
it's fake anyway
i just want it all, i dont want a lot
but thats the price you pay
and thats the way you lay

always been a liar
either you have faith or you're in denial
and you've always lacked faith
let me get you in trouble
i wanna pull you down so i can pick you up
and there's the price you pay

I think I'm too much for me,
Every day wastes at my feet,
Beg,
Plead,
Scream,
You're happy,
And that sits fine with me,
But maybe just a week,
I could dream,
Of someone else's needs,
I could dream,
I could dream,

I'm easy to find, if you know it well,
I'm pieces burning out, in their very spell,
That held me, peacefully,
But tormented sleep,
But tormented sleep,

They're not the enemy,
They're not the enemy,
They're not the enemy,

We'll never live again,
Death to the old friend,
I wasn't better then,
But I'm still not a man,

We'll never live again,
Death to the old friend,
I wasn't better then,
But I'm still not a man,

Baby Please

Wasted time on the little lies,
Lilacs sing like a lullaby,
And if I could off the tunnel lights,
I wanna fulfill a life,
I want it all just for mine,
And only you could delight,
Live inside this life,
I, I want it all just for mine,
No one solve me tonight,
I wanna breathe if there's light,
No I don't ask for lie,
No I don't need you for a life,

Darling of mine, I take you right back to, all of the streets you walk,
If it was made for you then I'd probably leave it for better more,
Step into my eyes, don't see the leaves that will only fold in the fall,
Watching you sad, and it's not a test to, rip these holes in the wall

Wasted time on the little lies,
Lilacs sing like a lullaby,
And if I could off the tunnel lights,
I wanna fulfill a life,
I want it all just for mine,
And only you could delight,
Live inside this life,
I, I want it all just for mine,

Makeup

I'm but a simple man,
I only speak when I can,
Tied by the neck, 
Hanging from my own demands,
From long ago I stand,
Steady and cold my hands
Saved by the held and damned,
Saved by the held and damned,

For me to say this clear,
I'd pass on every year,
All of the time I was here,
I wanna leave my dear,
I don't want to be near,
It's not the tone I fear,
This house is a grave for years,
I'm not the only one here,

And I give you everything,
More alive by the spring,
I can walk like I'm free,
But they feed off of me,

Saved by the held and damned,
Saved by the held and damned,
Saved by the held and damned,
Saved by the held and damned,

I'm but a simple man,
I only speak when I can,
Tied by the neck, 
Hanging from my own demands,
From long ago I stand,
Steady and cold my hands
Saved by the held and damned,
Saved by the held and damned,

Lock & Key w/ Theo

COMA6