amethyst and ruby

..... .... Annie, remember that I trust you.
I've trusted you for a long time.

I deserve this, Annie.
You know I do.
You know I do...
I think being an adult with you just doesn't go together
. I can't put the two together.
Okay... Then add:
Good night.
I deserve this. None of my half-sisters wished me a happy birthday.
No family, no relatives.
No friends (except for the patient-resident who mentioned my birthday).
When I feel targeted, I think about us, and unwanted, anxious, and suspicious thoughts begin to flow.

I want to believe there's a very good reason for our lack of communication. For the reasons mentioned above, which I won't go into detail about here, but it's quite simple:

I feel betrayed.
Your morality guides your ethical behavior, it guides your values, which in turn shape your character.

I will be an agent of hypocrisy.

You are a capable force and a source of great joy in my life.
You also know how fragile that kind of power is.
You also know that it can cause me serious harm.

Because of my life experiences,
I tend to be unnaturally predisposed to anxiety, depression, and all things depressing.

amethyst and ruby

I Miss You