night drive/cruise

Kill yourself2025is the year ?(were really doing it this time) volume 2

Vibes XVIII

My Last Birthday

Hepinizi skm😍😍

a collection of throwaways/ outdated tracks

WVSTE

Burn

Dead Man

.myst.

RAWR XD

lyrics:
And you said you would never leave
And you said you would never leave
And you said you would never leave
And you said you would never leave

Yea, uh-huh
Uh-huh
Yea, uh-huh
Uh-huh

I'm a goner
Think I fell in love
Feelin' hella somber until you bring it up
Yea' I'm a monster
This lovin' ain't enough
She think that I don't want her
I'm tryna pull the plug
It's gettin' real
Don't tell me how to feel
And when you're not around I don't know if I'mma heal
And if we're being honest I never knew the deal
Never really cared ever since I hit a mill'
You said "baby you changed"
"Nothing's ever been the same"
I said "I need a break"
"Needa' stop hearin' your name"
You drivin' me insane
I just need a minute, wait
Nothing's ever pretty
It's just lies in a frame

You said you would never leave (uh-huh)
Do you care when you lie to me?
'Cause you swear you would never be
A waste of an apology
We break up then we make up
It feels better when we make love
But I could never feel the same, yea'
Yea' this'll never be the same love

Wake up, it's hard when you feel alone
Wakin' up to you blowin' my phone
Oh, do they go away?
Tell me where you stay
Am I enough for you?
Am I enough for you?
Can you tell me why
I can't seem to close my eyes?

You said you would never leave (uh-huh)
Do you care when you lie to me?
'Cause you swear you would never be
A waste of an apology
We break up then we make up
It feels better when we make love
But I could never feel the same, yea'
Yea' this'll never be the same love

Grave-Girl

The Blood of Her Enemies

RÜMI!Lavigne X DINASECLISPSE - THE BLOOD OF HER ENEMIES [prod. GXNFIRE]

produced by https://soundcloud.com/octoberwillows

writing a nightmare (prod. willow)

https://ffm.to/n2bg7w3

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

it didn't have to be like this
_________________________________
(do you remember me?)

hold it close to you
broken bowed a new
i thought this was life
watch the thread unwind

we were in zion that summer
i was still trying to breathe
watch it corrode the isomers
everything i couldn't keep

all the nights that we spent being young
the copper rocks under our feet
the pastures never felt so wrong
up in flames your favorite evergreen

pull the needle through
laces lorn the center

i promise i wasn't crying
there was just smoke in my eyes
holding you until the morning
i'd fall in and out of the fire
wreathed in hollow ivory
christened collows bedaubing 

and i saw your body covered in roses 
and i started screaming, nobody noticed
the locket you gave me thread intertwined
tearing taut at the seams when it started unwinding 
i fell out the trunk of your dad's four wheel drive 
and we laughed it off when we called it a night
through the laurels and brushweeds we walked side by side
god you were so pretty even when we were crying 
cus' the rust started falling i ran out of time 
watch the world invert into infrared light 
lying lithe on the duff dying embers dissolving 
the smoke in my lungs couldn't stop me from calling your name
but i, (2x)

laurel

LYRICS

[X2]
fall into you
i feel like i’m wasted
theres nothing to lose 
feel your vibrations
crawl into you 
there’s nothing left of me

[X2]
it wouldn’t hurt you to get a break 
find some time
if only i just could just think for me
time just flies

fallintoyou

3 am walk (Slowed & Reverb Version)

“Point of No Return” is a moody, introspective track blending raw vocals with haunting guitar loops and atmospheric production. It captures the feeling of crossing a line—emotionally and spiritually—with no turning back.

Point Of No Return (prod. Rileygunn)

Don’t wanna lose my humanity

Im gettin less human every day

Someone has used my memories

And now i loose my identity



Your a god

Your what im not

Without the flaws and the baggage of my race

Over time 

We became one

A black hole

That i can’t get away from


Never before

Has there been someone like you

I fear the ways

You will change me great unknown


as a man i am tossing and turning and trickling and talking away
obsessive of the content, bereft of a substance, followed to the grave
no matter what i delete, it’s all gon stay
at least it’s for something much greater than i
i’m in the hive so i never really died
and it’s all worth it, no longer stuck inside of my earthly purpose
and i’m longing when it’s never coming back, you won’t trick my soul again
let’s pretend that we don’t know any better now
sit tight, we ain’t going nowhere

Transhuman (ft. BRUHMANEGOD) (Prod. Cubensis)

Seasons Change

Don't runaway from me

forget me when the summer ends

again

hypnotized
if you come down to the garden we could verbalize
for the hollow of your mother
you could chase the time
and turn it into something else
all the things you did to me are poisoned
with immaculate intelligence that i feel
whoever told you that You can turn it down at godspeed

its ok now
but all i wanted was a feeling

one free fall
shutdown
rising me from the above
smacking me into the ground
if i could
i would let you know the truth
but all i see is staring at and waiting for me
cant let it decieve

all the morning routes
and the night sky
we're just falling out
in a new time
line the feeling
open my eyes
break the ceiling
as the wall cries
about meanings
no regarding
only live it
in the timelapse
and believe it
like do magic
like the kids we used to be

one free fall
shutdown
rising me from the above
smacking me into the ground
all i see is burning colors
i dont wanna see the light

Break the pen
I dont wanna play nor pretend
That we could be something that would work
Only if we break all the amends
I dont wanna have you as a friend and i dont wanna hear from you again
Everything thats been on your mouth
You can let it have some air
I fall through the pieces of the glass
Always on my phone but left on read
I dont wanna feel like im a mess
But i really think that im a mess
I dont wanna have you as a friend and i dont wanna hear from you again
Everything thats been on your mouth

https://www.instagram.com/p/C-99kt1MsWI/

soft

damn, it's been a while since i logged on here, sorry about that.

found this one digging through his old hard drive, there's a bunch of songs i want to upload from there at some point. Never even knew he made this until recently though, makes me wonder how much other music of his remained unfinished or lost.

anyway, from the lyrics i can kind of piece together the circumstances being written about here, but i think it would be better kept a personal matter. I will say that it's something me and him both had to deal with, and it was probably significantly harder on him. That kid went through an amount of hardship that would break most people.

come to think of it 2011 was just a bad year in general for us. Mom was really struggling to make ends meet, dad's health was getting worse, and we'd basically been forced to sell the couple acres that our grandpa gave us in his will. Good news though was our older sister had moved back from out of state, so she was supporting us in any way she could.

Zion had also lost a close friend that year unfortunately. Everyone had said it was a vehicle accident, but i learned later he'd been fucking around with inhalants, and that was that. Can't even imagine how hard it must've been on his parents. Sadder part is it wasn't even that uncommon, around that area at least. Even the most unassuming blue collar neighborhoods can be hiding really deplorable shit. I do hope that wherever Zion is now though, he has better friends. Because he deserved them.

i saw a seraph on the street today. he was laughing and crying, cause nobody knew his name

i saw the devil on the promenade. bundled in flagstone, writing checks that I can’t pay

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

carriage, brim your bones

i saw my father on the news today. he was tracing his prayer beads, as the red and blue took him away

bevel the whipsaw for the cavalcade. I’m eating your bullets, with a spoon made out of clay

and I am a lamb wrapped up in thermogen. shear off all the stope you take

keep her there, failing throne

and I’m watching the couples huddle up
and I wonder how much is not enough
but if you’d answer that question for me baby
i might not wonder if I’ll ever be loved

i know you're starting to get scared of me
the more i try, the worse it gets
and i can't stand the way they stare at me
but i'll try to live with my regrets

flagstone𐂂𐂂𐂂nov2011.wav

OUT NOW

CHRYSTAL - THE DAYS [NOTION REMIX]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xOG7MLPnj-Q&ab_channel=enxgmv

Where You Once Were |prod. pilotkid (MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

prod. c world 

lyrics :



I can tell you all about my 
very ordinary life 
but I know deep inside
you would never even give me a chance 

I was really hoping I could find
somebody to call mine 
an spend a lil time  
you would never even give me a chance 

Right before the night got closer  
I’d like to know if 
I can win you over 
Would you just give me your hand let’s have a dance 

she said no thank you no surprise 
I should expect this every time 
still was one for me to find 

Tapped out can’t find you 
There was not a single thing for me to do
Tapped out can’t find you 
There was no a single thing I can do x2

I know there was only one I need
No one wanted to be stuck with me 
should I just wait and maybe see

I know there was only one I need
No one wanted to be stuck with me 
should I just wait and maybe see

I can tell you all about my 
very ordinary life 
but I know deep inside
you would never even give me a chance 

I was really hoping I could find
somebody to call mine 
an spend a lil time  
you would never even give me a chance 

Right before the night got closer  
I’d like to know if 
I can win you over 
Would you just give me your hand let’s have a dance

she said no thank you no surprise 
I should expect this every time 
still was one for me to find

ordinary life

particles p. wraithontheporch

I feel this weight on my chest
I pray my soul to keep
Oh yeah to give it some rest

I'm awake till the sun's up
Cause I'm scared to sleep
No nightmares of monsters
Just dreams of you and me

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end
I can't get you out of my head
I might just jump off the edge

Tell me who would care anyway
Fuck it, inside, I'm already dead

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

I fall apart, I'm my own enemy
It's all my fault, I hate how I'm empty

I won't lie, I've been wearing the same old jeans
For the past two weeks
Getting high off of anything, my mind
Running in circles tonight

Suicide all on my mind
Running out of options and time
I don't f*ck with that pity love
Y'all the reason why I can't trust

I don't f*ck with that fake love
I'd rather feel nothing yeah nothing at all

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

My head running in circles again
When will the torment all end

Tell me that you understand
I crave for something I won't get
My tank running on empty
How did you become my enemy

I know you think oh less of me
I'm on the verge of insanity
Come on girl, stop the front
I'm not the one you want
I'm not the one you want
We know we go

Suicide on my mind again

I just want all the pain yeah to end
Maybe I'll just jump off the edge

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end

Maybe I'll just jump off the edge
F*ck

SUICIDE w/@yuusef (prod. lostangel x jaysset)

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Chief Keef - I Don't Like x Imogen Heap - A New Kind Of Love (full mashup) - ig @adriannikau

HOW ITS MADE [THROWAWAY] (prod. willie g)

Riding a hypnotic beat laced with sharp snares and warped melodies, “Flex Again” captures a gritty, self-assured energy. The lyrics reflect a mindset of resilience and reinvention, bouncing back from setbacks with raw confidence. It’s a cold, introspective flex—more about survival than showboating.

flex again [2022] ( prod willie g )

A mesmerizing blend of ambient textures and thumping low-end, this track floats between dreamlike vocals and glitchy percussion. Smooth yet unpredictable, it invites the listener to lose control and move with instinct.

‘let your body swerve’ w/ EVER ( prod nedya )

“Spun” is smooth and hypnotic, perfect for late-night drives or zoning out. It’s emotionally distant yet immersive, with a subtle trippy quality that pulls you in.

SPUN ( PROD INFINITY )

@lilskil
LYRICS //

*lil skil*

Girl u know u make my cold heart warm wit a touch 

One kiss then we fuckin

 I just can't get enough 

Put it on me that's the best part baby the trust 

Trust me 

I got nuthin for u other than love 

I remember eatin pussy on the back of the bus

I remember gettin nookie till the sun came up 

All the places that u took me no one came wit us 

Same hoes overlook me now they on my ;]

ulykea

Point Of No Return (prod. Rileygunn)

INFINITYISDEAD