The True Blue

Chillaxin

Tell me that it’s not in my best interest
But you know you’re the one, you’re my only interest

Why do I feel so bad
About somebody else who got you feeling like that?
You know how I’m living
And it’s not that bad
I shouldn’t be complaining but
It is what it is 
Wishing I was him
Wishing I was anyone but me
Wishing I could give you all of me, girl

Don’t give me your heartache unless you mean it
And no, I won’t give you mine

Yeah, I stay up late at night
And think about the things that I know you like
I wonder if you miss me, like I miss you
That’s all I ever do

Yeah, I’ll admit I can’t stand
When I see you post a picture on gram with him there
‘Cause I care, like who the fuck is he?
And yeah, I’m sure he makes you happy
Tears me apart, so when I play it stone cold
You know it’s breaking my heart

Don’t give me your heartache unless you mean it
And no, I won’t give you mine

Tell me that it’s not in my best, say what?
Tell me you’re in love with the man, say no
Tell me how we land on a topic like this
Got me so fucked up every time you two kiss
Every time

Don’t give me your heartache, unless you mean it
Unless you mean it, baby

Don’t want it, don’t need it anymore
Don’t give me, don’t give me yours
And no, I won’t give you mine, no

Sleepless

I feel needy
I just want you to need me
And oh Lord, I feel greedy
If only now they would see me

But nothing feels right anymore
Try and get a photograph while you can

If you wanna, let them talk & talk about me

I don’t feel, no I’m not happy
And I just want you to know me, whatever that means
You know I never know where to start, yeah
It’s like you’re watching as I fall apart, yeah
There’s a part of me that loves you all,
But then I hate you all because I think you feel the same 

And I’m just afraid if I fail,
That you won’t love me
If you ever loved me

If you wanna, let them talk & talk about me

I’ve been hearing what you’re saying
But I don’t care, no no
And nobody’s gonna miss it when I’m not there
I could say a thousand words,
I could say a million prayers
But it won’t change the fact you don’t want me there

Do you want me there?
Oh, do you want me there?
Does anyone want me there?

If you wanna, let them talk & talk about me

Greed

Night Kick

I guess I never told you,
But I fucked it all
Where was my head in all of this?

I guess it’s wrong to assume
It’s more than what it is
But baby girl, you’re so smooth, yeah

I’m starting to think 
That I don’t want me to be happy at all
And if you had me there
Do you think you’d make me happy at all?
Ooh, out on the west side
Baby, I don’t stand a chance at all
I’m starting to think 
Nothing ever will make me happy at all

Don’t look at me like that
You know it hurts, for real
Imagine if I said just what I feel
You know I worry every night that you’ll meet someone
Who looks like, talks like, dress like, acts like me 
(Yeah, he acts like me)
You could fix someone who’s
Scared & lonely, insecure like me
But not me

Ooh, I’m starting to think
That I don’t want me to be happy at all
And if you had me there
I’m not sure if you’d be happy at all
I know I’m being selfish
So, if you leave it’s all my fault
What do you do when you know
Nothing ever will make you happy at all?

Ooh, you never know who you’re falling for
Until you’re falling for them
Oh my Lord

Who am I kidding, no
I was fine before I met you, baby

I guess I never told you that
I’m starting to think 
That I don’t want me to be happy at all
What do you do when you know
Nothing ever will make you happy at all?

At All

I miss the days I’m missing you
Do anything you want me to
No other girl’s got a hold like you do

When I’m with you
It’s like I play to lose
And you know too well
That I would never choose over you, yeah
Tell me, oh Lord, what am I gonna do?

Oh my head, my chest and my heart
Don't you know me, don't you know me yeah
Oh my head, my chest and my heart
Don’t you hurt me, don’t you hurt me yeah

Tell me that you want my lovin’
Tell me that you need my help
Baby, just admit there’s something
Even if there’s someone else

I’m growing sick and tired
Of being on your side
To bring you piece of mind
When you get overwhelmed

Oh my head, my chest and my heart
Don't you know me, don't you know me yeah
Oh I should’ve known from the start
That you’d hurt me, that you’d hurt me yeah

Baby, I know you’re no good for me
‘Cause I see the things I want to see
I guess you and I are just a fantasy, yeah

Oh my head, my chest and my heart
Don't you know me babe, don't you know me yeah
Oh I should’ve known from the start
That you’d hurt me babe, that you’d hurt me yeah

Oh my head, my chest and my heart
Don’t you know me, babe? Don’t you know me, yeah
I should’ve known that you’d hurt me, yeah

Oh my head my chest and my heart
You don’t know me
Yeah, nobody knows me

O.O.C.

Yeah, another lonely night
But I'm not looking for your love, babe
But I'll ride with you, yes I'll ride with you
You can take me to the bar, yes I'll ride with you
I don't drive a fancy car, you said "I'll ride with you"
Yes, I'll ride with you if that's what you want to do, yeah

So I pull up and I swerve on it
You can teach me with your body, learning curves honey
You take a hit, I'll take a sip, I'll slur my words for ya
And if that works for ya, I swear I'll work for ya

Lately, everything has been so hectic
This the only thing that makes me feel connected
And I'll admit it's not what anyone expected
I'm not trying to test it, don't say that it's love yeah

I know it doesn't make it right
I'm still not looking for your love, babe
But I don't wanna ride with nobody else
And you're thinking of me when you're by yourself
Yeah, you keep it low key tell nobody else

Yeah, you make me feel so surreal, baby
I'd never put you on the spot for how you feel, baby
And when you're looking like that
Have a hard time keeping both hands on the wheel, baby
Yeah does it feel real, maybe
Don't gotta be mine to say that you're mine

Lately, everything has been so hectic
This the only thing that makes me feel connected
And I'll admit it's not what anyone expected
I'm not trying to test it, don't say that it's love yeah
'Cause there's a million different ways 
That we could look at it
You call me mine, I say you're mine if you don't give a shit
I know we've hurt before and if you're down with this
We'll just take it slow, babe I won't call it love, yeah

Ooh, nobody knows me like you know myself, oh yeah
Mean it when I say I wouldn't want this with nobody else, yeah
But if you choose to go I will respect that
Know I always got your back, I hope you know that

Lately, everything has been so hectic
This the only thing that makes me feel connected
And I'll admit it's not what anyone expected
I'm not trying to test it, just don't say that it's love yeah
Just don't say that it's love, my baby girl

Fine Line

Do you ever hate who you are?
Looking in the mirror this far
Lately, I hate what I do, what I say, what I wear
And just know it's been hard
To be me when I don't feel myself
Does anybody care to know
All my fears and insecurities
Or maybe I'll just go, yeah

Changin', changin' everyday 
Whether we look for it
We're locked in
Deal with it anyway
Better prepare for the summer
'Cause it's gon' hurt, yeah
So whatever you do, don't make it worse

Yeah, this is life after June
Yeah, this is me without you

I remember sittin' in the car
Wonder what it is, who we are
Wonder if we lost the spark
Can we light it again
And if I bring it back up will we fight again?

I love it when you call unexpected
Pick up right back where we left it
And if you wanna set it down for a little while, it's cool
'Cause I know you know me, and you know I know you

Changin', changin' everyday 
Whether we look for it
We're locked in
Deal with it anyway
I'm gonna pray for the best
But expect the worst, yeah
'Cause even if it's right, it still can hurt

Yeah, this is life after June
Yeah, this is me without you

I talked to Ant about a future without you in it
Saying what I'm thinking
Thinking bad thoughts
Scared that I'm sinking
Hard to put it in to words
But I know that you'd listen
That's how it felt from the very beginning
And I take it slow
I do my thing, and as far as we go
You mean well, we'll just see how it goes
I feel blessed to death
Just to know I know you
And while you're over there girl,
I thought I'd show ya
How everything's been since you left
Man, I play it back
I spend a lot of time wonder if we get it back
I hit the same spots, doing all the things we did
Still get a small black coffee with no cream in it
Server at the diner always wonder where you at
"Man, I said she moved to L.A., I don't know when she'll be back"
She said "She pretty, right?"
"Yeah," I said, "She more than that."
Yeah, I can't wait to see what you do.

This is life after June
This is me without you

Artwork by @antsmith_

Life After June

Start my car 
Check my mirrors
And drive anywhere but here

Isn't it funny how I can't think of a place to go?
And since you left, what we call home
It ain't home no more

I'm played out
It gets old
And left out, yeah
It gets cold

Hard to feel what we choose
I see red, and feel blue
Isn't it strange the pain don't feel like it felt before?
Picture a world where you're not my girl
(And) I'm no longer yours

I'm played out
It gets old
And left out, yeah
It gets cold

Oh, we just gotta let that timin' pass
I know, yes I know
Baby, it's hard
Hard to watch you from a screen that
I can barely feel and I don't need that
Know I'll always love you
Know I mean that
Don't you know?

I'm played out
It gets old
And left out, yeah
It gets cold, ooh I'm so cold

So cold

Artwork by @antsmith_