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guardin

guardin ⭐

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//私は奇妙です//

thank you guys for everything. these past six months have been the weirdest journey of my life, but it's all led up to this moment right now & i wouldn't trade it for the world. i love you guys 

i'm also proud to announce this track is an exclusive release from an ep i did with my homies over at av records (333, vague003, killedmyself, kryptik, white shinobi, elijah who & of course aden & dk) called "broken feelings". you can check that out on spotify below.

https://open.spotify.com/album/0A3YC0hhlyMXR7J4TLxqcR

spotify

yesterday

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//私の心の断片//

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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

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//私はコントロールを失う//

s/o to two of my favorite people 
@convolk
@hatefulbeats

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guardin
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this is the last time you'll see me
believe me
or not
i don't really care
drove by in my van & she wasn't even there
i'm fallin' apart while you're playing with his hair
probably gonna fuck but do you even dare
a lot of people say i'm losing control
i think i know where i should go
fuck sleep i don't ever wanna let go
don't let go

convolk
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under the bed
the pillows and sheets
get out of my head
i wander the streets
it's easy to see
the blood that we bleed
i'm not meant for you
you're not meant for me

i guess this is it
we’ll cry til we’re sick
i'm hitting continue
and you’re hitting quit
i'll go one way
and you’ll go the other
this is the last time
we’ll speak to another

photos of you
i threw them away
but i cant throw away the memories
at least now we’re done pretending
after all the times we said things
ok

follow hateful

photos of you (feat. convolk)(prod. by hateful)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

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//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

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this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

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//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

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//それを明るくする//

follow the homie taylor morgan 
@taylor

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addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i got you on my mind girl
& this time i'll rewind till you're my girl
life sucks waking up let my mind whirl
scroll down on your page & i might hurl
i hate when i do this to myself
write about a girl that's detrimental to my health
lost inside a state of mind where talkings only hell
and the closer that we get i lose my grip and start to yell 
i lose my shit quite often off in august on my cell
when i hit you up and told you that i'm outside of my shell
i hate the way you say you're fine
and i can tell it's just a lie
i'd wipe the tears right out your eyes
but we've already met our demise
so

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

i'm not your enemy
i'm just a boy
you've got your friends
you say you're doing fine
but i can tell you're wrong despite
the way he kisses you at night
your smile shines so fucking bright
i think i need another light

addicted
yeah i'm fucked up
sick of loving someone new
i'll fix it
no i won't but
at least i try and try until
you drop me back off at my house
and i call up my friends and they all gotta bounce
all alone with an ounce
imma smoke till i cry
with my eyes to the sky
i got you on my mind girl

follow taylor morgan

addicted (prod. by taylor morgan)

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//安定したあなたの呼吸//

i can't begin to thank you guys enough for everything we've accomplished, even just this year alone. i never imagined i would reach this point, but i am incredibly grateful of it & i promise it's only up from here. i'm sorry for a lack of releases lately, but i've kept busy with touring & meeting all of you beautiful people & i can't wait to do it again with these tours comin' up next year. i love you guys.

merry christmas <3

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now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

i've been livin' my life to the fullest
anxiety comes but it won't sit 
got tossed in the bag but it won't zip
cause i killed my mind all in one hit
blast to the past & i feel it
the days we put stars on our ceilings
the tape on my hearts always peeling
and i do not find that appealing
so maybe i
contemplate strategize ways to ease my mind
sit awake and i bake all through the night
touch base with your face being close to mine
and maybe you
can't sleep cause your dreams never seem to soothe
so you spark in the dark tryna make your move
touch me & i fall but i play it cool

(lost in your embrace and i'm longing for your taste love
said we'd runaway but you hardly ever say much)

now that i'm back on the road
you're in your bed all alone
it's alright i'm doing okay
and in my mind you're in the doorway
now that i'm back in my zone
i smoke till my seams come unsewn
you could not take this away from me
you could not take this away from me
work so damn hard on my own
sit in my bedroom alone
i did this shit all in one take
you could not touch what i'm on mate
steady your breathing it's cold
and your eyes are made out of coal
crying but your tears are snowflakes
and this car that's comin' got no breaks

snowflakes

Suffer On

Put Me In Graves

Contact

I Need Help

Crushed

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//再試行する//

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https://traktrain.com/prodjody
https://www.instagram.com/prod.jody
https://twitter.com/prodjody

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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

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why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

stupid

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go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

follow dj khaled's son

again (prod. dj khaled's son)

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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

follow caspr

alive (prod. caspr)

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so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

inside of my dreams
talk on the phone till i'm falling asleep
you say i love you & i hear the beep
i get to thinking & dive in too deep
lost in a dream
i disconnect & start grinding my teeth
i see him smile, your lips start to meet
i close my eyes & accept my defeat


so let's go
to that party down the road
get so damn faded, sedated to subdue the stress
and down the whole bottle to forget the rest
i don't really know where i will go
talk to me baby, just don't fall asleep
i see you some days inside of my dreams

when she talks to me
cue the voice in my head
when she dodges me
kill the ghost in my bed
(x2)

Guardin - Snooze [unreleased]

iris