s/o emptychest

"escape getting shit-faced on a thursday"

prod. kuroime

worst w/ emptychest (kuroime)

Anxiety

(well, december is really getting colder isn't it?)

ur gonna b the death of me
give me space oh i cant breathe
negative temperature got cold feet
cant get out of my room i think ill freeze

dont wanna go out 
dont wanna see 
all of those ppl 
how they stare at me 
i don't need ur help
i don't need ur simpathy  
how am i alive when life's trying to kill
where's the motivation i'm not feelin it
so many problems shit i think i'll sink
they ask why i hurt myself and if it's cause i like it 
i simply do it so i can feel something
the numbness in my body is takin over
im afraid i'll stay this way as i grow older 
i wish i could start over december is really getting colder

decembr. (ʎpoqou)

(i say, every day
i been shaking, every day
just a mess, in my brain
in my face, you make me ashamed x2)

but you called me in the right time
in the night time, wishing for a red light
so i can cross over to you, inside ur new life
100 years is like our cap, i mean, i realize

i cant live, forever
i wish, this world was, better
instead, i am scared of, the times
that i might be gone, and not realize


i coulda done so much better
instead i hope she doesn't leave, ohhhh
i cant imagine
a life without, ur loving, and your kisses, they all mine

my life was fuckin horrible, took time and really tried
to be good by myself cant take the pressure, the meantime
im holding up myself, just like a king, i did it well

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teddy
------

i wish you didn't spend your time
throwing up cuz you're so damn high
mixing pills with the liquor
as a pastime
lacing the trust i had for you, with anger and lies
i miss you but i don't miss you
i should've done better, but i was in love with every one of your issues
because we shared them
no sobriety in moments that we carried them
every memory, and moment, imma bury it
cause all you are is a blast to the past
ion mean it like that, you're just bad for me
im bad for you too, mixing drugs with you
i should've let you go 
when it was long 
overdue

I Could've Done So Much Better w/ teddyboi (prod.ural)

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated 

i get angry i get mad over heated
had to turn to drugs cause i was seeing demons
pressure in my heart yeah i keep on bleeding 
still waiting for you to come home again
to complete my healing 
times going fast haven't seen you for seasons
didn't take any pictures cause i didn't think i'll need them
can't look through my memories cause i burnt them for treason 

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated x2

what could of been?  
you kept me the dark like an eyesore 
you hid me away from reality
got me thinking why your still fucking mad at me 

why your still fucking mad at me?
i tried my best yeah i tried fucking everything 
you don't know me
you don't know me
you don't know me
part of me feels like I'm just a phoney

animated (jolst)

prod. sunshowers

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else?! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away!, stay away!,
theres something thats been off today..
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days.
i cant see any how else
no way.. !
people tell me how else

i know this isn't, and i know youre kidding
you took!,-
damn near everything i had to barely call myself
i cant stand myself! <3
drowning in myself! < / 3
I DONT NEED NO HELP!
thats what i told myse-e-elf. . ...

ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ǝɯ llǝʇ ǝsɐǝld
ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ʎuɐ ǝǝs ʇuɐɔ ᴉ
to get out of this mess,
to get out of my head,
i think i just need rest..

i cant see any how else
...
people tell me how else
...
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week. .

yh, yh,
get away, GET AWAY,
I really fucking h*te this place!
im changing up my day today,
and i know it wont change anything at all♡..
i try, i guess, but who am i?
fuck all the complications,
read the text, now my heart's racing!
hideaway, hideaway, yh :c
its time to question everything, yh!! ;c
dont turn back now,
you can slow down,
smoke that roach now,
blow that smoke out,
to clear my mind drought,
set the sun out..

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away, stay away,
theres something thats been off today
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days
no, way..

last week

wizard one oh one (eric godlow)

lyrics ⬇️ :))).    PROD GREENWOOD.

talk to myself on the daily
Switch up my mood got me shaking
you swore it’s the truth never makin sense
i wish u could call you my baby
But lately
you and I have both been failing
you never used to talk to my friends like that
now everywhere I go I gotta watch my back
look at my surroundings 
I think they’re approaching
now they gotta bounty on me
Idc low care
I’m not one to run away so you gon have to face me
maybe there’s another day where you will get to play me
or play me not
If you watch me rot away will I be worth a shot
Prolly not because I change every day when your gone
so let’s be honest 
you been breakin me down
you left a promise but there was nothing found

decks 🐐

i broke a promise to ya honestly i never thought
that it would change everything that i thought i knew and i
fought the battle but the war was too much all along
i still remember all those nights out on the promenade
and i wish that i could take it all back
i see the message in the pitch black
never good, its always bad, how do you live like that?
several months and now you're asking for a little back

greenwood 🐐

two weeks could you call back?
looking outside of the pain but it's all that
i don't want hope cause i'm holding it so bad
just to find out in the end that it don't last
don't ask questions i don't want new friends
got old ones but they pretend
so i'm paranoid for the weekend
might disappear just to free them, fuck

slow burn surrounding it
with a subtle breath i'm wearing thin these days
suddenly so attached
up in the place i'm at
summer had come so fast
wanted to stop so bad

play me, or play me not w/ decks & greenwood

First Verse - Giovanni
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Female Vocals - Lola Scott
the talented Lola can be followed - 
https://linktr.ee/lolascottmusic?fbclid=PAAaa1Itkni012FLWB4Tv3OQe61fcblzy979l2iWc-dvwAo053hCT3ARjGO_Q

 co-produced - Nuxe
 Nuxebeats can be followed here - https://linktr.ee/Nuxebeats?fbclid=PAAaaQh3lFt1-BT6b_kYqHJJKbZvus5-8ybm9eoAnwJcc1x0gpzDm0PRXoR6A


Artwork done by gaterztattoo (my sister and tattoo artist) - 
https://instagram.com/gaterztattoo?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

Alora w/ Giovanni (ft. Lola Scott)


fun fact - i named this song after my cat

Guardin - Snooze [unreleased]

iris