movie sample : bull durham (i recommend)

lyrics
i think itd be better if i stopped breathing 
how u take your time will ot stop the bleeding
oh i tried to recognize and it just left me healing
ur face appears in dreams n i cant handle what im seeing

oh i let it slip out my grasp
i take another sip from the flask
maybe if im drunk ill relax
maybe when im dead this will pass

i cannot forget u
i shouldnt have met u
im giving myself room
but that wasnt for you
it happens like time and time again
when this is over can we be friends

how can i rationalize
the shit that goes on in ur mind
i thought i saw but it turns out im blind
give it some time
ill be fed to the mice

ok , you win .  (wraithontheporch)

Lyrics-

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me 

 I just  can’t escape 
All of the calamity thrown in my face 
Shit I got enough on my plate 
But i eat it up and dont leave non to waste 
And honestly id rather rot in this hell
Than ever step foot inch’s out of my shell
Im comfortable here as if you couldn’t tell 
Now I’m getting tired of repeating myself 

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me

calamity p. wraithontheporch

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

Lyrics⬇️

its not a coincidence that i ruin everything in life
maybe if i just applied myself then they would think I tried 

i cant get myself to try if i dont think i have anything i should live for
why dont i just do more
cuz i spent way too many cold nights on the floorboards
i wish i could restore
i wish i could feel more

but i been stuck like this for longer than you know 
i dont feel like anybody even thinks that i could grow
cuz its been like this forever i dont see a place to go
i dont think that its been better but i swear that i can hope
i wish that you saw my life through my eyes and then you’d know 
that every single night since you been gone i felt broke
& i dont even tell you why i love myself, i dont
cuz i dont even tell you that i trust myself, i dont

i check my phone
its jus like a 100 messages to come home
i dont wanna do that anytime id rather be alone
 i been chillin on my own
im still happy what i chose

back then i swear i would do the most
and nowdays im not even close but you still think ill overdose

and it dont matter what i say if you dont think ill ever know
just how you really feel every time i touch the stove

all my cells have been straight burned from all the stuff inside my body
clearly i been stuck on every oerson who ever turned on me

please dont stab my back
i would rather do anything just to hear ur laugh
again 
i would do everything i never did up inside my head
i was stuck up in my bed everytime you time you said im next up
i dont wanna hear u tell me that im just the best of 3
bet those 2 other people had everything over me

best of 3 (mackk)

Vocals, Mix & Master by @alex-thomas-fox
Produced by @everythingmackk
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Amy Rose / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CqJG0Qzo-E

lyrics:
It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

Late nights, replayin’ all the damage I made
Cut too deep, but I swear I never meant it that way
Tried to stitch it up, but the scars still stay
I keep losing love in the games I play

I hate the silence, it’s louder than the fight
Wish I could rewind and make it all right
But every broken promise is stuck in your eyes
And I can’t hide the truth behind all my lies

It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

I never wanted to hurt you
I just didn’t know what words do
Now I’m drowning in the fallout
Praying you won’t shut me out
I’d give anything to change this
Erase the pain, rearrange it
But I’m stuck inside the mess I made
And I know I might have lost you

vails - lost you (everythingmackk)

ty ne'erdowell goat for always helping me fix my dogshit mix

lyrics

-Wraith-
Girl don’t you know that
The words you have spoken
Throwing emotion
Are heavy and potent

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

I guess we don't get a happy ending
After all
All that happens always has to have the 
curtains fall
All the tragedy I kill away with alcohol
Try to numb the fucking feelings ‘fore I end it all

Dead on an impulse
Hate all my wishful
Thoughts cause I’m sinking
Right through the soil
Right through the armor
I thought I could guard her
Just another missed call
I can’t ever bother

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

-yungcray-
all the damage that you done
you pierced right through my chest plate
I could never let you go
but if I did I might fade
ur the last piece to the puzzle
ur the key to get out the maze
and in my dreams I see the fire
im trapped below the rubble

I cant seem to help myself
I get into this trouble
is it hard 2 love me now 
got bruises on my knuckles
this shit seems 2 really get the fucking best of me
I cant seem 2 help myself
I get into this trouble

a new high
I said imma reach a new high
a new lie
that you're telling under blue skies
its alright
I said imma do my best to try
a blue night
I said imma reach a new high

I really want whats best for us
but you just think about yourself
you don't care about it
but its all I think about

theres no escape from this place 
I think we'll die here
what is love
its just fake
you said you'd try here

recoil w/ yungcray (dash)

Shout out dash for making 10/10 beats 

Lyrics - 

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

Ghost in the cut I don’t do no loud
Keep my head down but I still draw crowds
Lames talk slick but they all want clout
Slide through slow make the whole hood doubt

Tags on my toes not clothes that’s death
Ridin with a piece I don’t need no vest
Chrome on the hip make em freeze no flex
Came from the mud I ain’t pressed bout checks

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

rise n shrine p. dash

prod by stezzyxl
w/ hvci
w/ xav0id

enjoy

lyrics:
every step i take
every song i made
was never close enough to heal the stains around my name
every lie i made
with every smile i faked
was never close enough to heal the wounds inside my veins

i open up, but they just always shut the door
i never speak to anyone like anymore
i lost my friends, and then my heart along the floor
i sweared to myself not to end up like before

3 am in the morning
i can barely sleep tonight
my body is giving me warnings
day by day, my chest is tight
i’ve been though it
i’ll be fine
swear to god i’ll be alright
ive been though it
i’m alright
swear to god ill be all fine

the air so thick
it grabs my throat
and i cannot breathe
something don’t click
brushing off my shoulders
i’ve been here, i do admit
looking at my options
have no choice, but too destroy
melancholy love
melancholy love
i try to avoid

(xavoid - )
quiet glass
worn thin
city hum
low and dim
lines shift under low light
hours fold into night
cold rain on empty streets
shapes dissolve where walls meet
breath slows in vacant air
holding onto something rare

names drift past like quiet streams
tracing edges of my dreams
your voice lingers in the hush
like the last page of a rush
windows hold a silver stain
footsteps fade but leave the pain
each moment bends into a line
folded under time’s design

(hvci - )
i like your style
but it’s a crooked mile
tears stitch awhile
beneath the exile
i like your style
but it’s a crooked mile
tears stitch awhile
beneath the exile

melancholy w/ xav0id & hvci

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rise n shrine p. dash

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