Please get your songs off my spotify account. They are still showing up as mine. PLEASE.

You have no idea how much i love this like fr odmbdbfhf yes

there is no way to save me, right?
✦hope u enjoy :) i really appreciate everyone listening 2 my stuff and supporting me. this means the world to me <3 more to come!✦
 
lyrics
--------
couldn't be the only one
demon's on my shoulder
don't try coming back to me
know it's not my fault yeah
all i wanted was 4 u to see me
believe me, baby, it wasn't this easy
everyday gets worse
and i feel like i lost so much
and me im on a road
feeling like im losing touch
couldve had it all
but i had to be myself
and i ruined it again
how im always fucking up shit..

all the time i spent 
it was such a waste
*it was a waste it was a waste*
i can't forgive myself for that
i don't think ill be able to
im still thinking about it
thinking bout the days we had
but it's over
''gotta get that shit back''
it's gone..
why do i keep on looking back at it?
and i just feel that
u hate me it's so..
air is thick around her
i can't see it's just like..
around them i feel so unsafe
i feel like they gon' hurt me
why did it have to come to this?
you never told me anyways

couldn't be the only one
demon's on my shoulder
don't try coming back to me
know it's not my fault yeah
all i wanted was 4 u to see me
believe me, baby, it wasn't this easy
everyday gets worse
and i feel like i lost so much
and me im on a road
feeling like im losing touch
couldve had it all
but i had to be myself
and i ruined it again
how im always fucking up shit..

how im always fucking up shit
it's always the same shit
they get tired of me
what am i risking?
i already lost it..
baby can u help me
i know that shit's not right
but she believes it is
all that i wanted wasn't unwanted
all that i seek should soon be mine
fuck u get out of my way now
i don't wanna talk 2 u u're like the others

if the old me saw me he would fucking laugh
''you became what you never wanted to become''
are u right? is this real?
where the fuck did you go
im dying please pick up the phone
＊ＩＭ　ＤＹＩＮＧ　ＩＭ　ＤＹＩＮＧ＊
im dying please pick up the phone..

amv <3

ALL I WANTED (altery)

hope u like it !! <33
prod - @johnnyfriend & me <3
mix - me ^^

im scared u'll hate me
does that make me crazy?
yeah, is there something wrong with u?
what are u going through?
and i still stay up late
wondering what to say

pulling pedals off of roses
telling me i'm hopeless
u think that i don't notice?
i'd rather use a lotus, oh

where do i go from here?
i'm missing u my dear
i fear that the end is near
but it's okay
in no way
will it hurt me
leaves keep falling down
and i don't know this town

memories lurk, always in the dirt
i'll tell ur man that he's the worst
and seeing u two always hurts
and now i'm fighting them all
i have nobody to call
and i'm pushed up a wall
how do i stay calm?

what could i do?
i, i never had a clue
but i'll fight this one for u
(oooh)

im scared u'll hate me
does that make me crazy?
yeah, is there something wrong with u?
what are u going through?
and i still stay up late
wondering what to say

and i'm trying to make sense
but i'm brainless
yeah, when ypu're giving me a kiss
it isn't painless
yeah, and everything you did
it was so shameless
woah, and i'm pretty sure u
get the fucking premise
i can't reminisce, no

im new here // prod. johnnyfriend & ctr1s

@55depths
@silentcxbin
@failure404
produced by me.
EP art by cxbin!

off of the COGNIZANT EP with silentcxbin!

lyrics:
(dth)
you think you know me
but you knew me
face it
while i'm lost in the darkness
and tracing my own chalk outline on the pavement
you must be dreaming
to think
that i'll take this
while i listen to you
exposing the truth in your own self hatred

is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

(epitomeoffailure)
i know you know that i can't stay
these racing thoughts have been
plaguing my brain
oh how i wish things would
stay the same
now i'm in pain
i have seen better days
i remember when things were simple
now every day just feels like a struggle
to know my place
and where i belong
when half the time
i don't know what's going on

(cxbin)
if i fall will i land?
well take me back to eden
place your bet
draw your hand
but still there never even

okay ya your walking now
okay ill just go on bout
don't wanna sit and pout now
don't wanna be around now

sell my soul
the scripture already written
don't think twice
but maybe i should listen
fucked up now
can't get out the kitchen
shoot at me 
got plenty ammunition
unload rounds in me
in my chest
keeps me down
from doing my best
i'm a stupid fuck
its all in my head
well that's what you wanted right?

(dth)
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that
is this what you want to be when i come back?
things have been tough here too
and you know that
i know you know that

tough w/ epitomeoffailure and silentcxbin

got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

i made this 7 months ago and still  kind of hate my part
@karoisnotok killed it ty to @starsbeforesunrise as well for making the drop <33

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMrf88KA_aQ
BITEKI VID ^^^^^^^^^^
lyrics~

(kryst3n)
you came to me w some real lies
i walked out before i realized
that i couldnt live wout u
say imma change but i  never get around to
keep telling me how i messed up
im sorry that i couldnt get the best of u
now ive been tryna keep my head up
its not that hard when ur not breathing down my neck

now im stuck in bed wout u
im sorry i ever shout at u
now im stuck inside a cloudy room
im sorry i ever doubted u

(karo)
could u tell me
how to avoid all the drowning
would you help me
if you saw that i was the one drowning
liike ur favorite season u are ice cold
i feel like ur one that i might hold
every day i feel im on a tight rope
every time we talk i get the eyeroll
told u i am not enough u didnt listen
now ur running off sayin u are quiting
now u wanna talk to me like tell me whats the difference
just take a second and look at the distance
right up between us
angry red phoenix
talking like u mean it but u dont really mean us
and nothing comes between us
pull strings like a seamstress
everybody talking but not one of them have seen us

around2 ft okay karo p king theta, starsbeforesunrise

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

the waiting game's begun 
so i can't talk a lot
she's got it figured out
while i'm left in the dark
there's no escaping me
i'm bound to my own fears
'cause this is who i am 
i've been like this for years

do you think that i'll change?
'cause i'm so scared i won't
i know it's up to me
but i can't be on my own
affliction takes ahold
and punctures through my face
i wanna hide my soul
but i can't erase mistakes

dysregulation in the dome 
disadvantaged and alone 
nobody ever checks on me
'cause they know i'm out of hope
why do i take up this space? 
i'm not worthy, i'm afraid
how can i make it more clear that
i'm never really okay?

right from the start, i was a mess 
there was no saving me 
i took it all straight to the heart 
now i've got jealousy
the greenest eyes you've ever seen
staring carefully
i'm sorry that i'm not that strong 
my heart forsakens thee

uncertainty has guaranteed my futility
i'm like a tree stuck in the dark 
suffering and steep 
and while i'm stuck behind a screen 
there's no agency
i've come to realize i'm not free 
there is no release

i came on too strong 
but how is that wrong?
i can't help it if i have a heart
that's full of love
fuck what they all say 
i'm borderline insane
i wouldn't get close to me
if i were you, i'd run away

i'm a liability
i burden those close to me 
don't you ever feel like you're the
only one who's lost at sea?
reading all your messages 
feel the sting inside my chest 
pace around my room until i
write off every word you said

even if i was found dead
i'd hope that you won't regret 
everything you never said
i don't want that in your head

at the end of the day 
i still care about you
regardless of our statuses
i know you'll find truth
the boundaries we put in place
will keep us en route 
we all change, but honestly 
we can't forget our roots

-----

anima

prod by pablo worldwide + jolst
mix & master by @silentcxbin

###LYRICS###
life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

you a lame get up out my face 
Worried bout my payment 
I just hit the bank 
I leveled up like everyday since
hell rain down, pussy boy 
I’m already aimed in 
1v1 when I’m alone 
I’ll leave ya brain dead,

I fuck it up 
could come in clutch 
if you need me
I’m tryna fly down to LA 
for da weekend 
we know he soft 
he not hard 
he act like cement,

He DOA 
I leave his body 
on the pavement 

new AIM 
just to walk up 
an then spray it 
woke up with a vendetta
on my note list 
I hate going out in public 
cause they’ll notice 
why am I so fucking anxious 
can’t hold it

a thermal scope 
on a SIG
Ima hunt for gold
I catch you walking 
in the road
you getting domed
you all alone
bitch I treat that laser 
like my arm
you ain't making it home
you MIA all along

life goes on
no time to be sad 
bite my tongue 
fuck that
no time to be mad 
and you always have a issue 
I could see it in your face 
wtf you hating cabin for ?
cause you don’t feel the same ?
have you laid in the grass 
did the Trees feel safe 
do you have some where 
to call home ?
are you feeling grey? 
have you seen the sunshine 
do it even feel the same 
I just sit in a shame 
while my body rot decay

la vie suit son court

life goes on (pablo worldwide + jolst)

i hope u the worst ft ghostsocial (prod. grayskies)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2rnm5P6cPV4kvIzaJPOHgH?si=v3kbUFqFQoutB0wWlgdkfw
prod: @daywxtch
guitar sample: skiwyy.wav
mixed/mastered: @daywxcth
written: @daywxtch
-------------------------------------
lyrics:
i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i'll cover my ears, it's hard to say
"i'm looking for an accomplice, someone to harness, someone to carry the grief for me"
who am i gonna call?
who am i gonna call?
i'm so sick of being harmed
i'm so sick running around, dancing around, looking at frowns
that people give me for being around
someone tell me what i'm living for
tell me why i breathe
if not for me then who

i'm due for the extinction
crazy like patrick bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry, still needing more
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands
i see your face getting red
i see the blood on your hands

i think i need help
i think i need a spark
if i really held your hand
𝔦 𝔴𝔞𝔫𝔱 𝔱𝔬 𝔞𝔰𝔨 𝔣𝔬𝔯 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰
would you hold on tight? or let it go?

my life prone to extinction
crazy like i was bateman
i need light, need a torch
hungry still needing more
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-
ʜᴀɴᴅꜱ
i seen your face get red
i see the blood on your-

i don't know if i can love you
the way that i should
i hate being on my own
i hate being honest with you

i can't talk to you, i'm too afraid
i cover my ears...
it's hard to say
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INSPO:
https://soundcloud.com/heylog/closure
https://soundcloud.com/sleepywater/woodlouse
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thanks for listening & reading <3

robby

[LYRICS]
you put me in overdrive 
i don’t want to waste the night 
and you keep cutting deep with those eyes 
and i keep losing sleep by your side 
can you breathe me in slow slow 
can you put on a show show 
cause you’re perfectly perfect 
and i’m perfectly imperfect 
don’t hesitate to put me back in my place 
youre wrapped around my waist 
and you deserve all the praise 

jealousy is slowly killin me 
i wanna be just like her
she’s a diamond im dirt 
she’s like the version of me 
the one that i couldn’t be 
now she’s under my arm 
i’m hoping i don’t break her heart 
and when the world is facing doom 
i wanna waste away with you

you put me in overdrive 
i don’t want to waste the night 
and you keep cutting deep with those eyes 
and i keep losing sleep by your side 
can you breathe me in slow slow 
can you put on a show show 
cause you’re perfectly perfect 
and i’m perfectly imperfect 
don’t hesitate to put me back in my place 
youre wrapped around my waist 
and you deserve all the praise

OVERDRIVE

OVERDRIVE [qyurisuu]

[LYRICS]
i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

don’t wanna remember the end of the night
i was so fucked up i thought i would die 
i guess there’s a reason why im still alive
but i feel like there’s something missing inside
baby im so alone
i party with ghosts
you’ll never see them and you’ll never know
but that’s how it goes
when you’re diagnosed 
i need a drink i need a dose 
so what if i fuck up my life 
so what if im fallin behind 
i don’t think i wanna live 
i couldn’t do this again 
oh no please don’t leave me in here
(im prayin prayin)
sitting in silence 
my tongue i bite it
i been out wilding
getting lit till im dying 
i’m dying

i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

thank u to @nokerbforever for mastering this song and thank you to everyone who sticks around to listen :3
this song is about my struggles with alcoholism so its a bit personal but hope u enjoy!

PARTY4GHOST

PARTY4GHOST [branwen x ryini beats]

( う-´)づ︻╦̵̵̿╤──       ｡ﾟ･（>﹏<🩹）･ﾟ｡

im new here // prod. johnnyfriend & ctr1s

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