yayayayaya im thinking less abt u but still thinking abt u

closure (it's over)

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Prod. by Misery

Misery's Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvSMLAQ8-6Fmj68haqD_J2Q

Engineered by Davo

Davo's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/davo_the_engineer/

Lyrics: 

Dad I'm always missing you
I just wish we could talk
Dad I'm always missing you
you helped me on life's walk

Mom you've been so strong
And oh how far you've come
I still keep doing wrong
Making mistakes I wish they were done
I've been so selfish
And we've both felt helpless
I know life has been hectic
But I know where we're headed
I'll forever be indebted
I love you more than you know
but wouldn't have guessed it
I've been living so reckless
I'll give you everything you've wanted
To pay you back for all you've funded
your time and your happiness
I know you want me to succeed
I'm sorry I haven't been compassionate
A mother knows what a son needs
And you see that I'm passionate

I'm sorry to everyone I've let down
I've been on the edge but need to get down

My heart is screaming
Lost in dark but I'm dreaming
Neon glow has me beaming
Pray to God I find meaning
I've been fighting off hate
I've been fighting these demons
I've been fighting off hate
they want me gone for so many reasons

(Late nights in my head
Make it through thoughts of dread
contemplating being dead
but this hurt won't make me beg
this misery won't win
this uncertainty will die
along with my sins) x2

Sorry (Prod. By Misery)

w/ reki lee 霊気

reki lee 霊気 / the blame. - worth fixing

Mixed by @prodbyshattered
For those going to wonder, this isn't a form of a suicide note. This was when I was going through a very rough point in my life and decided to write them down to put it into words. Everyone seems to love when mine and shattered's lyrics layer over one another so here you go. 

Lyrics: Kiasu & Shattered 
My broken heart can't be mended together 
Who made it worse I can't remember 
Cold winter breeze flying through my sweater
The snow reminds me when times were better

So bye bye to the people that knew me 
And hello to the new life I seek 

I can't hold all this weight like concrete 
I can't bare to stand on my own two damn feet
It's slowly driving me six feet deep 
Drive the nail inside the coffin, the roses are pricking me 
Crows flying in the sky 
I'll see them when i'm dead 
The reapers come to take my soul and that's the end of it 
But it's just me, a system of memories 
No one will miss me 
Well, maybe my family 

So bye bye to the people that knew me...

Not So Happy Ending Kixsu X Shattered (Prod. Dead-Rou)

you're the reason why I stay inside

(available on spotify + apple music)


lyrics:

[c]


this coast let you go for the west coast
you're finally home for a fleeting moment
that we share in an hourglass

but i shattered it, the sand poured at my feet 
embrace my toes in the warmth
of knowing that the time is ours to pass


[v]


disposable pictures
film burned elixirs
of spicy tequila and vices i miss

picking up pieces 
of nights way too blurry
you end up with sorries i hope you'll forgive

bright like a diamond and
sprawled like a sunset
across the emotional canvas i live   

streets of my hometown
dragging my heart through
pockets nostalgia filled to the brim


[b]

  
take my hand and show me
things i never thought we'd
ever get a chance to, see..

take my hand and show me
all about the new you
do you like the newer me?


[C]

spotify

finally home (prod. hxrsepowr)

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🇸​🇭​🇴​🇼​ 🇱​🇴​🇻​🇪​ 🇹​🇴​ @remghost

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god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

your warm arms wit the night sky,
nothing better as time goes byyy༄
blurred out by your screamin cry,
another damn thing i didnt do right
im sorry! what else can i say,
im trying my best please give me some space!
im sorry! and i dont wanna lose us, but
maybe its best if we lost our trust

god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

ℴℴℴℴℴℴ, whats the difference?
ℴℴℴℴℴℴℴ, i dont see it!

god dammit, im so torn like cant you tell
didnt mean to fall in luv needa break the spell :(
cant trust my feelings when they just bring me hell
even through all my faults, i hope your doin well ♥
im lost what am i seeing?
all the signs like whats the meaning
walk between the lines of this bitter sweetness
luv n pain like whats the difference

whats the difference x3
will you show me then?
whats the difference x2
no more questions, dont wanna feel again..

mix/master by @ddeadroses

stream nowღ

bitter sweetness (prod. by remghost)

mix/master: kam michael
prod: boyfifty

all platforms: https://listen.lt/ParadoxEmpty1

Empty

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empty (prod. boyfifty)

Mix/master/art: tokes

~lyrics~

This pain it won’t subside 

This pain it won’t let down 

I know it ain’t my time 

but I’m not not sure I won’t be 6 feet in the ground 

This pain it won’t subside (pain it won’t subside)

I got some issues I can’t deal with them all the time 

I know I write my rhymes (know I write my rhymes)

But I can’t do it with these people asking why 

Why would I ever make a song for you? 

I’m making this for me, help what Im going through

and it’s possible to help others too 

So ima write my words until the day I’m blue 

Till the day I’m turning blue 

Losing braincells w my crew 

Smoking backwoods filled w goo

cloudy piss we poppin 2’s 

Come and tell me what you’d do 

If this life was up to you 

Lost my brothers got no crew
 
But still I’m catching hate from you 

This pain it won’t subside (pain it won’t subside)

I got some issues I can’t face them in the night

I know I write my rhymes (know I write my rhymes)

But everybody comes around me asking why

Uneasy Prod Taurs X Iof

Talk a lot, it never seems to stop,
nothing ever matters when your head is on top,
I cannot see straight, tell myself to calm down,
you don't wanna reason, too much for me right now.

Find peace in thinking of myself in the ground,
scars around me, but they'll never be found,
I scream and scream, my family can't hear a sound,
no one around me now...

I'd give you the world,
if that's all you want,
it's really not much,
my loves not enough.

Im not letting this go,
you have someone, I got no one to hold, so,

Scars (prod. Irby)

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