this song really grew on me in the best way

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all proceeds from this release will go to the National Alliance to End Homelessness (https://endhomelessness.org/)

vocals:
@saoirsedream
@wishlane
@itstooscar
@e7ellie
@scooter_boi_musick
@can-of-bliss
@bhproducer
@t0rr
@nebita

production:
@t0rr
@nebita
@st1cksyea
@draf2k
@itstooscar
@soupandreas
@can-of-bliss
@user-607541836
@acloudyskye
@dylazy
@wishlane
@dossyx
@saoirsedream
@musicbyrift

freakout

Bandcamp

lets leave

Prod. @glitch-gum

Haven't slept right in several days, stomach in knots
(Oh catch me now)
Sore with back pain, my wings will grow or they'll fall off
(I'm still here)
I'm steering my brain but you can still tell when I fall off
A stray cat is riding my train, my tongue is going places I'm not
And did you break mirrors to see yourself just cascade down?
Kill reflections to know what it's like to touch the ground?
I'm sorry icarus I know you told me not to now
But I can't go another beat in this direction no
When the sun sets which beam hurts the most?
You tryna call me ugly by tryna reach above me
And I know my head's always a stepping stone
Do you go left or go right? You promised you would never bite

But I can't wait another day and stay here begging just to go back home
And I've been waiting to be crowned the king so father help me
Made it all
Stars kill me in dreams and daymares leave me all alone
I'm just a guest in this manor can you show me the way back home?
But I can't wait another day and stay here begging just to go back home
And I've been waiting to be crowned the king so father help me watch the throne
Stars kill me in dreams and daymares leave me all alone
I'm just a guest in this manor can you show me the way back home?

Why does it hurt?
It hurt
It hurt 
It hurt
Why does it hurt?
It hurt
It hurt 
It hurt
Why
Hurt 
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Why does it hurt?
Hurt
Hurt
It hurt hurt hurt hurt

Starlight starlight ghosting in the nighttime
Carlights apologize distance and sorry satellites
Satellites just saying hi why does it hurt to say goodbye?
And I think everything will be just fine
(Say goodnight burdensome you scare me when you just say hi)
Starlight starlight ghosting in the nighttime
Carlights apologize distance and sorry satellites
Satellites just saying hi why does it hurt to say goodbye?
And I think everything will be just fine
(Say goodnight burdensome you scare me when you just say hi)

And I could never trust you sincerely 
Oh my god I don't think you love me
Be sure you sign your letters with tears please
I'm just a guest in this manor can you show me the way back home?

Daedalus (prod. Glitch Gum)

our characters one and only death of self 

(how will they survive this one?!)

feat. @t0rr

additional vocals from @wishlane

My Last Ego Death (feat. torr)

fishmonger (b-sides)

Ur not really bout it (bonus track)

3 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @soupandreas
additional production by @bbbbfc
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art by atlas ezra

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
and i promise you this
i won’t be worth nothing to ya when i stop making hits
my character’s nobody if she stops talking shit
when i can’t record the verses that i don’t believe in
whatever, shut up, go fuck yourself
i gotta get me out my head
whoever she was i wish her well
before you snap her neck
i bet half of you’d curse me to hell
if i just think about it
freak out daily, don’t stop to breathe
i can’t say no, afraid you’ll leave
in the right city at the wrong time
making all the right moves with the wrong guys
seeing all the right things with the wrong eyes
living in the right ways with the wrong life
(at least that’s what i think it’s like)

i guess this is how i find out
can i keep it up or do i wind down
laughing, oh my god she’s such a sellout
hold her head under the water, you should be proud
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout

(soupandreas)
saying all the right things at the wrong times
doing all the right scenes with the wrong lines
feeling like an extra in my own life
can you see that i'm afraid of that
or do you feel the same on the inside
i can't breathe anymore
making my way to the door
spilled my guts on your floor
don't know what i did it for
i tried to sell you a lie
you ripped away the disguise
wish i could run back the time
and make it all alright

(sd)
i guess this is how i find out
can i keep it up or do i wind down
laughing, oh my god she’s such a sellout
hold her head under the water, you should be proud
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout
she’s such a sellout

star★☆

sellout

sellout w/ soupandreas (sd + bbbbfc)

source

another old song
started in september 2021, finished in october 2022
https://twitter.com/canofblissmusic

Inner dialogue
Down on me all the time, but I don't cry a lot
I get my best ideas when I'm gone
Then I try to remember what the fuck is going on
In my head
It takes me all damn night to wanna go to bed
I keep thinking of everything I could've said
Why did I have to come off like I never meant?

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
Nothing got completed
It's time to waste time now

I keep burning out
Not always fully there, I'm drifting in and out
Do people even get the things I talk about?
I don't think so
Maybe my vibe is too bizarre
It's too much effort breaking me out with a crowbar
Maybe the answers to my problems are on Co-Star
I tell myself that I'm not wanted where my friends are
I tell myself that I'm not wanted at all

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

It's not that I don't wanna talk about it
I don't know how to fucking use my mouth
Then I forget what I was talking about

And then I feel defeated
Energy depleted
And I'm bringing myself back down
And then I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated

And I try so hard
And nothing's coming out right
And I try so hard

bandcamp

defeated

all @dylazy except for some art help from @reksi420 :3

Can you just swim in water
If you can't swim I'll hold you
but if you don't go to the deep end
I'll never grow up

My madrigal
you're fucking tired of me again
My madrigal
I hope you want me by the end

Hearing 8 different opinions is confusing to me
and I'm supposed to pick up the guns and make them see what I want to
It's hard
and it's a journey that honestly feels like
its way too far from me

never go run it back
feel the ice on my back
cause i want u to be here
right in my arms
right in my arms
right in my

you say you want me that's a lie though
im always calling what a psycho
I wanna feel wanted
but ig im not ur favourite sidekick

Tell me when the time is
Clock goes tick tock
but not for my shit

You're never free
is it that I make to many jokes about the fact that I'm into pee..

(and im not feeling focused)
ADH generation obsessed with sex and accusations

My madrigal
you're fucking tried of me again
My madrigal
I hope you want me by the end

Madrigal

written by underscores, Cashmere Cat, Dylan Brady, and benny blanco
produced by underscores, Cashmere Cat, and Dylan Brady
mixed by Serban Ghenea
released with Dog Show Records

My Last Ego Death (feat. torr)

To Oscar

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