Dead Love

I Wonder If You Think of Me

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

you know what your right.

Fragments V2

prod @notmorgn

chasin shit is so old to me 
but i could only fuckin breathe when you're close to me
and when im gone just remember im sorry
if i had a choice i would stop it in a heartbeat
but i cannot change this the way im created
yeah im livin off hatred at least i am creative
put my stacks in the bank when i die
i dont really feel like sharing bitch im selfish inside 
please come over don't ask me if im sober
cus i already told you im feeling bipolar 
some days im gucci other days im not
where'd the other days go I took too many shots

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

you're taking no hint from my actions
when u snap chat me i always hit back then
and when you're feeling down don't cry
i'd let u lay up on my body till the sunrise 
or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

anything for your love

prod. @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO0VHljOPSg

they try to copy i don't really see the point tho
if you were me you'd stab your self right in the torso
the reason i ain't done it yet is cus im fucking used to this
sober feels sedated like i popped a fuckin rufilin
fuck now my head hurt i ain't feeling better
im feelin deader im tied down like im tethered
and if i had a glock i would aim it at my ceiling 
and if i could feel shit i would be in my feelings
i guess my times not up cus my hearts still beating
my lungs still work im surprised im still breathing
reaper swingin scythes in my face tryna tease me
bitch im deceased yea but the top still please me
i think she like me hold up i wouldn't like me
we are the same bitch hatreds very likely
have a lot of bands that's why my wrist is icy
do you feel my pain pour some henny in the iced tea
she said she wanna die with me
but baby i promise you don't wanna die like me
die with me im so selfish baby
fuck i think im losing myself again, again no
fuck that sad shit put that ass right in my face
oh shit you got a man well he gone catch the fade
well if this shit get out of hand then you know i got my blade
but regardless of that just put that pussy on my face
put that shit right on my face 
put that shit right on my face 
*me laughing
fuck now my head hurt i ain't feeling better
im feelin deader im tied down like im tethered
and if i had a glock i would aim it at my ceiling 
and if i could feel shit i would be in my feelings
i guess my times not up cus my hearts still beating
my lungs still work im surprised im still breathing
reaper swingin scythes in my face tryna tease me
bitch im deceased yea but the top still please me

i ain't feeling better

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

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ＧＥＴ　Ａ　ＣＡＬＬ　ＢＡＣＫ

//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

in my sleep

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

way too drunk to think way too high to care,,

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lyrics
Bury me in diamonds 
Top me off in gold
The world will know that I'm royalty when they steal my soul cuz

I killed art with my skinny jeans it's a good thing I gained LBS babe 
Or maybe I got better taste aye
I made girls start seeing race

I gotta problem a lotta people they don't wanna talk about 
If I was a fish in the river then maybe I could see a sound 
 
Decisions I would keep I know would swing you around 
Never my talks of spirits and sounds

Yeah

I've got drugs to plan and you've got things to do 
And I don't wanna stop getting high cuz I'm feeling you 

I got things to plan I got drugs to do with you 

Girl you know that I'm on the way 
I'll have you know that I'm so afraid
Was I born 20 years too soon or 40 years too late
Cuz I would have owned the world 
Before the stocks collapsed
And probably have less panic attacks 
I might have been friends with my dad

Cuz we all have dead friends
And some still walk the earth
But we do what we can do to make everything hurt less

Yeah 

Well I guess that I'm blessed because all of my friends know we’re equally dead well at least in the head 

It's unusual 
But usually

We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
Care
About you
About you

I don't care if you don't mind if you died right now but I would be dead inside 

Just close your eyes 
Pray to God that my baby's alright she was in the hospital last night my baby my baby girl 
Just close your eyes 
Pray to God that my baby's alright she was 
in the hospital last night my baby my baby 

Girl you know that I'm on the way 
I'll have you know that we’re so afraid
Were we born 20 years too soon or 40 years too late
Cuz I would have owned the world 
Before the stocks collapsed
And probably have less panic attacks 
I might have been friends with your dad

Cuz we all have dead friends
And some still walk the earth
But we do what we can do to make everything hurt less

Yeah

Well I guess that I'm blessed because all of my friends know we’re equally dead well at least in the head 

It's unusual but usually

We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
Care
About you
About you,

Usual

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I Wonder If You Think of Me

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