Vans finest

Yung Van

yung van

Gaurdin specific

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

@deadtreesnolongerbreathe
@yungcold
@guccihighwaters
@notmorgn

it was for the best

Spotify, Apple Music..

it was for the best w/ guccihighwaters (Prod. DeadForest & YungCold)

I love you all! please go check out Lux and Guardin!!
@lux_45
@guardinmusic

LYRICS-

Yung van:
Call me back I need you right now
On the ground as the rain pours down
Where'd you go when i needed you 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Call me back as the rain pours down
On the ground I need you right now 
Where'd you go when I needed you
Where'd you go when I needed you 
I called you but I can't speak
But I can hear you breathing
I'm wide awake cause I can't sleep
and I can only think of you

guardin:
think too much, i'm so lost, where my head go?
 trippin' now, blankin' out to the echo
all i fears finally here, movin' mad slow 
pacing now, trace your frown when i let go 
falling back into the depths of my own mind
 i'd be lying to you baby if i said that i was fine 
i've been rearranging furniture & finding stuff inside 
like the crystals in my pockets that you probably left behind 
i don't wanna be without you 
baby i am not okay without you

FOLLOW MY MAN LUX!!!

you were my best friend w/ guardin (Prod. Lux45)

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

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//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

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//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
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this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

Blackwater 4/5/2019
Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan
Instrumental: @prodbybrody
Mix&Master: @itshuskai & @prodbybrody

Lyrics- 
I’ve been trying to find a way to tell you
I’m so sorry I’m the reason that we feel through
Loves not easy when you can’t let someone’s love through
I wish I could have done something to help you
I’m so sorry I’m the reason that we fell through
Loves not easy when you can’t let someone’s love through 
I’ve been trying to find a way to tell you 
Love is not easy without you

I cared too much and now it hurts
Whenever I think of you it makes it worse 
I’ve tried to push the feelings down
They resurface every time that you’re around x2

I’ve been trying to find a way to tell you
I’m so sorry I’m the reason that we feel through
Loves not easy when you can’t let someone’s love through
I wish I could have done something to help you
I’m so sorry I’m the reason that we fell through
Loves not easy when you can’t let someone’s love through 
I’ve been trying to find a way to tell you 
Love is not easy without you

Blackwater

Love's Not Easy

Other Platforms <3

Love's Not Easy (Prod. Brody)

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//再試行する//

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lyrics
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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan & @cozyboycries
Instrumental: @user-182805726
Mix&Master: @cozyboycries & @prodbybrody

Lyrics-

Intro (yung van) - 
"Hey, Evan I just want you to know you are an amazing person dude. If you are listening to this right now in the future, maybe you are at college dude, you're missing Vincent, you're missing summer, you're missing all your friend's dude.  It's gonna be okay, I know you're sad. *Coughs* I'm sick right now, but I know you're sad, but you've got some friends dude, wherever you're at, you've got friends."

yung van-

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

I was there when you needed me but when I needed you, you were not to be seen
but when you cried you were so clean
something about you was so me
I don't wanna go like this, I don't wanna go out in the snow
I just wanna come back home, but there is something up blocking the road
Take me out, then block me out like you're used to
don't talk about what we talked about like I used you

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

cøzybøy-

I always thought we would be there for each other
(for each other)
But I was wrong cause we grew apart so fast
I miss the nights we used to talk long
take long drives and sit upon the sidewalks 
smoking cigarettes breathing as the time past
drifting away, every day, we were drifting away

yung van-

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

Vincent

Vincent Ft. cøzybøy (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan & @guardinmusic & @daddydandy
Instrumental: @catvlyst
Mix&Master:  @prodbybrody & @polearm & @guardinmusic & @daddydandy

Lyrics-
yung van-

Long roads walking home without you
All the leaves turn grey when I walk right past you
Like a ghost with a grudge, you’re the one I’m bound to
Made my heart turn stone, like the hand of  a statue

Guardin-

Oh, oh, oh
oh, oh, oh
when she breathes I get so anxious I'm lost in the words I can't let out
my lips, I see what you don't see in yourself and I hope that you'll understand where I'm going cause, I ain't coming back
this time I mean I'm leaving no kisses believe it's a pretty big weight on your back, fuck all of that, home is a place on a map
Destiny lies on the brim of your cap, love isn't love when the price is a song about falling for all the wrong reasons, no cap.
this shit's a trap. 

yung van -

Fuck all the people said I'm unhealthy like I didn't know that
shout out my ex who has one of my hoodies, yeah, I want my shit back
I am so tired of hearing this bullshit, you said that you loved me
I told you "I hate you" but I know I love you, I guess that's what love means

Long roads walking home without you
All the leaves turn grey when I walk right past you
Like a ghost with a grudge, you’re the one I’m bound to
Made my heart turn stone, like the hand of  a statue

Flowars-

 Love at first sight I was petrified
 Turnt me into stone with those pretty eyes
 Frozen to the earth you put a spell on time
 Trapped inside my head thinking you so fine
 Now I’m just a statue Stuck here staring at you
 Crumbling to pieces Scattered in the breezes
 Now I’m just a statue Lasting like a tattoo
 Loving you forever Will forever ever pass through

Statues

Statues Ft. Guardin x Flowars (Prod. CATVLYST)

Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan & cloudhighcomeup
Instrumental: @cloudhighcomeup
Mix&Master:  @prodbybrody & @cloudhighcomeup

Lyrics
yung van-
(Verse)

Waking up at dawn
Just to say goodnight 
To my closest friends
That I hold dear and tight
They sleep on my bed
Remember what they said 
Once you’re out on your own
You’re gonna wish for death

(Pre chorus)

You try to wash away
Everything they say
You said you’d let them in
But then you closed again 
I know just how you feel
Cause I’ve felt it before
You opened up one door
Then had to close four more

(Chorus)

You won’t let em in
You won’t let em in 
You tried your best again
but you won’t let em in 
You won’t let em In
You won’t let em in 
They want to be your friend
But you won’t let em in

cloudhighcomeup-
(Verse)

You won't let em in, let's see what's on your mind
Like am I worth it, am I good enough
I ask it all the time
you just wanna be a friend, well I shouldn't be so blind
I can't see inside your head, but I know you can see in mine

yung van- 
(Pre chorus)

You try to wash away
Everything they say
You said you’d let them in
But then you closed again 
I know just how you feel
Cause I’ve felt it before
You opened up one door
Then had to close four more

yung van x cloudhighcomeup- 
(Chorus)

You won’t let em in
You won’t let em in 
You tried your best again
but you won’t let em in 
You won’t let em In
You won’t let em in 
They want to be your friend
But you won’t let em in
You won’t let em in
You won’t let em in 
You tried your best again
but you won’t let em in 
You won’t let em In
You won’t let em in 
They want to be your friend
But you won’t let em in

Barricade of the Heart

Barricade of the Heart Ft. cloudhighcomeup (Prod. cloudhighcomeup)

Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan
Instrumental: @sorrow_bringer
Mix&Master:  @prodbybrody & @trechorboy

Lyrics-
yung van-

(Chorus)

I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone
I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone

(Verse)
I've been skipping all my meals
I can;t even feel
I'm dragging my feet, by my heels
is this even real?
It's been too long since I've felt okay
I'm living life on an empty tank
take one pill in the morning and don't forget
cause if you do you'll sit in class and just *tap tap* on your desk

(Chorus)

I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone
I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone

(Bridge)

When I'm 18 maybe things will change, as of lately everything's the same, x3

(Chorus)

I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone
I'm never in my zone, I wake up to an empty home
And when I'm all alone, I turn into a drugged out clone

Drugged Out Clone

Drugged Out Clone (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

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alive (prod. caspr)

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what’s it like to me?
think i finally got the answer if you wanted to see
take a look in my mirror cause it’s shittin’ on me
like a pigeon to a branch when i be up in the trees
pick me up with the breeze
take me far away from here cause i don’t like what i see
constantly contemplating if i really believe
all the feelings that i’m feeling lately life is a dream

but not a good one
really it’s a nightmare
we could hit the park but i don’t really wanna bike there
heard you like my music but the way you treat mes not fair
i address the issue you sell my address for flight fare
and i’m scared
but justifying that is hard & i swear
my focus isn’t on it but i caught it in my sights there
20/20 vision 2020’s been a nightmare
we comin’ full circle ain’t nobody fuck with my square

(chorus)
swallow
all of that moscato
you said you wanna get fucked up
so tip back the whole bottle
i feel fucking ugly
all my friends lookin’ like models
the internet got my perception skewed full throttle
(2x)

i locked myself inside my basement
smoked till i got faded
must get back to basics
take a shot of bourbon
give yourself a fucking facelift
i’ll work on the album all damn night until i make it

and you can probably hear the frogs
in the background of this song
while they’re swimming in the pond
cause i just moved out of my moms
i got everything i want
i ain’t even gotta flaunt
cause it’s weird shit
like couches from the 80s
lights that star the ceiling and make it look kinda spacey
books about the cure or poetry from ali malee
and some charcoal colored towels in my bathroom for my baby
yeah it’s crazy
the life that music made me
my problems still exist but i got space to calm the shaking
anxiety don’t own me anymore ain’t that amazing
the focus is the future and the mornings i’ll be waking

(chorus)
swallow
all of that moscato
you said you wanna get fucked up
so tip back the whole bottle
i feel fucking ugly
all my friends lookin’ like models
the internet got my perception skewed full throttle
(2x)

follow ka1

full throttle (prod. ka1)

new music every two weeks

I wouldn’t be here without you all 💙