lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

scumbag

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

spotify

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

lyrics
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make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might disappear by the morning
soaring higher than i was while recording
i'm warning you to stay away cause i'm boring
fuck i'm a mess face down in the flooring
worth another shot taking shots till i'm snoring
in my dreams i've been wide awake just exploring
a distant memory of better days i'm ignoring
if i keep fucking up then imma lead you all to mourning

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might fuck around with these toxins
i'm locked in a box with these puppets that i'm not with
obnoxious how they've been tryna limit all my options
hit em with the blade then i warp like i'm noctis
stop this all this fucking gossip got me nauseous
fuck the repetition i've been whippin new concoctions
and just because i'm reinventing they gon say i'm pompous
wait until the album drop cause that shit is colossus
lost his touch cause everything he made was flawless
creatively he's broke again like gromit to your wallace 
it's hard to stay awake & just create in midst of all this  
regardless i still hope you like the shit i drop in august

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

mistakes (prod. peril x mekai b)

first track off of the new guardin x flowars tape
full project comin' soon!

produced by space race x juannib x cruzgod

lyrics
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tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind

i fell in love cause she’s dead inside 
girl got me so weak she’s like my kryptonite
red all on her lips, i like baby girl 
i dreamt of the way that your lips
met my lips in the rain 
mesmerized by your pretty little eyes 
tryna get inside your mind 
baby you drive me crazy
you got me losing 
my mind my mind my mind
grabbing up on you behind 
let everyone know you’re mine

oh me oh my
don't waste no time
i get right into it baby you gon feel alive
it's eight past five
but we stay inside
the doors are locked with your body pushed into mine
  
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind
tongue tied
words just fall apart when you look at me right in my eyes
if i'm being honest witchu baby you is so fine
liquor in my cup & you've been dancing up in my mind
open my mind

follow flowars

guardin x flowars - tongue tied (prod. space race x juannib x cruzgod)

PEGASUS - NUNU

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

blackheartemoji

what i am (ft. guardin)

i had a lot of fun covering one of my favorite songs by @youngburial , hes crazy talented and a brilliant writer. i hope everyones having a great day, and expect another song this week!!

Tuning: D A D F# A E

fats'e 💙

i'd prefer an unmarked grave (fats'e cover)

https://soundcloud.com/shinpuru
^ Show him some love

Lyrics:
walking in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, take that belt off I sweared
I was done with this, come back for you baby I'm a masochist
running so damn fast from this
cause baby you the catalyst
alcohol the agonist
pain I cannot manage it.
kiss your glowing lips again
aware that you're a basilisk

now it's 9 am at the station
in my chest I feel no breathe the space is vacant
got no recollection on how I awakened
on this bench said fuck that wench I cannot take this
why I always find myself
downing all the shelf
going 85 inside the residential belt
walking home alone again, I'm talking to myself
I can't find no home until I'm greeted by the 

BLINDING LIGHTS
GLOW SO BRIGHT
I FLY UP HIGH
I TOUCH THE SKY AGAIN
*
coming down
she never come around
I just wander and I ponder If I'm better drowned
leave my body in the lake
I live my life and I'm half baked
and I just wonder If she faked each day she said we're bound

running the in dark at 2 am without a clue to where I'm going
raining, snowing I don't care
the street lights on these nights will help me repair
the damage you delt, as I belt over snares
rip out my hair
everything I came to know was fucking lies
anxious as a mother fucker, rather die
missing every touch and every fucking lie
now I now the truth behind each every line

Street Lights [prod. shinpuru]

new music every two weeks

I wouldn’t be here without you all 💙