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made a song about a mental breakdown i had over twitter today lol

lyrics//
you profit off of abuse, then ego acts rash
wonder what the victims think drowning in backlash
i can see the patterns made yards away
i see how i paid for the cards you played

and they're like "how you gonna back that?"
idk bitch, receipts and some screencaps
wondering what all yall see in victims to attack that
wonder where the hate comes from when illusions fade

look at the way that depp is shown as just a victim
abuse is mutual
especially in this system
you erase the people that hurt too cus they're not good enough
i was told that i deserved exploiting how i'm acting up
and acting up nowadays is speaking out
victimhood is nothing i could ever gain from bragging 'bout
people don't like cancel culture cus they have to break all their silence
this ain't real to you, and that view turns to violence

i pour my heart out to the void or more hatred
either or is better than leaving that urge unsated
bait me into a deathtrap
then act like an ally
everyone near me's vultures
my world was all lies

take all your medicine before you see reality
you could never handle your feelings in their totality
begging you on my hands and knees please let all my poisons free
once they see the predators without the masks made accordingly
i'm sure most you bitches would recant if you werent  breaking even
fucking twitter feeds got me freaking waking to sleeping
i'm sorry that i'm so broken 
i'm sorry i never quit
i'm there for myself where nobody wanted to be, that's it.

prescribed medicines

Supply

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

it's not lost on me, i just needed space

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

they got queer kids in their crosshairs 
and their deaths never make the news
i live every second building upwards
and i'll use that just to ensure that you lose
tell me that the dreams dead cus you want it to be
i failed the way they designed
couldnt feel safe with myself 
tried to improve it with time

peerless, led to crosshairs
would my death ever make the news?
we lived every second building up hatred 
i can see it in all of your views
wishing that a dream's dead cus you need it to be
fell out of what they designed
trauma wont dictate my path
removed for how i align

with every new low, rediscover old highs
you lifted yourself up once 
why skip a retry?
got my old rage
and new motivations
all i want is distance, self control and patience

saw the patterns before everyone else
i gave em warnings, didnt matter, i'd offend when i'd tell
i can feel subtext from miles away
doesnt matter, to this day i'm still turned into prey
with no chance

run cus you're mad
return when you're sad
how much of you do they have?
break off and dont go back

Excuse

lyrics:

told all my friends i disappeared for a new energy
tried to break the silence
always made more enemies
worsen while improving
oxymoron entropy
fought off all the demons
phantom pain is everything

i'm sorry for the ways i've wronged you
i tried too hard to be less cold 
i'd normally break down in the distance
now rage always has a hold
i'm trying so hard to better for you
i know that there's someone better for you
you wouldn't deal with the shit that i do
it's devastatingly true

i know it's hard sometimes
but i can't get out of this state of mind
wish i could say i'm fine
without feeling like i'm lying
you take over
you take over

was i ever worth it
do i deserve this
is this the karma for me when young n imperfect
i guess i earned it
i guess i'll bow down
and meet the earth until we're one
this is my purchase
i need a clear soul
not a clear image
i dug my own grave
but i'm not in it
i'll fight tooth and fucking nail till i'm forgiven
know i'm never gonna fail
there's just this one thing
and i'll lose for it
i could die for it
this is more than fucking drama you killed life for us
and i'd like if someone really heard me right for once
everytime i fucking breathe bitches light me up
n i knew before it
that was new for this
normally the people targeted arent piping up
i said no to lying down but i ran low on luck
i could hate my decision but know that that shit's for the best

Orange

i made a song out of my song titles 

i fear Holding Back
i fear Avarice
i fear Wrath from them
that's the half of it
i'm a secret friend
Ira's Alibis
fear What I've Become
at least in their eyes
Is It Me
Is It You
default as scapegoats for each Excuse
Fell Apart
low Supply
All I Want for this is it to come to life
Pro Tip
Live In Dreams
move through Clouds like all Friction had's unseen
Blurred Streaks on blank panes
As They Burn they see the point of these Games
 
practice Kintsugi
not the art but the thought trait 
broken mental, bitch i made my way Around It
got Wings and I flew up to my god state
called the Sequence of events and i was grounded
repeated Atmosphere, i feel Paralysis
i'm always Weird to them, so i'm used to callousness
see their patterns Drawn
and all the Danger near
I feel the Vitriol 
I'm Dissapating here

I'M "PRESCRIBED MEDICINES" AND THEY'VE PUT ME THROUGH HELL
BUT I'M WORSE OFF WITHOUT EM
I'LL FIGHT THIS MYSELF
I'D RATHER HAVE MY "CONTROL", HUMAN TOLLS
ALL THAT HELPS
I'LL PICK ME UP BY THE "PIECES"
WITHOUT WHAT YOU SELL
I SEE THE "CRIMSON" AND "PURPLE"
THE MARKS THAT THEY LEAVE
AND ALL THE WHILE TRY TO GRIEVE WHAT THEY'VE TAKEN FROM ME
"CANT SEE SHIT" BUT MY BURDENS AND TURNS IN MY HEALTH
I SAW STORIES IN TRAUMA 
AND FLIPPED THEM TO HELP

Timeline

random song moment


i wanna stab you in the back
i wanna lay you in the ground
they know they're never getting saved
that's why i'm never getting found
look at me in different ways
as you throw me to the hounds
feel like i've made my last mistake
maybe there's time to cover ground 
i wanna lay you in a grave
i wanna savor all your fear
i'll force the lowest of your lows
like you did to me for years
push me further every day
with every single decision
i saved predators prey
still cut me down with precision

im a pro at always feeling i'm intruding
wait for bigotry /so much /it gets confusing
see a pattern in the wild and get shit moving
i know deep down there's no chance i'm losing
flow /state, i got an appettite to feed
momma said it's greed
seen the clothes, seen the weed
friends imply it's me, all the money that i bleed
i was perfect to you bitches, what went wrong now that you see  
patterns in the wild got shit moving
hate eluding, master of illusions
bounty on my head, gonna fake it till i lose it
want me bled
shot me down
still i'm moving
no pulse and a heart that's full of greed
money in my pocket, n i'm getting more this week
stared death in the eyes
you can never make me leave
i'll go down with this ship
i don't feel i need to breathe

Chimes

help me bleed in the way that people used to want to see
this is pressing into wounds and it's something i don't need
fuck the pleas, their support is something i can drop for free
openness just helps them feed
openness just helps them feed

find remedies, not faults
it wasn't your fault
just be more than the past
and stand through the windblasts

let this tension pass
barriers will crash
and you see right through the glass
all that pain can't last

don't be ashamed of your mental
just learn how to live with and harness the breadth of your image
this is a rally to tally the days that you're down and seek pureness to mix in
i'm just a fool to these bitches
a tool to be witnessed, a hunt that i'm fixed in
there is no purpose if that's what you feel
me recently? i've been my religion

i realized i dont need affirming from anybody but me
i feel eyes, pointed and hateful, i fight for a minute to breathe
look at my avarice, painted through patterns
and painful to feed
sent through their messages
forced to dissect it 
there's so much to see

scream

All 4 U

i feel like luupy
i feel like ive been fucking tired of the groupies
i feel like all you little bitches want to lose me
i feel like everybody's out here tryna screw me
i know they're mad cus they've been trying to outdo me
i know i'm sad cus all the ties im stuck with losing
i point the finger and they're sitting saying "who, me?"
i got vendettas and barettas, please

i know my close friends think im fucking smothering
i'm gonna kill myself and leave you bitches wondering
i point the finger cus i can't decide who's governing
past lives pass knives onto veins i'm cutting in
i see the patterns painted till i'm just another in
i see the ladders climbed and i decide to fall
i see an obstacle and make that shit a wall
and all you wonder why they unvite from calls

this is my note
this is me sticking a knife through my throat
this is me taking it out cus u gloat
this is me breaking from pressure from ghosts
i am a fool to the cool in their eyes
i am a tool to be tossed to the side
i am a
i am a

wait
i am despised
i see me speak and you rolling your eyes
i see my happiness push you aside
i see through faces what's hidden inside
i see me break in a way that you love
i see you climb till it's death from above
i see the knife you'll use when there's enough
cant fix the vacancy with just a hug

I Feel Loopy ft. TWINWOLVES

try and spite me now
but you cant cut me down
lie to write me out
when i'm wearing your crown

can you do this for me please?
just give me what i need
without the costs, the subtle fees
why would i want what's draining me?

i guess i went about it wrong
i guess i held off for too long
i guess you work to my defeat
i only pushed you to compete

push me down
the whole world wants me dead
drilled in, the dread
all that they've said
fuck around and point guns to my head
simple mistakes
solve them with lead
changed lens, my whole worldview is red
people are evil through systems they've fed
and we're all fools for the lies that are spread
i'm loving to all you, yet you want me bled

hate me
up until you know a bit more
there's a voice in your head that says put me on the floor
and all you bait me 
into being who i am more
and when i'm shot to the ground
you step right over my corpse

Draining Me

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22 y/o nb gay artist n musician 

all vocals, lyrics, and instrumentals are by me unless mentioned
(i will credit any samples that are major parts of the song tho)

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