i failed
oh darling
was your head in my hands not enough
pace my room for a couple bucks
i felt down for a couple months
did it all for a dumb ear
tell me theres no love left here
all the eyes disappoint
id rather die in this joint

pace

always in the background w/ thrml

listen on spotify
https://open.spotify.com/album/7DXqKZcxgZPiaU7tJ411nk?si=AY4i_mKATDOt3_5wGeoghA

soon it’s december 1st
and we haven’t spoken in a month
i just can’t sleep no more
in the silence of losing your trust
running back and then forth
between hands i could clutch

(how pathetic of me
i'm sorry it had to be)

it doesn’t make sense
the foul emptiness
of remembering the laugh in your breath
oh, i wish it was a rash kind of feeling
one where i’m just clawing for the image of you

but i’m so done with sensibility
i need you more than god needs me
and i’ve started to miss all the times
where you didn’t understand me completely

yeah i know it's ironic
but atleast, yeah i'm honest

and i wasn't lying when i said i was on my own

in the end i’m left with two
and the only true one left now is just you

sensibility

I feel like I could float 
Over the mountains 
I don’t care how much it cost
Or what the amount is

X2
I’ll buy you that buy you this
The cuts on your wrists
I think you’ve handled enough of him 

You’re like a star getting brighter
Right now I think that we’re higher
Oh I don’t want you to go
I know my love is for you 

X2
I’ll buy you that buy you this
The cuts on your wrists
I think you’ve handled enough of him

01/18/23
p. @justmoonemoji and me

"cuts" itsatrill© (p.lune&itsatrill)

made april 17th, 2021

i can't fathom the things that you said
i wouldn't do it if i didn't have to
you think i'm better off dead
fuck all your friends man i didn't need you
man all of you see-through
man i cannot believe you
through all our differences man i saw you grow
finding your place and finding your damn home
i catch it then fumble the bag
i wish i was wise like my dad
i did before man i'll do it again
but this time i ain't confident
i ain't be doing this if i ain't had to
aching inside of me i'm on my last screw
no matter what happens i'll be here
increasingly hard this time of year

words (april 17th, 2021)

shoutout single ppl

sex scene in a disney movie

22 feb 2022

it’s weird it’s weird
i jus don’t know how to say it
looked in my eyes i’m antisocial
i wish i could fake it
swaying one way or the other
this won’t work let’s just face it
why does everyone i’m into
have to be just as indecisive

and i yearn
for a better cause of concern
wish i could close the curtains
get to flirtin
but fuck it i’m too reserved
and these issues merge to one
that i’m just a laughing stock
all i ever do is run in circles
and never seem to ever fucking stop

reserved

percgang the new owl city

[@kanaima]
he like to talk a lot but he aint got the racks
and he in the parking lot lil bitch we gettin back
pull up with that fafa, we burn it out
we gon let them shots off, he heard it now
watchu tryna say bout me
cause all my diamonds flawless
i walk up in the bank but I ain’t makin no deposits
and now i’m really poppin
you broke boy you should stop it
pull up with that fafa

[@saiwai]
huh ye,
ima go run up these bands 
got ur bitch put her in a trance
ur boy he be tryna throw hands
and bitch he know he dumb he knoww
gonna skr up in my 4x4
yea we in our zone
and she say she know but she dont know
flooded out my wrist
ill make sure i end up rich
cuz i make sure i get that bag
then ima dip off skr real quick
yo boy better stop talkin shit
before he get hit up w my stick
i guess he dont got a bitch
.762 finna unload the clip

why u be lyin to me
these bros switchin sides wit me
gotta do this on my own
cuz nobody really know
how much i hate ur soul
how much i wanna go home
i dont even wanna talk
this shit just fuck me up

uh 
i dont really know
cuz where did u go
yo boy he kinda slow
u like to be alone
gotta finish up my shit
before i get my bitch
stupid ass boy he gon get hit
gettin this money ill buy a new fit
gettin my k now this shit finna BLEH

[@kanaima]
he like to talk a lot but he aint got the racks
and he in the parking lot lil bitch we gettin back
pull up with that fafa, we burn it out
we gon let them shots off, he heard it now
watchu tryna say bout me
cause all my diamonds flawless
i walk up in the bank but I ain’t makin no deposits
and now i’m really poppin
you broke boy you should stop it
pull up with that fafa

@zephyrcove

burn it out

burn it out p. sai & kanaima

with some new friends thank you @riensu @1toge
follow them:
www.instagram.com/ri3nsu/
www.instagram.com/notmanni/
all plats march 31st: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/andrelv/want-your-attention-feat-manni---riensu

prod me once again

lyrics:
always feeling nervous yeah i never can relax
you know there's always trepidation just a feeling in my chest
and im running from my problems cos i never know whats next
really hope its not too late
i need a second to react

chorus:
i dont have any more reasons just to see you around
i just wanna hear the words that you wanna tell me
i lost my mind but u found it
why am i always so selfish
i dont need your attention
but i want it
every thought that i have always circles back to you
im so scared of you so i can never tell the truth
my heart is beating so fast i don't know what to do
im falling again and its so hard to find you

manni ✰ @1toge:
its so hard to let go
when i really wanted more now
but you wanna slow down
is this all a game to you
cause i dont really have a clue
fuck do you want me to do
did you want me to relapse
i just want my keys back
did you really mean that
theres no point if you dont feel love
so i wonder if i cross your mind
cause i dont really want to be left behind

riensu @riensu:
i've been waiting for you to come save me
cause after all we've been through you're still my safety
would you catch me again and again
dont want to pretend
but i'll be fine without you

r: she got me running back
m: she got me wanting more
r: tell me what its all for
m: tell me and ill love you more
r: lets get right to the chase
m: run around my mind like a maze
r: no text back like im not phased, at all

(chorus again)

my verse:
im way too tired to converse
guess i'll see you again
i try my best but it never works
cos you fuck up my plans
i swear im stuck in a curse
i'll never understand
im falling again
and its so hard to find you
if i had another chance i swear i'll never lose
you grazed right pass me
didnt even know its you
they told me everything is fine i really hope its true
you know its never easy but im weathering with you

want your attention w/ manni ✰ & riensu

[Hardstyle remix by trueaww] ri4h - never gonna let me go + reef (sai x poonda)

@1kise
self prod
recorded this sick 

lyrics
Oh, my
Would you look at the time
I think I’ve overstayed my welcome 

So Goodbye
Do you think you’ll be fine?
Without me by your side
And when you left you know I felt dumb

Right, we’re running outta time
I swear I’ll make you mine
No matter how far we drift away

And that’s fine
I wanna do this right
But I can’t help it if my world turns to grey

And I could never let you go
I let you know
If you ever wanna try again
You’ll find me here

Whenever you’re all alone 
And nobody’s home
Then have no fear ‘cause I’ll be here

Oh right, we’re running outta time
I swear I’ll make you mine
No matter how far we drift away

And that’s fine
I wanna do this right
But I can’t help it if my world fades to grey



Recorded 3/30/23

fade to grey

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prod @kuriyai443
@zephyrcove
lyrics
//

“I want us to be more that friends.”
“You’ll snap out of it.”
-
The sun is coming down 
Don’t have much time to get this out
Before the seasons change
I know you’ll never be the same

And it feels like it’s just all my fault
All my fault
All my fault

I didn’t mean to push you away
But if you thought of me things wouldn’t go this way
I lost a part of me, you’re heart, it fades to gray
I tried to change your fate, but the pain remains

But you’re saying that you’re  certain
It’s so unnerving 
And I try to be so perfect
He just don’t deserve it

But you’re saying that you’re certain
This isn’t worth it
You cut me open like a surgeon
You don’t see how you’re hurting me

I didn’t mean to push you away
But if you thought of me things wouldn’t go this way
I lost a part of me, you’re heart, it fades to gray
I tried to change your fate, but the pain remains
-
“What the fuck you talking about, okay? I’m your partner, okay? If you’re not gonna trust me with that kinda thing, who the fuck are you gonna trust?”
-
Say my name
Don’t throw this away
Don’t say it’s too late
‘Cause girl you are a part of me
Now I miss when you would follow me,
Your eyes are changing colors like the autumn leaves
And your skin is getting colder than a winter breeze
Made your decision but just tell me how that’s fair to me

Recorded July 30th, 2023

sensibility

ivy blaise