instrumental, vocals and artwork by me

Under the moonlight, I'm thinking of you and I 
I finally have what i need for the first time in my life
We barely see each other and it's all fine
When you'll see my growth i want you to be surprised

Don't look in my eyes
You'll see the abyss
The darkest of thougts 
Oh please don't look at this

Never look at this

Focus on the positive and don't ask me too much about my fights
EVERY FUCKING DAY I FEEL LIKE THEY WANT TO END MY LIFE
I'm playing with your hair, making sure you can feel safe
EVERY JOKE YOU MAKE MAKES ME FEEL IN DANGER

I SEE STRANGERS, I'M READY TO PULL OUT MY KNIFE
THEY COULD LOCK ME UP IF THEY HEARD MY THOUGTS
I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL THEY COULD MAKE ME DIE
I'M ACTING LIKE I'M OKAY WHEN I TALK TO YOUR MOM ...

T'as pas besoin de savoir tout ça
Tu crois connaitre mes secrets mais c'est bien trop grave
Si un jour tu me fuis je t'en voudrais pas
Ma psy m'a bien dit que j'étais trop dangereux pour mon entourage

On m'a menacé de m'enfermer mais j'suis bon qu'à esquiver
J'veux de mal à personne donc je m'enferme dans mes pensées
CHAQUE ETOILE DANS LE CIEL EST MORTE
LAQUELLE DE MES VOIX SERA LA PLUS FORTE ??? 

Focus on the positive and don't ask me too much about my fights
EVERY FUCKING DAY I FEEL LIKE THEY WANT TO END MY LIFE
I'm playing with your hair, making sure you can feel safe
EVERY JOKE YOU MAKE MAKES ME FEEL IN DANGER

I SEE STRANGERS, I'M READY TO PULL OUT MY KNIFE
THEY COULD LOCK ME UP IF THEY HEARD MY THOUGTS
I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL THEY COULD MAKE ME DIE
I'M ACTING LIKE I'M OKAY WHEN I TALK TO YOUR MOM ...

CHAQUE ETOILE DANS LE CIEL EST MORTE
LAQUELLE DE MES VOIX SERA LA PLUS FORTE ???

I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL

Prod Phaseshift
Mix & master IBleedIcare

[ Lyrics ]
Babe, Dis-moi pourquoi t'es late
J'sais qu'c'est pour une autre pill de Xan
E-Girl aime faire la fête s'défoncer avec d'autre gens
Ces souvenirs dans ma tête me tuent comme tes calmants
Purple drink dans le cup, High pour l'espace d'un instant

Boisson violette, elle veut faire disparaître ses cauchemars
Toujours sous lean comme si ça l'emmènerait vers Poudlard
Et j'perds patience quand les effets s'dissipe en retard
Elle me donne toujours l'impression d'être un connard

I'm living our love all alone in the dark
J'ai l'impression de ne jamais avoir pris mes marques
You try to make this obscene
Elle a encore l'cerveau sous lean

I tried to be perfect for you
Mon coeur se tord j'tombe comme un fou
Pas d'place pour moi dans ses rendez-vous
When you're high, I don't know what should I do 

When you're high, I don't know what should I do x4

Babe, Dis-moi pourquoi t'es late
J'sais qu'c'est pour une autre pill de Xan
E-Girl aime faire la fête s'défoncer avec d'autre gens
Ces souvenirs dans ma tête me tuent comme tes calmants
Purple drink dans le cup, High pour l'espace d'un instant

Boisson violette, elle veut faire disparaître ses cauchemars
Toujours sous lean comme si ça l'emmènerait vers Poudlard
Et j'perds patience quand les effets s'dissipe en retard
Elle me donne toujours l'impression d'être un connard

Dis-moi pourquoi t'es late
J'sais qu'c'est pour une autre pill de Xan
E-Girl aime faire la fête s'défoncer avec d'autre gens
J'ai l'impression qu'tu joues avec mon coeur comme une enfant
J'ai appris à sourire à faire semblant

Dis-moi pourquoi t'es late
J'sais qu'c'est pour une autre pill de Xan
E-Girl aime faire la fête s'défoncer avec d'autre gens
Ces souvenirs dans ma tête me tuent comme tes calmants
Purple drink dans le cup, High pour l'espace d'un instant

IBleedIcare - Xan ( Prod. Phaseshift )

shawty said [Lucys Children]

prod iof <3

are you happy now?

[lyrics:]
i think i dont need you anymore
i think im finally over you
so many times i got ignored
and i didnt know what to do

but now im at the point
i know you werent worth the pain
i got out of the void
and finally found a better way


dont be disappointed 
you wanted it that way
you had another boyfriend
you made me go insane
was it fun to break my heart?
to see me fall apart?

MUSIC VIDEO

you wanted it that way (iof)

lyrics:

For demons before me, you had me so blinding
I know what’s beside me, the moments are timing
My suffering’s gloaming, the pressure is homing
The rain is now pouring, i know where this is going

Take it slowly, drugs don’t hold me
Life is broken, i don’t love this
This is hopeless, why am i standing
Let me fall, yeah i want this
Gotta take my life, gotta take it now
I don’t wanna live, when the weight is high
Suffering deep, with the ocean tides
Closing walls, from the varied sides
I don’t wanna wake up, from a daydream
Let my nightmares, come and take me
Break me apart, see what’s in me
If you let go, i won’t feel safe
Don’t come near me, never love me
Love is breaking, my soul is shaking
Life is hazy, just cut me so deep
Come see me bleed, it’s what you need

For demons before me, you had me so blinding
I know what’s beside me, the moments are timing
My suffering’s gloaming, the pressure is homing
The rain is now pouring, i know where this is going

Anti-Love

i know where this is going. [xmichaelwarren]

[conituation of the song: "you were all in my head"]

lyrics:
Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Russian roulette, with my mind and soul
Never letting go, i’m feeling cold
Without a heart, i cannot move on
And with a thorn, picking on my side
Throw me off course, like a glider
I don’t wanna live beside her
Rip me apart like paper
Long as i never see her

Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Devil in details, paved in gold
Long lost story never told
You were never that much bold
With that much more you’re so cold
Melodrama in the heart
Longing for a restart
Just to rip me apart
Over nothing as its part

Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Objects in the Mirror, Are Closer Than They Appear

spider. [+ guda x happytears]

l y r i c s 

.44 to my enemies (to my enemies)
That's what I wanna do
What I wanna do (what I wanna do)

Imma pull up with the AR for the drama
For the drama, for the drama
I don't wanna hurt anyone
I just want my feelings heard

When I see your face (when I see your face)
My mood sours like a warhead in my mouth
Put the Glock 42 right to your mouth
Let it blow let it splatter 
All around the house

See the blood all around the house
See the blood all around the house

sadtxnshi
https://soundcloud.com/sadtxnshi
https://www.instagram.com/sadtxnshi/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCI7rFpkRZcNM3k8aZjWNQ1Q
discord: silvano#4497

s o c i a l s
https://www.instagram.com/l_y_p_i/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBRhaBYCJgTSWchUzYeNhOA
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f o l l o w m e t o v i c t o r y

. f o u r t y 4 w / sadtxnshi (slatervstheworld)

mix by ikiso & Kitten

mastered by Kitten

lyrics :

chorus (ikiso)

i can't feel a thing  now

i waste my time

gone away from all the lies

standing here, right in front of all 

screaming my pain, crying some cold blood

i don't wanna wake up

i just wanna hang  up

i just wanna pray to the sky i need 

something to get back on

my life, sad for so long 

verse (Kitten)

my life doesn’t feel worth it anymore

i can sense it burning deep into my core

i can tell there’s something going very wrong

in the end, i’ll probably just die alone

i just wish i could live in peace

i just wish i could leave this place

cause it’s taking my heart to a whole new pace

i feel like it’s been a while now

really need to sort all that out

i’m breaking down

i’m breaking down

chorus (ikiso)

i can't feel a thing  now

i waste my time

gone away from all the lies

standing here, right in front of all 

screaming my pain, crying some cold blood

i don't wanna wake up

i just wanna hang  up

i just wanna pray to the sky i need 

something to get back on

my life, sad for so long

. f o u r t y 4 w / sadtxnshi (slatervstheworld)

whispered