Name: mental state by Ryan Brun
Duration: 3 min 30 s
Description: written, produced, mixed and master by me

Numerical November is my third solo Extended Play (EP). The EP features a compilation of songs that was created spontaneously throughout the month of November, 2024. The genesis of this project was simply me writing new songs from a blank slate, naming each song-in-progress after a number, beginning with the number 1. 

After a few days, I realized that I was 8 songs in and decided to listen and reflect on each idea I started but had not yet finished. I found that most of the ideas were really good. From there, I completed the songs and decided to create an EP out of a some of them. 

In my personal and spiritual life, November of 2024 was a time of learning and awakening to angel numbers and numerology. I found myself noticing and encountering a variety of angel numbers which led me to explore more about numerology and ultimately, how mathematics, music and the universe are connected . 

Many of the songs that are feature on this project started as ideas that came to me spontaneously between the hours of 12am-3am. Most times, I was awakened out of my sleep at a time that reflected an angel number (3:33am, for example). This happened repeatedly until it didn't. At that point, I knew that I was done recording and could focus on editing, mixing, and finalizing the project in all the other necessary ways. 

I hope the music and the context of this project inspires you, positively evokes your curiosity about numerology and the relationship between math, music, and the universe. Ultimately, I hope it touches your heart. 

Enjoy :) 

CANT IGNORE

✨ · ˚ . ✫. ˚✧ · ˚✧ ·✫. ˚✨ ·
✨ · ˚ . ✫. ˚✧ · ˚✧ ·✫. ˚✨ ·
✨i just wanna have fun✨ ·
✨ · ˚ . ✫. ˚✧ · ˚✧ ·✫. ˚✨ ·
✨ · ˚ . ✫. ˚✧ · ˚✧ ·✫. ˚✨ ·

★i saw u there last fall★ (prod. y-axis)

punk shit (prod. ay!jd)

last song b4 my birthday :3 <3

https://soundcloud.com/zachthomas-2

i get fucked up
i cant go back
why you copy me 
u aint think that i know that
aint the same thing
you get slapped 
yea you off track
blunt in my lip
yea the smoke help me calm down

i can do anything that i ever wanted
you a lil bitch hell no cant get fronted
i don’t miss no bitch
never could
always blunted
you hit me up sometimes
never on my mind
i wonder whose side ur on sometimes
think ur wrong but so am i
drink alone until the light

i get fucked up
i cant go back
why you copy me 
u aint think that i know that
aint the same thing
you get slapped 
yea you off track
blunt in my lip
yea the smoke help me calm down

https://soundcloud.com/nickecee

i feel like im falling up
imsmokin gas itssoloud
everything i cant control 
its like ill never make it out
i cant play aroundd
wat u talkin bout 
i just waste like everyday cause u give me the go around woah

ya im lost n found
never safe n sound
paranoia on me and i wish that it would take me out
i-ion eve care bout u 
im thinkin bout my bank account woah
y-youll kno
every time thati walk in
talk shit but 1 day we'll b poppin
wit 06 
n u kno im always off it
u a lame yah u had it but u lost it
stay the same till the day im in my coffin 

https://soundcloud.com/zachthomas-2

n i dont got no time for ya nonsense
think i’m losin my mind 
ya im off it
ya you know ya not right
lemme fall back 
put a pill in my drink
i dissolve that 
i dont know what to think
when its all bad
real people gon extinct
know you saw that

i get fucked up
i cant go back
why you copy me 
u aint think that i know that
aint the same thing
you get slapped 
yea you off track
blunt in my lip
yea the smoke help me calm down

https://soundcloud.com/nickecee

i feel like im falling up
imsmokin gas itssoloud
everything i cant control 
its like ill never make it out
i just waste like everyday cause u give me the go around woah

https://soundcloud.com/zachthomas-2

i can do anything that i ever wanted
you a lil bitch hell no cant get fronted
i don’t miss no bitch
never could
always blunted
you hit me up sometimes
never on my mind

falling up w/ zach thomas +fatherelvey

girl didn't even die😂
mixed & mastered by mitchy

lyrics:
it doesn't feel like yr gone
idk whats goin on
so please just wake up
i know you're strong enough
and you wont leave but it's too late
so please just rest up
i can't go on like this no more
can't afford to lose more friend or
i might just fucking give up
but i'll live up for you

take me back to 18
nothing else can save me
losing my sanity
but i had never meant for this
think i'm losing faith now
look me in my eyes 
and you'll see how much i've given up
i'll never be the same i was

[i freestyled everything after this so i don't remember what i was saying, i love you forever kami you'll always be in my heart. rest easy kid, i know you're doing well now.]

music inspired by https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke/id-do-anything-to-keep-you-here-prod-tothegood and https://soundcloud.com/grxyice/without-saying-goodbye-prod-kuroime-rip-chloe

faith 4 ever (metlast)

Crybaby Cam x loveUnity
Follow along on IG and SoundCloud, big love! 💗
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✨ @loveunity
💫 @crybabycam

Too Long!

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Too Long! w/ Crybaby Cam x loveUnity (+ YungJZAisDead) [DigiDash! Exclusive]

written, produced, mixed and master by me

mental state

Recorded in Holt Stairs Studio
Produced, Mixed, & Mastered by @Holt-Stairs

Goodbyes (prod. Holt Stairs)

I H8 That I Like U (Wetgropes)

and i’m playing my ds
gotta lot of stress oh
and i know i made a mess
hearts all on her chest
i can’t even get dressed tho
it gets better in the winter i say
i get carried away and it dont go away
i call my mom i know
i know 
warmer in the winter
made me cold forever
chamber like december 
hi tec syrup and a pain pill 
you just let me down in the landfill
leave me on my own 
i be with her watching king of the hill 
they say do what you want to 
i won’t call u if you want to
if you want me call me call me if you got to 
if you wanna ruin my life i got u 
it’s not important to me i’m a trash mc 
grew up watching cable mtv 
swear that propecia killed me
and i fall off my dreams
third eye blind as it seems

playin my ds

lyrics:

i just wish i had you by my side 
late nights all alone i’m getting high 
i don’t wanna be alone tonight 
i just wanna be with you tonight 
i just wanna be with you alright 
do you really want me tonight 
tell me if you really feel the same 
everyday is just the same 

i just wanna leave my town 
they call me selfish 
i just wanna spend 2k 
on an outfit 
i don’t really care how you feel 
i cant help it 
i’ve been smoking green all day 
just like a celtic 
i just wanna feel your skin 
it’s like velvet 
i just wanna die a legend 
like elvis 
why you wanna hate on me 
your so jealous 
i know that your 
young and restless 

and i don’t know why 
i don’t really care 
what you’re saying 
wake up in the morning 
yeah i know that your playing 
everybody yeah just get off of me 
i don’t really wanna be stuck
in this tragedy  

i know like i know 

yeah i know 
why you wanna leave me 
on the road 
why you wanna leave me 
like alone 
i just wanna hold your hand 
let’s go home 
let’s go home 
i don’t wanna leave you alone 
why you wanna do me like that 
i just wanna take you right back 

i just wanna leave my town 
they call me selfish 
i just wanna spend 2k 
on an outfit 
i don’t really care how you feel 
i cant help it 
i’ve been smoking green all day 
just like a celtic 
i just wanna feel your skin 
it’s like velvet 
i just wanna die a legend 
like elvis  
why you wanna hate on me 
your so jealous 
i know that your 
young and restless 

i know there’s no going back 
but let’s try to go 
down this road again 
my friend my only friend 
i know i’m not the one again 

you don’t have to 
if you don’t want to

but i’ll survive i know i will 
i got to chill 
she popped the pill 
i’m feeling alright 
i’ll do anything 
just to keep you by my side 
i work all day and i work all night 
will i ever be enough 
will you ever give up on me 
i don’t ever wanna wake up 
and one day 
have you walk out on me 

https://soundcloud.com/lil-soda-boi

mental state

Ryan Brun

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