Benedixhion

can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

you don’t know what i been through
oh whoa i’m feeling blue
i don’t know what do
and girl it’s cuz of you
smoked a blunt and now i’m faded
mixed that shit with xans and now i’m wasted
i feel like i have been failing
this whole life is overrated

yah 
it’s over overrated
i can feel my memories fading
i don’t think that i can take this
i can’t fuck with no fake bitch
no i don’t want you to go
i can’t be left alone
i needa know
why you treat me like im a ghost
you don’t really need me at all
i wish i knew why you never call
you just left me broken and scarred
but fuck you bitch i’ll still go far
wont you come and hold me
i can’t take being this lonely
wont you come and hold me
i don’t wanna die alone please

i’m so sick of crying
every night i think of dying
i can’t take it 
i don’t think i’ll make it

xoxo [prod. Varela Katana]

made this on insta live lol

lyrics:
you just tore a hole in my heart
i should’ve known your game from the start
im all alone i need to restart 
pour acetone all over my scars
i’m gone
nauseas off the oxy
fuck the cost
whyd you never call me
pills popped
it turns me to a zombie
i’m so lost
nobody can stop me

life is pain
i’m feeling like shit
i don’t know why i even exist
i tried to find a reason
but i decided living’s a bitch
you don’t care at all so i’m faded
lost my mind i’m way too sedated
cant stop it i’m always failing
i am not a soul worth saving 
not a souls worth saving
i feel like the whole world hates
i wish you wouldn’t play me
i just really need you baby

i hate the way that i feel
life doesn’t even feel real
i’m trapped inside my head again
these drugs my only friends
these drugs my only friends
i’m trapped inside my head again
i miss you baby
wont you come back and save me
i don’t know how to cope without you
honestly i’m so blue
i feel like i’m losing myself when i am around you
yeah
baby i know
you don’t even wanna take it slow
honestly we should just go hit the road
maybe do a couple tours
and do a couple shows
i just wanna see the world with you
i just wanna make your dreams come true
you said that you love me
hope you do
cuz u already know that i love you

acetone [prod. Atis x Deucesrk x CV]

ima hit your line up ina minute
you told me you loved me
but we both know that you didn’t
love it when you fuck me
it feels like i’m dreaming baby
i hope that you can save me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i feel like i’m losing my soul
and girl i can’t fight this
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
yeah ay
before i get violent
you said that you needed me
but you ain’t really need a thing
no baby
you can’t fucking save me
i can’t trust a soul
already know your gunna play me

pulled up to the party fucked up
and shawty ain’t like it
i just need more pills in my skull 
before i get violent
oh
i can’t live my life if i’m not off a benzo
lil shawty grinding on me
she ain’t wanna take it slow
oh oh oh
shawty all up on me she ain’t wanna take it slow
life feels like a dream when i be off a benzo
i’m off too much i lost my soul

i ain’t gotta lot on my mind
except for you girl
i just wanna take up your time
and that’s the truth girl
i wanna make it to the bag
shawty on my lap
she be all up on me while i countin up my stacks
on god
if you gotta problem with me think that can be solved
lil bitch jus pull up
what the fuck
i been really living dangerous but this shit is fucking fun

snorting oxy straight to my lungs
i’m know i’m goin crazy
just wanna be xanned out for fun
so i’ll be chillin baby
i need another fuckin bar
already on three but i ain’t feel that shit at all

spotify

pulledup2thapartyfuckedup

life’s strange
everyday feels like it’s a game
might just die tonight
suicide
too many too many pills
i
my stomachs full of pills my lungs
are full of smoke cuz i can’t trust
nobody
i don’t think that she loves me
or does she 
cuz i can never get enough
i’m stuck on pills i need more drugs
i found another plug
but her love just ain’t enough
love is just another drug
cuz the moment she’s leaving
i’m feeling empty

and this life is deceiving
so please don’t tempt me
i might end it
not alive just pretending
i’m just pretending
yah
i’m just pretending till the moment life is ending
i’m stuck
i don’t wanna die like this
but i need more drugs
i can’t lie this shit
has got me so fucked up
yah
got me so fucked up
yah
this love or lust?

temptme [prod. chavez x itsmalloy]

my brains full of anxiety
i popped 5 xans but i still can’t sleep
there’s nothing left of me 
so let me rest in peace
i jus dropped a grand on a fit
i’ve spent way more on all this xanax
it sucks
life hurts i’ve had enough
i can’t cope without drugs

all i need is you and thats true
fuck a squad and fuck a crew
 ima do what ima do
and bitch i’m making moves
i don’t know 
where the fuck i’m sposed to go
i been lost and on my own
cuz this whole live’s a lonely road

anxious666 [prod. sciptix]

i watch my life as its falling apart
but i feel fine as i lie in the dark
this life’s a game and i’m playing my part
soon i’ll burn out like a dying star

without the drugs i’d never make it
the only way i’m getting by is staying faded
yeah
but half these plugs be selling fake shit
it got me feeling kinda off, they prolly laced it
whoa
i’m fucking wasted
i feel like gucci, take a shot right to the face bitch
you never wanted me so that’s the way i face it
i shouldn’t even give a fuck, ‘cause girl you’re basic

i’m over that chick
and i’m so far gone
i might crash my whip
just for the hell of it
‘cause i don’t give a shit
i’m fucking done with this
i’m screaming fuck you bitch

big bands in my pocket
yeah
wallet chains wit no wallet
yeah
i got plans to be up next
yeah
i won’t stop till it happens
yeah

i smoked an 8th and now i’m cruising
all i really want in life is to make music
but everybody fucking hates me
my dad despises what i’m doin, says i’m lazy
well, you can hate me from afar but i’ll keep moving
‘cause i got big ass fucking goals while y’all ain’t do shit
you waste your youth going to college like you’re s’posed to
i spend it doing what i want while making big moves

oh my god i think i miss you
i don’t wanna but i think i do
i just wish i didn’t miss you
i don’t wanna but i think it’s true

end of the world and i feel fine [prod. sketchmyname]

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LYRICS:

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly
no one’s gunna miss me
miss when you would kiss me
now i guess i’m better off alone
tell my mamma i ain’t comin home

(cyzun)
I really hate my life 
I wasted so much time 
You played with my mind 
I’m leaving you in the past 
Because of you I’m sad 
But i want you back 
I’m taking these drugs so I can’t feel
It makes it much easier to fucking heal
It’s killing me slowly but I’m still here
My minds getting fucked up can I disappear

(benedixhion)
i don’t wanna talk at all
you said you love me but you don’t
you never fucking call
not at all
once had feelings
now i’m fucking numb
hope the end comes quickly

Benedixhion

AnxiouslyJadeyy