Net Terminal Gene Pt. 1

i meant it when i said i loved you, i'm sorry it didn't last.

m1.dariacore - 3

✧˖*°࿐ - 2

Favorite Songs - 3

little song that I did so you guys can have something to listen to before I can release smth longer, I still hope that all of you will enjoy it ^^ (I also been inspired by https://soundcloud.com/heylog - give them a listen!!)

produced/mixed/mastered by me

insta:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

we both know what’s better
for us and we can never
fix us cause we will never
come to get to know each other

and I’m completely honest
truth hurts but we’ve been trying
was it really all for nothing
was it really all for nothing

and I don’t wanna solve it
let’s leave it and forget it
I won’t be even trying
to reconnect as friends
 
Let’s seperate our paths
And heal these fucking cuts
We both had bunch of knives
stabbed in our backs

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on

Truth hurts
don’t want to hear no more
and I know
that you just had enough
of me
to be honest, I understand
that’s on me
just pin the blame on me

truth hurts

prod deadfish <3

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig

lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

war within oneself
authorial production

@twikipedia IG  @D9LTA twitter

upon seeing me, raging madness ceased to exist, when i approached, even the sharpest pain used to laugh. it was impossible for anyone to be tortured by their gnawing worries, or to be torn by the uncertain fleetingness of worldly matters. our presence overcame all fears, and with me every hour was a happy one. i pleased with the way i moved and spoke, even with a tragic voice, cheering up worrying minds in manifold ways. 
- vitalis

it's not what i have

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:

Lay in my bed and the time
Is running away but thats fine
I feel like I dont try enough
To make anything out of my life

Tell me that I am not wasting my time
Tell me that I didnt fuck up my life
Feed me your lies and make me feel secure
I can’t tell the truth and dont want to anymore

Dont call on my phone
Leave me alone
You say you’re a bro
But I don’t think so, no

I don’t want to hide
But I dont have a choice
Bottle it up
I feel like a toy

Seems like every day’s just getting worse
And I’m taking all these pills but there’s no difference at all
Its gotten to the point where I’ve given up hope
But I keep on faking smiles cause they want me to

I can’t just sit n chill
By myself cause then I would
Find myself just breaking down
Thinking bout my life and how

Itd be easier to end it
Thinking bout it but then still
I got someone to live for
Dont know how much I need them

Lately its been way too much
Weight on both my arms
Been carrying way too much
Troubles, stress still not enough

Looking at the time and I’m wasted
FUCK
It’s another day, nothing changing
Still feel like shit and head’s aching
Take another pill and forget it
x2

change

produced by me and @heylog

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

GLASS TEETH

prod. istasha

LYRICS:

TWENTYTHREE:

Leave the head at feet of a tree, no need for it now 
I believe what I’ve seen 
Face in the leaves, so I wait for defeat, 
I’m a mess at the best won’t reach what I seek 
I’ve been out of pocket for a minute 
fall for it first, buck shot if they winning 
Don’t wake, imma die before I finish
No detox, down in the dirt and stay missing 

New stains on a pistol grip 
Follow me I know where we both won’t slip 
Bitch, new blade, this a house made shiv 
Running out of place and I pray I don’t trip 
For a minute, till I’m back down 
No brain in the last round
Stay awake, new stage for the hand out 
Chains hangin’ in the way of a packed crowd
I’m a lost cause, full frame on the flat ground

Fall back, no false track, reload until I fall flat 
Stay on that, all combat, they talking just to stall facts 

ISTASHA:
Dead but I pay no fare
Hopping on boat like I just don’t care 
Stay swimming in the river 
One taste don’t dare
Never waste away 
On my grave, I swear

I don’t mean to paint you up in any way
You feed the pain
Your colours gonna fade
Like gradients 
Your mind away like it’s awol 

Leaves that froze on my skin never grow 
Canine teeth 
Grab the throat up to my neck 
Fill the rope

TWENTYTHREE X ISTASHA - GLASS TEETH

We Praise You (Matt Redman Version)

Eden (Isn't It Just Like You?)

Spotify

Picture Frames

produced by me
inspired by kurtains & paralamas do sucesso
i hope you enjoyed yourself
lil mid track to end it i like this one though 

lyrics:

and i run i run i run, it stops being fun
and i don't wanna drive fast with bottles on my trunk
i can't really run fast, when both my legs were shrunk
i look and look around i feel like i'm the only one
but it still looks okay
it sounds so good it's fake just like everything i say
"it's too hard can't do it, won't try to find a way"
i do a great job ignoring everything they say

but it doesn't feel that good sometimes
and i still don't know the reason why
don't think i deserve it

you're not a good person but you're not alone
i hate when i get called but i still love my phone
and i don't like you at all that's just how it goes
i hope you're not mad... and if you are then i'm not dealing with it

and i run i run i run...

run outro

produced by me

don't run laps in my head

forgive me for briefly stealing if it means anything flow

laps

Kingdom Hearts: Simple & Clean (Pluggnb Remix) [prod. temcandoanything]

DRIVE

produced by me

lyrics:
wanna be alone cause it's quiet
locked up in my room, no more fighting
plug both of my ears, hear no riot
put away my feelings, no more crying

no talk
thorns out
mask on
happy home

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my   room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

always feel ignored and nobody wanna take me
seriously for once, why you think I'm always faking
walk around my room with no purpose, thoughts are pacing
wish I had the guts, cause the future fucking scares me

don't go the way I went cause you'll end up with scars
I just want a piece of quiet, is it too much to ask?
rarely check up on my phone, cause it's filled with demands
I can't meet ur expectations, you been asking too much

please stop yelling, I've been trying
please stop pushing, please stop fighting
I dont wanna see you crying
I just wanna feel 
(at home)

home

STRENGTH BONUS

STRENGTH BONUS (feat. fish narc)

psych - i will keep you warm {slowed mix} :P

produced by elxnce & 4am

additional mastering by hallownest

there's nothing to eat out here w/ hallownest & seph prod elxnce & 4am

two faced ft. vanity

been a min

https://soundcloud.com/kurse11
https://soundcloud.com/fvckriv
https://soundcloud.com/brayamm

MOTION FT KURSE11 & RIV (PK & BRAYAM)

Above ft. JoshuaSageArt (wayza)

Write, Produced, and Mixed by jacy nyte
Featuring i9bonsai @i9bonsai

jacy nyte:
Might seem torn up from the outside
But at least my skin is all beauty inside
Cost a dream or two but that's fine
Cause I just keep my actions where my mouth lies
Now I won't be resting in your poison betrayal
Voices hit like when rain turns to hail
Coins do flips in my head, let me fail
Always on the tip of a feather I can't hold on

Sweet honey, missing stars
You better not see things for how they are
Not trusting me is their favorite part and
I'll leak out my veins just to see your scars
Take me apart but you never undid the threads

Pull me out the water all covered in blood the looks of slaughter is cause of the
Spikes in my head
Weaved every thorn between the threads
Finally in bed without you telling me how to rest
Take me apart but you never undid the threads

i9bonsai:
night and day•
how can i stay awake?
i need to get away
before it all just goes to waste;

can take me all apart again - 
ur fallace i dont want to pretend
does this have any mean or end

and i wont tend
tend to it; 
my dear my friend
its all i have left~

jacy nyte:
Now I got nothing to say
Words don't form in my brain
Twisted knots in my veins
Make it pretty like braids
Talk to birds in my walls
I won't let the feathers fall
Are you telling me it all, are you telling me-

Pull me out the water all covered in blood the looks of slaughter is cause of the
Spikes in my head
Weaved every thorn between the threads
Finally in bed without you telling me how to rest
Take me apart but you never undid the threads

Feathers (feat. i9bonsai)

jacy nyte