produced by: caps ctrl

vocals,mixing,mastering and artwork: birdbay

Lyrics:

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

(verse)

i’ve been under the pressure i’m tryna do my best
i’ve been tryna be myself i’m doing my best i swear

i’ve been down, i’ve been down, i’ve been down again

i’ve been losing my crown when i falling in

i don’t wanna be apart of your one sided history 

i don’t, i don’t wanna be apart of your history 
or atleast not the story that you’re telling
i don’t really wanna like it but i have to 

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

earl grey [caps ctrl]

It’s empty inside my heart 
I’ve got Nothing to give I feel so torn apart 
300 miles away from you, it’s too far 
Wish up on a star 
to heal up all of my scars 
I had to go 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 
you’d never know 
cause I’ll always stay so unstable 
I feel so emotionally unavailable 

so lonely it’s inescapable 
I know that you’re so irreplaceable 
your love was gravitational 
my damage unforgettable 
every time I lied 
you became more observational 

Now I sit in silence 
fuck all of the violence 
sick of all this fighting 
broke my heart I’m crying 
I just need some guidance 
Cant you see I’m trying 
to change my ways, your highness 
I present you with this diamond 

Remember 
every winter comes with this weather 
The same breeze that we felt in December 
reminds me of all the times 
I drove for miles just to see your face 
I wish that I could do this right but it’s too late 
left alone with scars on my heart 
you didn’t want to move far 
and now I’m broken so I try to live through my art

emotionally unavailable (prod. Afterlife x Xxajii)

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Barely Thru the Doorway w/Autumndropsdead [lathan]

And That Was The Last Day That I Saw You

Produced by @user-757072975 & @pekarot_161
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Caffeine and THC
No better way to start the day
All the things that keep me sane
Are the same things dragging me to an early grave

Look at the rut that I've
Dug myself into this time around
It comes as a surprise but somehow
I'm still above the ground

I don't wanna die young
I just wanna be someone you can rely on
But I'm
Living in a pipe dream if I think
Anybody else could like me
Despite me

I don't wanna be an addict
I don't wanna die before my time
Like my dad did
That'd be tragic
Everything I have just tossed in the trash bin

(Horosha)
My whole life I've been an addict
Chasing a high that just doesn't exist
For a life I wanna live
And neglecting the one I'm in

So it's
Caffeine and THC
Late nights on my balcony to cope
With the reality that not everything works out like on the silver screen

I don't wanna be an addict
Chasing a high that just doesn't exist
There's a life that I could live
If I just let myself live it

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Tragic! (Prod. Lavender_Txwn & Pekarot)

i keep getting texts from people i don't want them from (prod wavvy)

i dont mind if im just wasting time
im alright when i see you smile
fuck my life 
why did you leave me
please dont cry
when you're reading
what i wrote you
sorry that i broke you

i dont wanna be okay
when i cant be with you
im drowning in this fucking pain
i needed you
i wanna kiss you in the rain
i miss seeing you
i guess now its too late to change
i needed you

when i see you smile (splashgvng x jolst)

if i had any sense

lyrics :

if i had any sense , 
might of been inside a benz ,
looking in the mirror tell myself some death threats , 
running out of things to live for yea im still trying to catch my breath , 
oh ,

what u did to me i still cry & overthink , 
wake up 3 months later every-time i blink  , 
eyes red & black its like they in sync ,
spitting blood out up in my sink , 
i wish that i could drink ,
but im an addict on the brink ,
of suicide & other things , 
yea i guess to see whatever that brings me , 
oh fuck all of this jealousy ,
& fuck all of these memories ,
& what the fuck is history , 
my fucking heart in misery ,

if i had any sense , 
might of been inside a benz ,
looking in the mirror tell myself some death threats , 
running out of things to live for yea im still trying to catch my breath , 
oh ,

death threats

(p. idly blare)
𝕄𝕚𝕩 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕞𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕪 - 𝕜𝕚𝕚.
𝕨𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕟 𝕓𝕪 - 𝕟𝕠𝕧𝕒 𝕘𝕒𝕣𝕕𝕖𝕟 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕜𝕚𝕚.
𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕕𝕦𝕔𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕪 - 𝕚𝕕𝕝𝕪 𝕓𝕝𝕒𝕣𝕖
@novagarden
(ɴᴏᴠᴀ ɢᴀʀᴅᴇɴ)
ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ
ɪ ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ-
ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ꜰɪɴᴇ
ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ɪ'ᴍ ʟʏɪɴ'
ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɴᴇ

ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ
ɪ ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ-
ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ꜰɪɴᴇ
ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ɪ'ᴍ ʟʏɪɴ'
ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɴᴇ

(ᴋɪɪ.)
ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴍɪꜱꜱɪɴɢ ʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ 
ʙʏ ᴍʏ ꜱɪᴅᴇ ɪ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ʜᴜʀᴛ 
ɴᴏᴡ ɪ'ᴍ ᴏɴʟʏ ꜱɪɴɢɪɴɢ ᴀ ᴄᴜʀꜱᴇ
ɪ’ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ɢᴏ ᴏɴ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ 
ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴜꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʟᴀᴜɢʜɪɴɢ 
ᴛʜᴇʏ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀꜱᴛ ᴛᴇɴꜱᴇ 
ᴏɴ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ꜰᴇʟᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ 
ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ʟᴏꜱɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ 
ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄʀʏ 
ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴍᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ᴏʜ ꜱᴏ ʀɪɢʜᴛ 
ʟᴇᴀᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴏʜ ᴛᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛɪᴇᴅ 
ᴡɪꜱʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ 
ᴏɴʟʏ ʜᴇᴀʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴠᴏɪᴄᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙʀᴇᴇᴢᴇ
ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ

(ɴᴏᴠᴀ ɢᴀʀᴅᴇɴ & ᴋɪɪ.)
ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ
ɪ ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ-
ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ꜰɪɴᴇ
ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ɪ'ᴍ ʟʏɪɴ'
ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɴᴇ

ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴇꜰᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ
ɪ ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ-
ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ꜰɪɴᴇ
ʏᴏᴜ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ɪ'ᴍ ʟʏɪɴ'
ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴀʏꜱ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɴᴇ
ᴍɪɴᴇ, ᴍɪɴᴇ

melancholy - w/ nova garden

CxldKid x Alainite - Breathe pt.2

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