Take my thoughts straight from my guts and make them a poem

69 comments now I gotta add a celebratory nuhh to the collection on my wall 😼

lowkey nice to see people actually on sound cloud but (i make this 73 comment)

the fact that this is otuka and worm at the same time 🥹🥹

I've been listening to peak all day jades,otuka,and worm(all the same artist for the ones who don't know)

lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

produced by guda & JibaoRockin

lyrics: 
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes, eyes

i know you see me
you cant deceive me
you act like it's easy
to throw me away to rot

i know you see me
i know that
just open your eyes
just open up your eyes

you're not blind you're not deaf
i know you see and hear me well
you choose not to hear me
i feel i need to yell
and you say that it's love
but i'm not sure if you mean well
til death do us part
i guess i'll see your ass in hell
i'll see you then
i don't know when
just open your eyes
and you'll see me again
i'm neither foe or a friend
it's only us in the end
wish you could see through my lens
won't you just

open your eyes (just open up)
open your eyes (can you see me?)
open your eyes(just open up)
open your eyes, eyes (can you see me?)

ah

open your eyes

back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

I would fuck up my life for some money and change, for some rings and some chains
for some people to “love” me and scream out my name til it drives me insane
oh to be a somebody with numbers and fame, would it be such a shame
now if that’s what I wanted would I be to blame

go and get it uh
go and get everything you want
go and get everything you ever needed
everything you been conceding

you don’t gotta hide ur greed
you know ur secret is safe with me
you don’t gotta lie to me
rather have money than company

that’s what I tell myself
blame it on someone else
anybody but you cuz it’s racks over mental health

only care bout ur wealth
sick in the head doesn’t matter if you have some bread
just fill up ur pockets with money fuck over ur friends
you said that’s what you wanted you filled up ur wallet and left with a feeling of dread

greed

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

produced by redmosk

lyrics:

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

I’d put my pride down
Set it aside now
And fantasize bout 
how it would be better if I said the way I felt
Instead of something else
I’ll tell you everything until I’m nothing but a shell of myself
Cuz I’m nothing without my thoughts
All the things that cause my brain to rot
I can’t help it
I feel helpless
I hate that I felt this way and there’s me to blame

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

pride

my personal favorite off the EP

produced by waves

lyrics:

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
won’t let me go

I don’t wanna talk about it
I feel it wrap it’s arms around
Put its hands over my mouth
Feel the need to scream and shout
But when I try it won’t come out

Would anybody hear me?
Would anybody hear me if i tried?
If I’m screaming for my life
When I’m needing for a sign
Can you show me it’s alright?

Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won’t let me go
(x2)

let me go

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

otuka - break

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

https://youtu.be/S4D89Z3DXNU?si=rHdCwNu7vKphLaab cuz not available in my country

otuka - still save a seat for you

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

reupload. someone took it upon themselves to upload "eyelids" to all platforms as their own song and in turn, my upload of my own original song was copyright striked and taken down automatically. this is the same song just slightly pitched down. if it stays up without issue, enjoy.

produced by never forever


lyrics:

i know that i'm clouded
hope the sun shines someday upon me
I’ll open my eyelids
and see what I was missing 
cause my mind was so weak
crack open a smile for all the times I couldn’t speak
my mind

it don’t even matter, never lost faith in it
now I make a little pape with it
fuck around make a name with it
this a cold brew with some pain in it
now the boy got some age in em
same book but the page different
set a bookmark but it kept flipping on me
I’m running outta time

self destruct

jades

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