lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

bones. w/ jelex (f. jades)

I would fuck up my life for some money and change, for some rings and some chains
for some people to “love” me and scream out my name til it drives me insane
oh to be a somebody with numbers and fame, would it be such a shame
now if that’s what I wanted would I be to blame

go and get it uh
go and get everything you want
go and get everything you ever needed
everything you been conceding

you don’t gotta hide ur greed
you know ur secret is safe with me
you don’t gotta lie to me
rather have money than company

that’s what I tell myself
blame it on someone else
anybody but you cuz it’s racks over mental health

only care bout ur wealth
sick in the head doesn’t matter if you have some bread
just fill up ur pockets with money fuck over ur friends
you said that’s what you wanted you filled up ur wallet and left with a feeling of dread

greed

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

lyrics:

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)


you said “talk to me when you need it”
what’s the point if you don’t mean it?
too many missed calls
give me a reason
you don’t listen when I’m grieving 

I’ve been looking left and right for a reason
get excited when you’re leaving for the weekend
ima make a couple bands off the feeling
I just need a pen and paper, I don’t need them

tell me where you at when I’m hurting?
I can’t say a word without feeling like a burden

(yeah yeah yeah)

always feeling uncertain
gotta cut em off, close the blinds and the curtains

you don’t know what you do to me
fuck round with my head like you can’t believe 
I’m fine, I’ll be better when you fucking leave

(yeah yeah yeah)

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)

tongue tied

produced by redmosk

lyrics:

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

I’d put my pride down
Set it aside now
And fantasize bout 
how it would be better if I said the way I felt
Instead of something else
I’ll tell you everything until I’m nothing but a shell of myself
Cuz I’m nothing without my thoughts
All the things that cause my brain to rot
I can’t help it
I feel helpless
I hate that I felt this way and there’s me to blame

It’s been so long since I woke up not feeling like this
I try my best just to ignore it but I can’t hold it in
I try my best just to be honest, don’t know where to begin
I’d put my pride down for me not to feel this again
(x2)

pride

short outro

lyrics:

Even if it takes a little while
Learned from my mistakes to make you smile
Doing everything to make you proud

I just want to stand right by your side
Watch our hands slowly intertwine 
Let your life turn into mine
Until we’re one and our souls align

even if it takes awhile

song is by otuka, he just deleted it so i reuploaded it 😈

Lyrics:

(I'm just procrastinating)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

Do you hear me, my dear?
I'm calling for you
I'll give up my fear, and step away from my room
Step away my safe place, my comfort is you
My heart's not in the same place when it comes to you
(When it comes to you)

As long as it's you, I don't care
As long as it's with you, I don't care
As long as it's with you
Don't care what it is, as long as it's with you
As long as it's you

darling

otuka - darling

enjoy the funky little intermission. 
take a break, dance a little, breathe.
back to work i go but we'll be back soon,
all love always.

produced by yogic


lyrics:

baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice


they gonna tell you what you want
but I’ll tell you what you need
everything is said and done
gotta know when you should leave
but the feeling’s so addicting 
can’t let it go
all you gotta do is listen to me
be one and sink into me
I crave your intimacy 
love it when you’re in sync with me
I love the way you smile
love the way you walk around
every breath and every sound
the way my name comes out your mouth


baby listen to my voice
cuz I can teach you everything
you just gotta make a choice
don’t gotta give up anything
just the thing that brings you joy
can you hear me through 
the songs you sing
when you’re trying to avoid

baby listen to my voice 
ignoring all your issues
won’t get you out that void
keep on coping and telling yourself 
that you’re doing what you enjoy 
can you hear me through the songs you song
baby listen to my voice

listen

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

even if it takes awhile

otuka

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