-(love)

jades 🌙

Hurted

indie

background

cover photo by lauren (@1polaurbear on instagram)

lyrics:

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

I've been feeling lost in my own hometown
the way they talked then aint the same right now
they didnt like me then now they're all so proud
fuck that i dont think that i should stick around 

there was never such thing as you and I 
one look into the mirror made me realize
that i couldnt keep hiding behind my lies
i turned into the person that i most despise
dont remember who i was before 
look into the mirror thats not me no more
they say karma is a bitch tell her to settle the score with me cuz i dont think i care anymore

2x

mirror (prod. lee)

Bloodline [prod. metlast x 5head]

Black Sun ft. Diverse [prod. nothingtodo]

@prodbyjoshwa

said ur coming back but i won't lie
u dont wna act try to fool me twice
heart trapped in the moment
i see it untapped looking in ur eyes

cuz u dont wna fall
on and off baby
slow
breaking my own heart lately
it's hard for me to breathe im
comparing endlessly

fucked up the memory
know what u said to me
wasting all my time
cant afford to let u see
take all thts mine </3

endlessly (joshwa)

dormir

don’t apologize for what you did 
i cant look past it 
now you’re tryna start an argument
you’re so dramatic 
but i keep on coming back again
feel just like an addict
and i know i say this often 
but this time i swear i’ve had it 

leave me be swear it’s alright 
i’m getting tired baby 
lead me straight into the light 
see you conspire all the lies you keep on telling me
i can see right through you 
never thought that you would change but i can’t recognize the new you 

so when things don’t go as planned 
can you tell me in advance 
you leave me out in the dark
and then tell me to relax
your words mean more than a chance 
and i can’t stop myself from thinking bout this thing that we had
patience is all that i ask

addict (prod. joshwa)

#asiamoment
@willrhead @prodbyjoshwa @scrobaby

why’s it like this u could ask?
complicated, getting bad
baby i dunno if it’s worth it
been observant
and my eyes been steady searching

if luck dont get u karma finna get u for me
took me by ur hand, u did as u pleased
im stuck, im stuck, let it fade to black
im stuck with the qualities i lacked

was this what u wanted for me?
i can see ur secrets, baby
i, don’t know if i want this anymore
good riddance to the past i had, and it’s

tick tock on the clock baby whats up
i ran out of time, now the sun’s up
and it blows away, i understand
i needed a place where i can land
tick tock on the clock baby whats up
lost it all again i need my luck up
don’t wanna get way too in it
don’t wanna risk it all for the image

texting me spamming with your message
i dont wanna be stuck n second guessing
my patience thin, ur always testing
ur hell, its always messy

need an intervention in between
got my ties severed, several that i had to leave
good grief, never heard the words u speaking
reap what u sow practice what u preach then

tick tock (joshwa + will rhead + scro)

produced by @prodbyjoshwa
mix and master: me + myno
vocals: me + myno

lyrics:
@asumuh(verse 1)
every single call 
doesn’t feel the same
i know i f*ked up bad
again and again
but i need you to
stay with me
cause i don’t wanna be alone again
and i messed up twice
yet i’m checking my phone
got like 20 missed calls 
and i’m still on my own
yeah i’ve gone off track
and i’m losing control
and i’m losing my mind so baby

(hook)
don’t go
baby i’m just scared of the truth
and all the words that said
meant like nothing to you
and i don’t really wanna end
on some off terms
so baby lets just talk it out
and i don’t really wanna shout
(hahahaha)
baby it just feel like I’m in hell
cause we fighting every day and night
and I’m just yelling through my cell
so baby please don’t go 
so we don’t make it complicated
(and i really wanna stay)

@fknmyno (verse 2)
and i’ve been waiting for u all day
i cant get enough of your love if i’m honest
i know we argue a lot but that’s okay 
cause i don’t think that i would have it any other way 

so don’t you tell me that your gonna leave
i’m tryna talk it out, but it’s too hard to breathe 
who said this loving shit is easy? 
fuck that, we gon make it through just believe me

don’t go 
let’s just try it again and again 
i don’t want this to end 
so don’t leave me all alone 
girl i just need you, you, you, oh

(hook)
don’t go
baby i’m just scared of the truth
and all the words that said
meant like nothing to you
and i don’t really wanna end
on some off terms
so baby lets just talk it out
and i don’t really wanna shout
(hahahaha)
baby it just feel like I’m in hell
cause we fighting every day and night
and I’m just yelling through my cell
so baby please don’t go 
so we don’t make it complicated
(and i really, and i)

don't go

spotify >:D

don't go w/ myno (joshwa)

lyrics:

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

and it feels like nobody loves you and everybody hates you
Is everyone around you tryna change you?
Got no one but yourself, who’s gonna save you?
The person in the mirror really ain’t you
I don’t wanna stay here I don’t wanna go there
It feels like I belong nowhere
You can pretend but I know you don’t care
I tried to play by your rules but it’s not fair
I don’t need you I don’t need them
I just booked a flight I’ll be gone by the weekend
I been tryna get my head straight I’m trippin for no reason
Don’t know what to do I think I’ve fallen off the deep end
Yeah they don’t even care that I’m upset
I’m pissed off, barely getting started I ain’t done yet
I haven’t gone to sleep, I watched the sunrise and sunset
I think I’ll go to sleep soon cuz bitch

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

crashed (prod. joshwa)

thats my b*****

argyle [flip]

ericdoa - iswearillmakeitalright (extended snippet)

wanted it all (ryo)

one more to go

lyrics:
don’t even talk to me
I don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

Just stay quiet don’t say a word
Don’t try to talk to me now cuz you were silent before
And I don’t pick up the phone cuz ima settle the score
You make it complicated, I don’t wanna do this no more
Yeah I been on the same shit but you been on some lame shit
I don’t think you ever gave a fuck so why you changing?
the way you come around now let’s me know you ain’t shit
I don’t think we’ll ever get along and that’s the main thing
You don’t get it, you’re the problem
You can never solve em
How you talkin down on me knowing you’re at the bottom
You’ll do anything to flaunt sum
Bet you thought you got one
You can find me on the top floor, tell em all that I won
I’m never hearing you out
I know you’re hearing me now
You tried to figure me out but now you’re stuck in denial
You weren’t here for awhile but now you’re stressing out
Don’t bother sticking around, don’t ever try to fucking

talk to me
don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

switching sides (prod. joshwa)

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

30minfreestyle (beatowski)

Spotify

break ups suck ass | feat. sadeyes

[verse]
What if I still miss you
Would you come back?
I will give you my everything
Will you give it back to me (to me)
All the night long
Spending it together
Go along with my life
Would you make it even better? (even better)

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind 
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now 
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

[Verse]
Lonely nights 
Talking to myself
Every time
Lying on my bed
I think about you
I think about us
Held to each other
We don't give a fuck about
What people think
What's going on

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

STREAM

Hopeless [prod. micco]

They call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it...
(This is the last single before I begin to release work from "Past the Stars")
Written by: @itsyungvan x @sinxi
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @prime
art by: @scottysplash

Lyrics-

yung van-
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
you pop up when I'm in class looking at the time
tell me that I'm crazy reminiscing
I forgot everything we were missing

You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

Sinxi-
and I fell in love but with the old you
oh I catch your perfume as you pass-through
oh I think of the times that'll pass soon
oh I gave you my heart? I didn't mean to
I've been playing it over a couple  hundred times
yeah, the things I could say and ways to stay dry
yeah, to get you to see that I'm okay this time
but would it be a crime to try again one night

yung van-
You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

i fell in love, but with the old you

Other Platforms

I fell in love, but with the old you ft. Sinxi (Prod. SteezyPrime)

prod. Morin x Miracle

Lyrics:
[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

[verse]
Till the day you die
You will be alone
With the hug of the drugs
Making you feel loved
Making you feel something
But you know that's nothing
Cause those feelings have no meaning
Bottle up the screams in a heartache
Nobody helps they only care about their own sake
You're a prey in a world of vultures
Feeling hopeless and seeing no future

[hook]
Got a gun to my head
Keep my eyes close
Take a breath
Last time they will see me alive
People crying at your funeral but just because
Everybody care about you just the day you die 
x2

MUSIC VIDEO

Last Day [prod. Morin x Miracle]

Lyrics:

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries 
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

[verse]
I've been so stupid trusting you
I knew nobody is ever honest
I think I'll keep on avoiding you
I'm just a lone wolf inside this forest
Living my life like I've always done and
Living my life all alone 
I swear that I'm so sorry mother
But your son now is gone

[hook]
I am in a dark place can you save me?
I am all on my own can you blame me?
I am falling apart can you heal me?
I am screaming so loud can you hear me?
All the thoughts in my mind are blending together
I can't sort anything that is in my head
Feels like I'm somewhere that I can never
Escape from I guess I'm better off dead
Nobody even tries
Everybody lies
Drowning in cries
I just wanna die
I'm in a roller coaster I'm going down
Crashing to the floor you can hear the sound
Leaving no memories with my lost
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs
Killed myself to keep you alive at all costs

Dark Place [prod. Young Kxge]

lyrics:

*moaning intro*

if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year


Wish that I could give you the world, I hate this
Gotta get outta here, I can’t take this
Waiting for my time to come, I’ve been patient
I’ll keep it moving til I end up on your playlist


if you keep asking, I’ll keep saying I’m okay 
I have no reason to be doing what you say bruh
do what I want and I’ll just worry bout you later 
Focused on myself and now she’s thinking that I hate her
Just give me time and I will get us outta here
I need your help cuz in my head there’s only doubt I hear
I keep it pushing it don’t matter how bad I feel
Cuz I don’t think I could take this for another year

meantime (prod. lil biscuit & dxnny fxntom)

be nice to speckles

lyrics:

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
2x

All this talkin “dontcare”
I was “stuckk” n stressed pullin out my damn hair
“blah blah blah” they like to talk when I’m not there 
I don’t “talknomore” but if I do bet it’s so rare
Stranger “danger!” Idk her she’s a hater hater
So damn “empty!” Have no anger anger
“Can’t relax”, I’ll do that later later

I don’t like to talk cuz it’s always some fuck shit
I’m in my mode got no time for discussions
Stressed out til my body can’t function
I’m tryna focus stop causing disruptions 

I do not care what they say about me
Cuz they watch how I move cuz I’m smooth on my feet
And they hate and they hate they can’t do it like me
So sad cuz you just can’t compete

I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush
I don’t like to talk too much
Cuz I don’t like pretending like I give a fuck
I got way too many people tryna keep in touch
But I gotta keep it moving cuz I’m in a rush

speckles (prod. eric godlow)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win

sns (prod. idly blare)

lyrics:

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed 
2x

I don’t hit up my friends cuz I don’t wanna be rude
They got their own shit that their going through
so I’ll just play some music and buss a lil move 
It’s 4 am I’ll just dance in my room

[skit by jades]

Idk what to do anymore 
Might as well be dead on the floor
But I’ll settle the score
I’m not letting you win that’s for sure 

[skit by jades]

I don’t know what to do when my heads in a mess
I might write a lil song when I’m deep in distress
I might go through my phone and look at our  texts
I might just stare at my ceiling and not get outta bed