Up and down
Youve been fallin for a whole day now

Do you ever wanna make it out
I asked what should I do he said to drink water

Drink it down
Ive been wandering for 2 weeks now

And faces look weird they’re replaced with distortions

I dont need my brain back I just need a portion

I spent the better part
Of a year fighting
With paranoia seems to get better
At telling you you’ll die in December
Before you secure the means to get better

I feel like Bonaparte
Or rather dynamite
My social skills were blown right to smithers
Burns from my phone began to form letters
My default is down I swear my posture was better

OH JUST WHAT I NEEDED

A REASON TO LOOK AT MY PHONE MORE

A REASON TO DOUBLE LOCK THE DOORS

OH JUST WHAT I NEEDED

A CHANGE IN MY WARDROBE A CLEAN ROOM

A REASON TO CRY IN THE BATHROOM

Everything seems farther now

All around
Ive been searching for a whole year now

I know that the sneakin food into my room is misguided but better than texting with you

Drink it down
Ive been crying for an hour now

There’s beauty in kindness I know I should try it
I finally gave up on stupid fad diets

I remember lookin round thinkin this cant be real
The beige tiles flattened and suspect
The corner of rooms were oblong and upset

I remember the sidewalk movin I feel
Like I disrupted some sub stratum
I wondered if David felt this happen

All these lonely nights
Brought me back to life
My home became my self help coach
I saw my memories i found hope
In each corner was an older
Point of view

I spent the better part
Of the night cryin
At people doing nice things together
The internet could help me get better
But I cant look up if I ll die in December

I feel like Joan of arc
Or rather Morrissey 
Got sick of dreaming learned to cut tethers
To feelings that held me down that whole December
I hope my big mouth chews on thoughts that are better

OH JUST WHAT I NEEDED

A REASON TO LOOK AT MY PHONE MORE

A REASON TO DOUBLE LOCK THE DOORS

OH JUST WHAT I NEEDED

A CHANGE IN MY WARDROBE A CLEAN ROOM

A REASON TO CRY IN THE BATHROOM

Everything seems farther now

Just What I Needed

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She/it. Hi :3 I just wanna exist here plz ♡

PFP: JelloFish on Tumblr

i teleported bread☹️

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S.A.E PRODUCTIONS

they/them
nonbinary, asexual, queer
bengali-american, desi-american

i wanna consider my music taste hedonistically eclectic. i'm just trying to embrace the parts of myself that have been left unloved.

i'm trash panda at heart, if you wanna acknowledge i have a heart at all

i worry that all i am is all will ever be

i need new headphones

i might upload the occasional shitty cover of a song 'cause, even though i can't play guitar, i wish i could play it to complement my voice which i don't completely hate, actually. i'd like to think i'm improving, slowly but surely.

this is really my only active social media 

former otaku

banner by my close friend rainer adams (https://on.soundcloud.com/ppJxmsZVRYROPm6Xxa, i gotta ask if he's chill with me linking his youtube channel) as the cover of a spotify playlist he made for my bday this year
pfp from watamote vol3 (forgot to update bio with pfp)

https://twitter.com/BlueFosterBlue
I make every type of music

Just What I Needed

Blue Foster loosies