i'm not alright

convinced i'm dying

thx 4 having me

everywhere is nowhere

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i feel the presence of ghosts
 i think i’m getting too close
 they’re tryna close in the distance   
i feel the presence of ghosts 
i think i’m getting too close
 i think im becoming one of them  
too far gone 
too far gone 
to rescue me 
 i dont know where to go
  too far gone 
too far gone, 
can’t help me now 
help me now 
help me now  

up for 48
can’t shake this anxiety  yeah i might go insane
alcohol and nicotine will keep feeling safe
i know that it’s killing me bringing me to my grave
i don’t wanna go back no
it ain’t all bad though
i ain’t addicted baby yeah i just wanna taste
never sober is the anthem 
kicking it with a phantom
i can quit any minute so give me something to take
drinking all alone
i don’t wanna be here all alone
i thought you said you would never go
turned out, you were a ghost

i feel the presence of ghosts
 i think i’m getting too close
 they’re tryna close in the distance   
i feel the presence of ghosts 
i think i’m getting too close
 i think im becoming one of them  
too far gone 
too far gone 
to rescue me 
 i dont know where to go
  too far gone 
too far gone, 
can’t help me now 
help me now 
help me now

ghosts

trouble

my resentment gotta little smaller 
but i can never ever let go 
i can forgive but i don’t forget
 i was nothing but another bump in your road  

woah

  im tryna move on hoping this the last stretch 
id tell you the same thing with my very last breath 
darling i got something to confess
 i love you so much that i hate you  

woah  

the days been getting shorter 
everybody’s getting older
 i been tryna keep my ears to the ground  
i been looking toward the future hoping
it might get a little better
 i guess i gotta fear of the now

  im tryna move on hoping this the last stretch 
id tell you the same thing with my very last breath 
darling i got something to confess
 i love you so much that i hate you  

woah

ily sm ihy

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i got a target 
placed where my head is 
gotta hole where my heart is 
& you got a bandage 
oh i been careless
 i gave you my soul 
cuz your a song in my head 
it goes
  la da da da da 
la da da da da
 la da da da da 
woah 
la da da da da 
la da da da da
 la da da da da 
woah

  i’m not ready for all this
i hear heartbreak calling me
im gunna try to give you 
everything but for now its hard to see
as much as i want you 
i know you gon’ hurt me 
or im’a hurt you 
please lord show me mercy 
been feeling anxious 
i think i need some rest
 heart beating out my chest 
i need a cigarette

Target

target

Everything happens for a reason
Lately it's been getting harder to believe it
I'm running out of oxygen
Feeling like a four out of ten
I don't wanna know where I'll be next
I don't really know where to begin

I'm not alright
Alright
Another little lonely late night
Late night
It's only when I think im about to die
That's when I feel so alive
That's when I feel so alive

Made a lot of plans that all went bad
Spend a lot of time looking back
Wishing on a life I never had
Just another promise that never lasts
I'm feeling like trash
Always in love but nobody loves back
I don't wanna know if it's all going bad
But it's all going bad yeah
It's all going bad

I'm not alright
Alright
Another little lonely late night
Late night
It's only when I think im about to die
That's when I feel so alive
That's when I feel so alive

said darling its fine
i really don’t mind 
everybody knows me as a fuck up
used to losing all the time
said its fine
i really don’t mind
they say if the shoes fits wear it 
well im wearing mine 

blame me
me
me
ill be your scape goat
goat
you could blame me
me
ill be your scape goat
goat

i’m not much
of anything
i’m not fit
for wedding rings nah
i bet you fucking hate me now
i called it
didn’t i?
what are you doing tonight
ill call u over, we’ll fight
you’ll hold my hand and we’ll cry
we both know we’re outta time

said darling its fine
i really don’t mind 
everybody knows me as a fuck up
used to losing all the time
said its fine
i really don’t mind
they say if the shoes fits wear it 
well im wearing mine 

blame me
me
me
ill be your scape goat
goat
you could blame me
me
ill be your scape goat
goat

scapegoat

https://linktr.ee/jayportal
co-prod @dutchrevs
lyrics:
Been about a year now
Can't stop thinking of you
But when I do, I feel nauseous

Been about a year now
Butterflies are still around
I wonder when they'll crawl out and fly away

Can't seem to get by
I might as well hide away alone
Cross my broken heart and hope to die
There's nothing left for me baby, yeah

Letting go
Its not as easy as I thought
Dreaming of you all night long
Waking me up
In the pit of my stomach
The bugs are crawling around
All i want is to be left alone
I know you don't want me
It's okay
I won't change
But these butterflies wont ever leave me the fuck alone

Been about a year now
Can't stop thinking of you
But when I do, I feel nauseous

Been about a year now
Butterflies are still around
I wonder when they'll crawl out and fly away

Can't seem to get by
I might as well hide away alone
Cross my broken heart and hope to die
There's nothing left for me baby, yeah

butterflies

i don't dream, if i don't sleep

https://linktr.ee/jayportal

lyrics:
i fall in love too easily
i’m working on it honestly
and i can only do so much for myself
oh i can only do so much

i’m working on it
brain chemicals toxic
pistol in my pocket
in case i gotta deal with myself
i see through the lies
instead of cutting ties you put salt in the wound
gas to fire
afraid of commitment 
no good at goodbyes
been through that once and what a waste of time

i keep falling for the wrong ones
is it you or is it me who’s got the problem

i fall in love too easily
i’m working on it honestly
and i can only do so much for myself
oh i can only do so much

you look so good when you’re dancing alone
demeanour like steal and a heart made of chrome
you think by any chance i could take you home
you said lets go
i’ll buy you drink then i’ll fall in love
you’ll break my heart in the next few months
i’ll be on my own without anymore trust
i do it again and again and again 

oh i keep falling for the wrong ones
is it you or is it me who’s got the problem

i fall in love too easily
i’m working on it honestly
and i can only do so much for myself
oh i can only do so much

fall

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss
prod. kasket, maestrowons

scenes of you

scenes of you ft. kasket

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss
lyrics:
self inflicted trauma
i cant put up with the bullshit around me
i’m not one to wanna deal with all the drama
i just wanna be alone in the tall trees
burying the old me
i wanna see an old me
i was young back then
i just hope you know im sorry
i hope you know im sorry

drowning in all my vices
& all you’re advice ain’t shit
cause you don’t know what i know
so when i die
there’ll be nothing to figure out
cause i’ll be fine
yeah i’ll be fine

death before dishonour
i’ve betrayed myself
should be dead by now
done some things that ain’t proud of
i don’t think that i might ever come down
waking up on the pavement
hoping i’ll make it
on wing and a prayer
how much can i take of this shit
how much further can I sink
anto the depths of the waters
and losing you’s the hardest part of all

drowning in all my vices
& all you’re advice ain’t shit
cause you don’t know what i know
so when i die
there’ll be nothing to figure out
cause i’ll be fine
yeah i’ll be fine

when i die

all streaming platforms:
https://linktr.ee/jakekiss

sober

lyrics:

I’ve never fell so hard
Into my own grave
Thought you were an angel
But that was my mistake
I cant keep this up
Holding my breath
I can’t tell if it's love
Coming from your lips

You were my everything
I cant let you go
I can’t live if I don’t say to you

I can’t breathe
Without you here
I can’t go on
It’s looking grim
It’s looking

It’s like you never existed
Only in my mind
Something so intrinsic
When it was you and I
Now there’s no place else to go
Running off in circles
You hit me with every blow
You left me blue and purple

You were my everything
I cant let you go
I can’t live if I don’t say to you

I can’t breathe
Without you here
I can’t go on
It’s looking grim
It’s looking

breathe

prod. kasket & brentbeatz

lyrics:
You remind me 
Every time you
Look at me
You entice me
With those brown eyes
When they’re locked on mine

I feel like dying
I can’t stop
Trying for you

I can’t erase how I feel
From the jump you had my undivided
You made your way inside my brittle heart
You took me to war but I don’t see the point in fighting
This feeling runs deep inside my blood
Can’t you see me bleeding out
I wanna show you how much you mean to me
Can I show you
Can you let me

You remind me 
Every time you
Look at me
You entice me
With those brown eyes
When they’re locked on mine

I feel like dying
I can’t stop
Trying for you

feel like dying

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss
lyrics:
i'm tired of trying my best
i've lost the fire in my chest
i wanna empty my head
i'll break everything in sight
you'll tell me things just ain't that bad
i disagree
i disagree
wholeheartedly 
dont fuck with me
dont fuck with me
before i breakdown
before i breakdown

i'm falling apart now
nobody to help me out
nobody to hold me down
i dont know why i'm still trying
i'm convinced i'm dying
death comes easy
life comes harder
i'm tired so why would i bother
fighting
going crazy
every night i gotta bottle
i'm with my baby
she gunna leave me in a hour and tell me i been
changing up and acting sour well i can't hide it anymore

i'm tired of trying my best
i've lost the fire in my chest
i wanna empty my head
i'll break everything in sight
you'll tell me things just ain't that bad
i disagree
i disagree
wholeheartedly 
dont fuck with me
dont fuck with me
before i breakdown
before i breakdown

breakdown

lyrics:
I feel like im nothing without my lil plastic cups
As of lately I been running out of luck
I feel like im dying every time I tip it up
I feel like crying every time I think of us

You’ve been in my blood
For way too long
You’re all I know
You’re all I know
You’re all I know

And I really meant that
I was on the run thought that I’d never get back home
I was running on E
Bout to crash and burn but only got whiplash that’s all
All my friends say I’m lucky and
They don’t know a fucking thing
You don’t wanna know everything ain’t gold
I been all alone shit ain’t turned out how I’d hoped
I don’t want be here let me get home
I lost my way
Don’t know where I’m going

I feel like im nothing without my lil plastic cups
As of lately I been running out of luck
I feel like im dying every time I tip it up
I feel like crying every time I think of us

You’ve been in my blood
For way too long
You’re all I know
You’re all I know
You’re all I know

plastic cups

punish ft. kasket

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every time you break me down
i'll still be right by your side
i don't know why i still do this to myself
oh i better run and hide

from you
from you
from you
from you

i can't trust my house
it's not even really mine
i still feel the ghost of us walking through the halls
it's haunted by the memories of a better time
these walls have seen some things that i don't wanna see again
i surprise myself
why do i let you in
nothing really seems to help me cope
i just keep sippin this medicine then up the dose
let me let you know

every time you break me down
i'll still be right by your side
i don't know why i still do this to myself
oh i better run and hide

from you
from you
from you
from you

run & hide

vertigo ft kasket

pray to your god

karma

prod. elliot x cam kahin

lyrics:
You took my heart and I let you
Its been falling apart since we met
I been trying so hard to regret you
But oh baby how could I forget
I put up a wall for 6 months
Im working on breaking it down
Even the thought that I could’ve fixed us
Keeps my head from spinning round

Im trying my best
For you
Im trying my hardest 
For us

Not a single day goes by where I don’t think about us
Some things changed in so many ways
that day when I lost your trust
Started looking at me different when we’d wake up
Not a single fucking prayer could’ve saved us
I remember I was watching you go
You reap what you sew and that day I had to pay up you moved on so easily
I thought you and I were strong
How long were you grieving me
Im wrong to say its your fault
Easy to place the blame
When you’ve gotta live with yourself
Im sorry for everything
Memories fade so im writing it down

Im trying my best
For you
Im trying my hardest 
For us

trying

belittling over little things
romanticize hatred for little mistakes
you made them too

dragged through the mud
for speaking my truth
who am i to judge
all the flaws i see in me i see in you

belittling over little things
romanticize hatred for little mistakes
you made them too

you made them too

hatred

cobwebs in my eyes
theres no more struggle
await an imminent demise
come and eat me alive
alive

i fell straight down
my teeth kissed the ground
blood in my mouth
you got something to say then spit it out

black and blue all over me
wounds that never heal right
all these scars still open up
man down call for help
i dont see no one around
i guess ill just help myself
im the only one thats got me now

i fell straight down
my teeth kissed the ground
blood in my mouth
you got something to say then spit it out

eat me alive

falling over ft. kasket

follow the trail
itll lead you back to me
all i needed was help
so badly i could scream
i never made a sound
not even a peep
i've never felt like that

like that
like that
like that
ive never felt like that

somewhere along the way
i think i lost myself
i held you in your grave
didnt hear your cries for help
ill never be the same
my lifes a living hell without you
without you im out of place

youre breathing heavy
i know its a lot 
but ill be right here when youre ready to talk
alright
i promise ill hold you right
no matter how dark the night
ill keep you by my side
you said when it hurts you feel the most alive
but when your say those words baby 
you make me cry

follow the trail
itll lead you back to me
all i needed was help
so badly i could scream
i never made a sound
not even a peep
i've never felt like that

like that
like that
like that
ive never felt like that

somewhere along the way
i think i lost myself
i held you in your grave
didnt hear your cries for help
ill never be the same
my lifes a living hell without you
without you im out of place

outta place

sell me
celebrate me
hate me
mutilate me
bury me
cherish me
you created me
now forget i even existed
forget i even existed at all

forget me

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss

lyrics:
what a lovely surprise
never thought that you could let go of all of your pride
i know how much you needed advice
holding back the fire in your eyes

take your time
so quick to jeopardize your life

you fell for all the shit i told you not to
i say the same old shit
you never take it in
i promise i have your best interest at heart
but you call me a liar
i'm at fault everytime

what a lovely surprise
never thought that you could let go of all of your pride
i know how much you needed advice
holding back the fire in your eyes

take your time
so quick to jeopardize your life

jeopardize

your mine
your mine
your mine
why cant you just admit it
i know sometimes im cynical but baby baby your mine
when we were both lost
you showed me how to love
wont fuck it up this time

you take me high
just to take me down
i want inside of your mind
will you let me inside

when i didnt wanna breathe
you became my one and only reason
i just wanted you to see
how much i need you
i fuckin need you
you make me sick
i was hoping you could make me better
why'd you go and throw salt in my wounds
you know theyre tender
hook line and sink
i fell for everything you fuckin liar
you fuckin liar but your mine

why cant you just admit it
i know sometimes im cynical but baby baby your mine
when we were both lost
you showed me how to love
wont fuck it up this time

you take me high
just to take me down
i want inside of your mind
will you let me inside

mine

i hate facing bones buried in my closet
the monster in the corners got a fuckin staring problem
i cant stand falling victim to your prayer
express you sentiments but dont make me your sacrament
i don't need saving
i must be doing something wrong
you cant change me
ive been unlucky all along

i fear im not my best
i fear im not my best
im on an all time low
you'd never know cause i'm hiding
i feel like someone else
i feel like someone else
i don't take my losses well
i'm throwing in the towel

unlucky

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss

Breathe for once
Believe in me
Trust
Tightness and blurry vision
I would go but I'm afraid of the clinic
Cries out for help it's sickening
I wish you would shut up for once and listen 

It gets too hard to explain
Haven't been feeling the same
Start to dissassociate
Bearing all of this weight I can't handle it
I have been waiting for so long
Just to feel ok I pray to the lord but he's so far
Cause I'm so far gone

Breathe for once
Believe in me
Trust
Tightness and blurry vision
I would go but I'm afraid of the clinic
Cries out for help it's sickening
I wish you would shut up for once and listen

breathing exercises

days go by
since we last said goodbye
i know it might hurt to try
but i,

i'll be your light when theres nothing left
lack of sight and short of breath
i'll be there
i'll be there 
i'll be there when everywhere is nowhere

tired devil rest your head
get a little sleep
you deal with so much
you push it all beneathe
but yours eyes
oh i can see
theyre not the same as they used to be

i'll be your light when theres nothing left
lack of sight and short of breath
i'll be there
i'll be there 
i'll be there when everywhere is nowhere

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss

will you lead me back to heaven
not the best intentions
i would bleed forever
if means we would be together
i gotta hold on
i gotta hold on
need you beside me
need you beside me for now

in deep waters right now
will you let me drown
girl you said it gets better
i need better right now

breathe
just breathe
just breathe

will you lead me back to heaven
not the best intentions
i would bleed forever
if means we would be together
i gotta hold on
i gotta hold on
need you beside me
need you beside me for now

lovers to enemies
my heart was severed
your love was a melody i could sing forever
don't let me down
i dont wanna do this now

breathe
just breathe
just breathe

will you lead me back to heaven
not the best intentions
i would bleed forever
if means we would be together
i gotta hold on
i gotta hold on
need you beside me
need you beside me for now

bleed

https://linktr.ee/jakekiss

lyrics:
wash my hands in holy water again
hope it'll clear me of my sins
waste away my days til the end
getting drunk and doing drugs with all my friends

this is no way to live
i'm overcome with this sickness
ill take it all on the chin
im going down with a grin

im going down
im going way down
im going down
down

feeling sick
said im fine but i lied
no love to give
too dead inside
getting drunk as shit
too fried to try
too weird to live
too rare to die

wash my hands in holy water again
hope it'll clear me of my sins
waste away my days til the end
getting drunk and doing drugs with all my friends

this is no way to live
i'm overcome with this sickness
ill take it all on the chin
im going down with a grin

im going down
im going way down
im going down
down

way down

G L O R Y M A D E
★ Written by @jayportal
★ Composed by @dblcrssmusic
★ Distributed by @glorytothekings
★ Art direction by http://nufaith.ca/
★ Polaroids by http://instagram.com/roseliajean/

Fuck It Up

G L O R Y M A D E
★ Written by @jayportal
★ Composed by @dblcrssmusic
★ Engineered by @dblcrssmusic
★ Distributed by @glorytothekings
★ Art direction by http://nufaith.ca/

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